Well it was a long day! I had 1 1/2 cups of pineapple chunks for breakfast, a banana at 10am, a smart ones for lunch, 6 rice cakes for snack and then I ran up to my Wanaque BFF's house for dinner. She served shrimp scampi. I'm not a fan but I was so lonely that it didn't matter. Turns out it was pretty good. I ate but not a lot.
We followed the dinner with fun conversation and then headed out to Jimmy's Bar in Moonachie. It used to be Manny's, not that it mattered. I had never been to either I don't think. I ordered a white wine. She brought me red and I said nothing.
Right behind me stood a bunch of guys- biker types. This very heavy girl walked in and approached one lovingly. It was clear that they were together, and my guess would've been for awhile. The guy literally pushed her away and stepped to the side. The hurt in her eyes radiated clear through me. She stood there and pasted a smile on for him. When he ordered her to get him a drink she did so- no questions asked and then he proceeded to tell all of his buddies that this was the reason he kept her around. He just closed his eyes to 'do' her only he used much more vulgar language than that. I was appalled.
I looked around only to discover that I felt completely out of place there. I had two sips of the wine, excused myself gracefully and ran for my life! I couldn't get out of there quick enough. I was glad to be back home in my bed with the television on and the covers pulled high. I thought of that girl all night. I identified with her and I could literally hear the sound of my own heart breaking. Why do people judge others by their looks? It's so wrong.
I'm going to sign off here reminding you that you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow will be that much better. Do not let your body stand in the way of your having a good time...like I did.... try and stay positive! If you feel alone, I'm right here. See you next blog. ;-)
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