It's been a whirlwind weekend. My voice left me at work and became a raspy version of it's smoother, former self. A headache began and by the end of the day I was thinking home and hearth were going to be my weekend domain despite all of the plans that I had made. I just couldn't disappoint my best BFF though. Since I have two pills left on the antibiotics from the urinary infection, I know that whatever I have cannot be contagious and so I went over as planned. I drank tea and we talked the night away with a third friend that had helped her paint the ceilings before I got there. The house is looking amazingly good! I left at 10pm.
Saturday morning began with karate at 9:30am. I am feeling so good about going but I have to admit the cold is killing my joints. Still, I did it. I'm happy with myself. The rest of the morning was filled by doing several Valentine's gifts and getting the rest ready for mailing this week. I hope that the girl scout cookies I ordered for my son and my hubby come in before the day...they are thin mint fans and that's their gift from me if they come in on time.
One of the "Santa's Elf" recipients is going crazy trying to find out the true identity of the person that helped them. According to a reliable source- the Elf really helped him out of a tough spot. As thrilled as I am to hear it- I really want to remain anonymous. I know the feeling though. That balloon on my car etc left me half crazed too. I'll keep you posted.
Late afternoon was spent at the nail salon getting my nails and feet done. I felt like a million bucks by the end and got healthy compliments all day including one from a gentleman who held a door open for me claiming that it was his honor to hold the door for such a beautiful woman after I said thank you. I almost fainted right there! I liked that obviously...it's not something that happens every day.
It's Sunday now. Mid-afternoon. I'm doing laundry, I watched some taped shows with my hubby and am going to do my math homework shortly. My day will be spent inside as my voice is still strange, although slightly better.
Have a great day. I'll see you next blog!...and YES! I stuck to the diet like glue. Weigh in is on the 5th as always! ;-)
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
January 28, 2010 Diet Blog
Kicking butt and taking names!! I had a busy day at work, but not a bad one. It was decidedly a lot like Monday was. I have to admit that I was glad to see 4;30 come. I mailed out one of the Valentine's Joke gifts because it will take ten days to reach its destination if its anything like a regular letter. It is literally an envelope in an envelope in an envelope with a tiny card in the end saying "I wondered if you'd go all the way." No signature and I used their own return address! I laughed all of the way to the mailbox. The line is an inside joke and the victim is an old friend. We'll see if they guess who did it! Let the fun begin! I have several more ideas for family and friends too.
It's so cold outside that I could hardly breathe. The wind slapped my face, stung my forehead and iced up my tear filled eyes. It was awful to go the distance to the car after class tonight.
I was able to follow and understand the teacher. Well- I didn't understand the words he used but I read the book and followed the things he was doing on the board and I had a clue at the end of the night so I'm feeling kind of good about that. This weekend I'm going to go over everything that I learned again and see how I do.
My young PA friend wanted to come out this weekend but I had to say no. I'm so busy right now. I really need to get a lock on this school work and I want to remain strict on my diet, which will not happen if she comes. She was okay with it but I feel bad. Still, I had to do the right thing for me. It's RARE for me to do that but I just have to this time.
I think that "we" don't put ourselves first enough and that may play a huge part in the stress of our lives and in the comfort eating I often find myself involved in. I know that I really need to change that about me. If you do to post it in the comments section. I'd love to banter with you about how to change that. I think it would help me immensely.
I guess its like dieting in a way. One baby step at a time until it takes. Then move forward at your own pace. I may have taken my first baby step today. I'll keep you informed. I stuck to the strictness of my diet even in the face of the vending machines at college as my stomach growled heartily. I'm kind of proud of me tonight.
On that note I will say good night, but not before reminding you that you look the best that you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. See you next blog! ;-)
It's so cold outside that I could hardly breathe. The wind slapped my face, stung my forehead and iced up my tear filled eyes. It was awful to go the distance to the car after class tonight.
I was able to follow and understand the teacher. Well- I didn't understand the words he used but I read the book and followed the things he was doing on the board and I had a clue at the end of the night so I'm feeling kind of good about that. This weekend I'm going to go over everything that I learned again and see how I do.
My young PA friend wanted to come out this weekend but I had to say no. I'm so busy right now. I really need to get a lock on this school work and I want to remain strict on my diet, which will not happen if she comes. She was okay with it but I feel bad. Still, I had to do the right thing for me. It's RARE for me to do that but I just have to this time.
I think that "we" don't put ourselves first enough and that may play a huge part in the stress of our lives and in the comfort eating I often find myself involved in. I know that I really need to change that about me. If you do to post it in the comments section. I'd love to banter with you about how to change that. I think it would help me immensely.
I guess its like dieting in a way. One baby step at a time until it takes. Then move forward at your own pace. I may have taken my first baby step today. I'll keep you informed. I stuck to the strictness of my diet even in the face of the vending machines at college as my stomach growled heartily. I'm kind of proud of me tonight.
On that note I will say good night, but not before reminding you that you look the best that you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. See you next blog! ;-)
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
January 27, 2010 Diet Blog
It was a hard day to stay positive but I managed it. My car wouldn't start this morning so I was forced to take a personal day. The guy from the dealership jumped it and it started right up. I had left the lights on. I cannot believe I did that.
I refused to let it get to me. Once the car was back in working order I decided to go to the college and get my book for statistics class. There were thousands of cars and not one parking spot. I gave up after 45 minutes of looking and headed on home. I had planned to get the book after work anyway so I just figured that I would stick to the original plan.
I stopped at the grocery store on the way home and found that I had misplaced the money. I have no idea what happened to it. I was forced to use my credit card, which I hate to do. The money turned up in the trunk of the car thankfully. It must've dropped out when I put my purse in there so that I could go into the college bookstore without putting it in one of those stupid lockers. I did that before I left home to save time.
Anyway, I had time in the afternoon so I went back to the college, got the book and did the homework. It took 3 hours and change. It is so hard. I'm scared for my 4.0. I think I may have to wave goodbye...but I hope not.
My husband came home but had to leave after only an hour to teach his class at Seton Hall. The rest of the night was lonely but I'm really okay. I still feel good. I had a nice light dinner and a perfect temperature shower and my kitties showed me too much love to describe so I'm thinking that life is pretty good. Am I crazy? ...It's a distinct possibility.
I thought of some really cute and playful things to do for my loved ones on Valentine's Day. I'll keep you posted on that status. My mind feels free of stress...weird right? Maybe its because I wrote a lot tonight to fill the time. I love writing.
My husband just arrived home so I am going to close for tonight. I stuck to the diet like glue even in the face of the days total adversity so I'm good to go as they say.
Remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. See you next blog. ;-)
I refused to let it get to me. Once the car was back in working order I decided to go to the college and get my book for statistics class. There were thousands of cars and not one parking spot. I gave up after 45 minutes of looking and headed on home. I had planned to get the book after work anyway so I just figured that I would stick to the original plan.
I stopped at the grocery store on the way home and found that I had misplaced the money. I have no idea what happened to it. I was forced to use my credit card, which I hate to do. The money turned up in the trunk of the car thankfully. It must've dropped out when I put my purse in there so that I could go into the college bookstore without putting it in one of those stupid lockers. I did that before I left home to save time.
Anyway, I had time in the afternoon so I went back to the college, got the book and did the homework. It took 3 hours and change. It is so hard. I'm scared for my 4.0. I think I may have to wave goodbye...but I hope not.
My husband came home but had to leave after only an hour to teach his class at Seton Hall. The rest of the night was lonely but I'm really okay. I still feel good. I had a nice light dinner and a perfect temperature shower and my kitties showed me too much love to describe so I'm thinking that life is pretty good. Am I crazy? ...It's a distinct possibility.
I thought of some really cute and playful things to do for my loved ones on Valentine's Day. I'll keep you posted on that status. My mind feels free of stress...weird right? Maybe its because I wrote a lot tonight to fill the time. I love writing.
My husband just arrived home so I am going to close for tonight. I stuck to the diet like glue even in the face of the days total adversity so I'm good to go as they say.
Remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. See you next blog. ;-)
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
January 26, 2010 Diet Blog
Once again, I stuck to the diet like glue. I'm very proud of myself for that. It is a serious accomplishment given the amount of parties and the like that are going on around me lately. I don't move even one milimeter...I just gracefully decline and am biding my time until Valentine's Day. That's the cheat Day. Actually it changed to the 13th because I am cooking dinner for my beautiful baby boy and his wife as a Valentine's Day gift.
I spoke to my searcher BFF today. She said that my blog inspired a very profound thought in her...after she told me what it was, she inspired it in me. I guess one good turn deserves another right? She said that she feels the need to pull away from the negative; like negativity in people around her. I listened as she spoke and fully grasped the concept of what she was saying. In a manner of speaking "misery loves company." They try to drag you into the myer. Once your in, it's real easy to get stuck. At least that was my interpretation of the over all concept of the conversation.
With me, the negativity latches on. I'm not one for confrontation so it usually eats me alive from the inside. With me, bad eating habits are my vice. I turn to food for comfort even though I know better. It then creates a vicious circle which pulls me into the eye of the tornado...and fifty pounds later I'm as miserable as they are... do you see what I mean? I'm also trying not to go that way.
Today began 15 minutes before work started with a nasty client coming in and making everyone around him feel as miserable as he was feeling. Normally that kind of an encounter sets the presedence for my entire day. I didn't allow it to though. It turns out the day wasn't too bad. There were moments- make no mistake that there's clearly a full moon on the horizon, but it was okay.
Tonight I went to the first class of the semester at college. It was Statistics. Math. NOT my forte. The teacher's accent is beyond thick...I understood every third word or so. The guy next to me was just lovely though. He shared his email from the teacher, which I did not get and his book which I have to purchase tomorrow at the school book store. He coached me through the parts that I couldn't understand and it all worked out. After class I told him how nice that I thought he was. Apparently we had another class together and I coached him through. He wouldn't have passed it if it hadn't been for me he said. Nice right> Kindness really does pay off in the end doesn't it?
So all in all I'm going to have to say that positive, affirmative action is the way to go. I'm feeling very good tonight. It's late and I'm heading off for slumber land. See you next blog. ;-)
I spoke to my searcher BFF today. She said that my blog inspired a very profound thought in her...after she told me what it was, she inspired it in me. I guess one good turn deserves another right? She said that she feels the need to pull away from the negative; like negativity in people around her. I listened as she spoke and fully grasped the concept of what she was saying. In a manner of speaking "misery loves company." They try to drag you into the myer. Once your in, it's real easy to get stuck. At least that was my interpretation of the over all concept of the conversation.
With me, the negativity latches on. I'm not one for confrontation so it usually eats me alive from the inside. With me, bad eating habits are my vice. I turn to food for comfort even though I know better. It then creates a vicious circle which pulls me into the eye of the tornado...and fifty pounds later I'm as miserable as they are... do you see what I mean? I'm also trying not to go that way.
Today began 15 minutes before work started with a nasty client coming in and making everyone around him feel as miserable as he was feeling. Normally that kind of an encounter sets the presedence for my entire day. I didn't allow it to though. It turns out the day wasn't too bad. There were moments- make no mistake that there's clearly a full moon on the horizon, but it was okay.
Tonight I went to the first class of the semester at college. It was Statistics. Math. NOT my forte. The teacher's accent is beyond thick...I understood every third word or so. The guy next to me was just lovely though. He shared his email from the teacher, which I did not get and his book which I have to purchase tomorrow at the school book store. He coached me through the parts that I couldn't understand and it all worked out. After class I told him how nice that I thought he was. Apparently we had another class together and I coached him through. He wouldn't have passed it if it hadn't been for me he said. Nice right> Kindness really does pay off in the end doesn't it?
So all in all I'm going to have to say that positive, affirmative action is the way to go. I'm feeling very good tonight. It's late and I'm heading off for slumber land. See you next blog. ;-)
January 25, 2010 Diet Blog
It was a long day at work but not a bad one. I stuck to the diet like glue and was very tired by the time I arrived home. My co-worker is doing great on her journey as well. The girl that thought she had the urinary infection like I had came back. She had a kidney stone. She really suffered- the poor thing.
All in all I have nothing profound to say with the exception that I'm remaining positive and forging ahead to the best of my ability. School starts tomorrow again so I'm very anxious about that. I'm not looking forward to it the way that I used to.
Please forgive the short note. I will try and do better tomorrow. If you have anything you'd like to talk about feel free to put it in the comments section. I'm just pushing through the rest of the night and heading for bed.
Remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. See you next blog! ;-)
All in all I have nothing profound to say with the exception that I'm remaining positive and forging ahead to the best of my ability. School starts tomorrow again so I'm very anxious about that. I'm not looking forward to it the way that I used to.
Please forgive the short note. I will try and do better tomorrow. If you have anything you'd like to talk about feel free to put it in the comments section. I'm just pushing through the rest of the night and heading for bed.
Remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. See you next blog! ;-)
Sunday, January 24, 2010
January 23-24 2010 Diet Blog
Whew! What a weekend! My Saturday began with a morning dedicated to karate. I worked hard. I am very rusty but I gave it everything that I had, so I feel like I honestly can say that I did well.
I went home to straighten the house and get ready for my friend's son's 14th birthday party. In order to do that I had to pick up an old friend whose car broke down in North Bergen and then come all the way back past my house and go to Ridgewood where the party was. I am happy to report that each task went down without a hitch and we went to the party making several great people very happy.
After that North Bergen buddy decided to stay the night at my house so that we could go to karaoke together. Blairstown Buddy joined us and we had a great night at karaoke, where I was complimented left and right about my outfit...my body...everything... and then a fun pajama party! I felt like a child again! It was so much fun. I'm happy and thrilled to report that I stuck to my diet even in the face of the children's party goodies and pizza. I am proud of me!
I took North Bergen home this morning and Blairstown took herself. Then the next event was to occur. My mother-in-laws birthday was today. My sister-in-law wanted us all to go out together as a family. Mom in law chose Houlihan's.
I only had 2 yogurts for breakfast and lunch and I was petrified that I would do the wrong thing at dinner.
While I was at mom in laws house waiting to go out my husband left to go to the ATM for some cash and my sister in law went to pick up the kids. I sat with mom in law and she opened my gifts. I gave her a roll of stamps, some fancy note paper, a beautiful rose candle...real roses...lovely, a little frame and two cards with a chocolate Dove red rose on each one. One from me and I made my husband sign the other. It was like pulling teeth but it made her so happy that I was glad that I did it. She actually choked up at the cards.
She is keeping a journal of things that she finds interesting which I thought was great and when she offered to read it to me I was both honored and thrilled. Sadly the thrill died when she got to the quotes that she likes page. One of the quotes was "Second place is just the first loser." It's a fine quote...a little negative though..., but then she added that she thought of me when she read it. I felt funny about it. It felt like a back handed way of saying something negative about me... like I'm too stupid to catch it or something...I didn't like it. I said nothing because shes 82 and I'd like with all of my heart to believe that she meant that she thought I was a perfectionist or something along those lines.
The dinner went well though. I had one half of a Southwest wrap. I didn't touch a french fry, even though they were on the plate after I asked for them to be left off. I drank diet coke. I had the sandwich half that was left wrapped for my husband to take for lunch tomorrow and I'm good to go! I admit to being very proud of myself this weekend. I'm REALLY trying. I hope that the number shows it on the 5th.
I will sign off here. Remember that you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow will be that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive! See you next Blog! ;-)
I went home to straighten the house and get ready for my friend's son's 14th birthday party. In order to do that I had to pick up an old friend whose car broke down in North Bergen and then come all the way back past my house and go to Ridgewood where the party was. I am happy to report that each task went down without a hitch and we went to the party making several great people very happy.
After that North Bergen buddy decided to stay the night at my house so that we could go to karaoke together. Blairstown Buddy joined us and we had a great night at karaoke, where I was complimented left and right about my outfit...my body...everything... and then a fun pajama party! I felt like a child again! It was so much fun. I'm happy and thrilled to report that I stuck to my diet even in the face of the children's party goodies and pizza. I am proud of me!
I took North Bergen home this morning and Blairstown took herself. Then the next event was to occur. My mother-in-laws birthday was today. My sister-in-law wanted us all to go out together as a family. Mom in law chose Houlihan's.
I only had 2 yogurts for breakfast and lunch and I was petrified that I would do the wrong thing at dinner.
While I was at mom in laws house waiting to go out my husband left to go to the ATM for some cash and my sister in law went to pick up the kids. I sat with mom in law and she opened my gifts. I gave her a roll of stamps, some fancy note paper, a beautiful rose candle...real roses...lovely, a little frame and two cards with a chocolate Dove red rose on each one. One from me and I made my husband sign the other. It was like pulling teeth but it made her so happy that I was glad that I did it. She actually choked up at the cards.
She is keeping a journal of things that she finds interesting which I thought was great and when she offered to read it to me I was both honored and thrilled. Sadly the thrill died when she got to the quotes that she likes page. One of the quotes was "Second place is just the first loser." It's a fine quote...a little negative though..., but then she added that she thought of me when she read it. I felt funny about it. It felt like a back handed way of saying something negative about me... like I'm too stupid to catch it or something...I didn't like it. I said nothing because shes 82 and I'd like with all of my heart to believe that she meant that she thought I was a perfectionist or something along those lines.
The dinner went well though. I had one half of a Southwest wrap. I didn't touch a french fry, even though they were on the plate after I asked for them to be left off. I drank diet coke. I had the sandwich half that was left wrapped for my husband to take for lunch tomorrow and I'm good to go! I admit to being very proud of myself this weekend. I'm REALLY trying. I hope that the number shows it on the 5th.
I will sign off here. Remember that you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow will be that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive! See you next Blog! ;-)
Friday, January 22, 2010
January 21-22, 2010 Diet Blog
I felt kind of bad when I got home on Thursday night so I didn't blog. I was having a go-round with my own mind. I have been doing that lately. Maybe its the medication...I'm not sure. I begin by daydreaming about how different life will be if I actually get the weight off. I see myself walking on the beach, at a pool or in a great big airport wearing comfortable clothes that I look sexy and sassy in on the way to the place where I will be doing a book signing.
The thoughts drift to why its not happening faster and what number the scale is showing and being so large even though I'm trying hard and have been for quite some time- or at least it feels that way. I feel discourages, sad and depressed. Why is it so hard? Stay the course- I tell myself.
My mind then veered again to the nice things that I've been trying to do for others anonymously. I tell the Lord I don't want the instant karma thing to be the reason- I just want to do nice things. I don't want anything unless he feels like helping me do those things. I don't want to be THAT person.
I admit openly that I actually love to tease people and that's whats "in it" for me. I can tease them and if I can help them at the same time- well then so be it. I talk to the Lord often. As it turns out, he listens.
I opened the front desk at work this morning in the usual manner but I forgot to flip over the angel calender. I was explaining all of this to my coworker when I noticed that it needed to be date changed. I flipped it over and the inspirational view of the angels was "Spread your wings and fly with confidence, earth angel." Wow. BOTH things were answered in one moment of time. All I had to do was to pay attention.
After that nice things happened all day. One coworker that I'm cordial with but hold at bay friendship wise offered to help me get a book signing at "Bookends" book store in Ridgewood. She is closely affiliated with the Chamber of Commerce in that town. After I reconnected my jaw I spoke to her at length about it. When she left to go about her day it stuck with me for a long time. Did THAT really happen? Nice things happened to me on a subtle level all day too. It was so wild.
My coworker is doing great on her diet as well and I'm feeling VERY happy about that. She is taking care of her daughters boyfriend right now. He got hurt in a motorcycle accident and has needed several surgeries to repair the damage to his leg. This one should see him able to walk again which is wonderful news for her. His family is far away. She stepped up to the plate as did her entire family. These are truly special people. Just being near her brings me closer to God I feel. Shes the genuine article... she doesn't get anything out of it other than love. I strive to be like that.
I stuck to the diet but my mind is still reeling with feelings of discouragement and low self worth. I just long to look in the mirror and feel good about what I see. One day....
Tomorrow is going to present a pretty big challenge. I have karate early in the morning. A birthday party in the afternoon and karaoke with Blairstown BFF and her friends. Her friends are gay. She felt the need to let me know. I assured her that I have many gay friends. I accept that they are gay if they accept that I am not. Its that simple. She liked my response she said.
So that's it for the last two days. I'm working hard on dieting and trying to pull myself out of this tailspin I've gotten myself stuck in before it spirals out of control. So far I've got the helm. I'll keep you posted.
Remember...and I will try to also: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive...A HUGE thing! See you next blog! ;-)
The thoughts drift to why its not happening faster and what number the scale is showing and being so large even though I'm trying hard and have been for quite some time- or at least it feels that way. I feel discourages, sad and depressed. Why is it so hard? Stay the course- I tell myself.
My mind then veered again to the nice things that I've been trying to do for others anonymously. I tell the Lord I don't want the instant karma thing to be the reason- I just want to do nice things. I don't want anything unless he feels like helping me do those things. I don't want to be THAT person.
I admit openly that I actually love to tease people and that's whats "in it" for me. I can tease them and if I can help them at the same time- well then so be it. I talk to the Lord often. As it turns out, he listens.
I opened the front desk at work this morning in the usual manner but I forgot to flip over the angel calender. I was explaining all of this to my coworker when I noticed that it needed to be date changed. I flipped it over and the inspirational view of the angels was "Spread your wings and fly with confidence, earth angel." Wow. BOTH things were answered in one moment of time. All I had to do was to pay attention.
After that nice things happened all day. One coworker that I'm cordial with but hold at bay friendship wise offered to help me get a book signing at "Bookends" book store in Ridgewood. She is closely affiliated with the Chamber of Commerce in that town. After I reconnected my jaw I spoke to her at length about it. When she left to go about her day it stuck with me for a long time. Did THAT really happen? Nice things happened to me on a subtle level all day too. It was so wild.
My coworker is doing great on her diet as well and I'm feeling VERY happy about that. She is taking care of her daughters boyfriend right now. He got hurt in a motorcycle accident and has needed several surgeries to repair the damage to his leg. This one should see him able to walk again which is wonderful news for her. His family is far away. She stepped up to the plate as did her entire family. These are truly special people. Just being near her brings me closer to God I feel. Shes the genuine article... she doesn't get anything out of it other than love. I strive to be like that.
I stuck to the diet but my mind is still reeling with feelings of discouragement and low self worth. I just long to look in the mirror and feel good about what I see. One day....
Tomorrow is going to present a pretty big challenge. I have karate early in the morning. A birthday party in the afternoon and karaoke with Blairstown BFF and her friends. Her friends are gay. She felt the need to let me know. I assured her that I have many gay friends. I accept that they are gay if they accept that I am not. Its that simple. She liked my response she said.
So that's it for the last two days. I'm working hard on dieting and trying to pull myself out of this tailspin I've gotten myself stuck in before it spirals out of control. So far I've got the helm. I'll keep you posted.
Remember...and I will try to also: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive...A HUGE thing! See you next blog! ;-)
Thursday, January 21, 2010
January 20, 2010 Diet Blog
I feel so much better today. Not 100% but okay. It was another busy day but not as overwhelming as yesterday. I daydreamed a lot about a bunch of things that I probably shouldn't have. I feel so discouraged about my weight loss progress. It takes so long and its so hard. I wish I could be like other people and just be naturally thin. I hope that I get it off and then keep it off and I pray that it happens fast. That's where my dreaming came in. More ...wishing I guess.
I stuck the the diet even though I feel depression creeping in. I usually eat during times like this but I just keep telling myself that Valentine's Day is the next cheat day. I will have a visit with my son and I'll eat something delicious and I'll feel wonderful and normal at least for that one day. I prayed hard for the angels, the Lord and any other kind of help that I could get from above today. I feel like I've been answered. "Patience" was a word that seemed to fill my head.
It was funny to talk to my coworker about my horoscopes that are on face book lately too. She noticed that a bunch of them said that something big is going to occur. Something that will change my life and will ultimately be one of the best things that ever happened to me. It's scary. I would like it to be fame finding me through my books. I hope that it is that.
The night is just a lonely, quiet one. My husband is teaching a diving class again. I am on my own so I'm heading for the hot shower and some rest. I bid you a lovely day or night depending upon when you are able to read this and I remind us all once again that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive...I know its hard...I struggle with it too. You are not alone. I'm right here with you. See you next blog! ;-)
I stuck the the diet even though I feel depression creeping in. I usually eat during times like this but I just keep telling myself that Valentine's Day is the next cheat day. I will have a visit with my son and I'll eat something delicious and I'll feel wonderful and normal at least for that one day. I prayed hard for the angels, the Lord and any other kind of help that I could get from above today. I feel like I've been answered. "Patience" was a word that seemed to fill my head.
It was funny to talk to my coworker about my horoscopes that are on face book lately too. She noticed that a bunch of them said that something big is going to occur. Something that will change my life and will ultimately be one of the best things that ever happened to me. It's scary. I would like it to be fame finding me through my books. I hope that it is that.
The night is just a lonely, quiet one. My husband is teaching a diving class again. I am on my own so I'm heading for the hot shower and some rest. I bid you a lovely day or night depending upon when you are able to read this and I remind us all once again that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive...I know its hard...I struggle with it too. You are not alone. I'm right here with you. See you next blog! ;-)
January 19, 2010 Diet Blog
It was a seriously busy day at work. There was hardly enough time to take a deep breath. I'm actually thankful though because it helped me not think about feeling so sick.
My coworker is thinking about going to see a hypnotist to assist her in losing weight. She asked me if I wanted to go with her. I thought about it and actually leaned toward going to see what it was all about. It turns out that I cannot go so the decision was made for me. Its on the first Tuesday of the month which makes it a school night at college for me. She is going to go and let me know how it goes though and of course I will tell you.
My husband had to go teach a diving class and my sister-in-law wanted me to come over for dinner. She had made homemade soup. I just felt so odd about it that I said I'd stop over after grocery shopping but dinner was not an option because I had already eaten with my husband before he left.
I went grocery shopping and then stopped over there as planned. The kids were so happy to see me. It was great. My niece made me a hippy headband and a ring, which I wore with pride until I got out to my car. It was cute. I held both my niece and my nephew on my lap in turn. They are getting so big.
I stuck to the diet as best I could. I began feeling better which I thank heaven for. Tomorrow is another day. See you next blog. ;-)
My coworker is thinking about going to see a hypnotist to assist her in losing weight. She asked me if I wanted to go with her. I thought about it and actually leaned toward going to see what it was all about. It turns out that I cannot go so the decision was made for me. Its on the first Tuesday of the month which makes it a school night at college for me. She is going to go and let me know how it goes though and of course I will tell you.
My husband had to go teach a diving class and my sister-in-law wanted me to come over for dinner. She had made homemade soup. I just felt so odd about it that I said I'd stop over after grocery shopping but dinner was not an option because I had already eaten with my husband before he left.
I went grocery shopping and then stopped over there as planned. The kids were so happy to see me. It was great. My niece made me a hippy headband and a ring, which I wore with pride until I got out to my car. It was cute. I held both my niece and my nephew on my lap in turn. They are getting so big.
I stuck to the diet as best I could. I began feeling better which I thank heaven for. Tomorrow is another day. See you next blog. ;-)
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
January 18, 2010 Diet Blog
Got to work on time. Found out a coworker also has a bladder infection- at least she thought she did. She went home; landed at the doctors office and was sent for scans. They think hers is a possible kidney stone. Gees.... I'm ok. Still under the weather but feeling better. The meds seem to be kicking in but they leave me nauseas.
I stuck to diet but once again could not stomach any kind of food. I had no breakfast, a plain yogurt at lunch and the same for dinner. I just couldn't get my stomach to calm down. It has decided to rebel against me.
I had a bad thing happen to me...actually is was a comment made to me. We were discussing weight loss of course and I said that I was actually pretty happy with myself because I've been on a roll lately. My sister-in-law said "are you sure that's just a roll, and not a sub or a hero?" She laughed but it cut me to the quick. Why would she say that. She's not thin herself. I did not retort or comment back but it hurt my feelings. I know that I'm still not where I wish that I was but I'm out there trying hard and succeeding in as far as the scale is headed in the right direction. It just bothered me so much. Sometimes I think people just get off on using me as a target to get the scope sites off of themselves.
Normally a thing like that would've sent me reeling; running to eat away the stress. Thankfully the Lord saw fit to make my body rebel against food today. I wish people would treat me the way that I treat them though. Too much to ask I guess because I'm very conscious of trying to be good and kind because I think its important.
I'm heading off to bed. I'm still dragging my tail. See you next blog. ;-)
I stuck to diet but once again could not stomach any kind of food. I had no breakfast, a plain yogurt at lunch and the same for dinner. I just couldn't get my stomach to calm down. It has decided to rebel against me.
I had a bad thing happen to me...actually is was a comment made to me. We were discussing weight loss of course and I said that I was actually pretty happy with myself because I've been on a roll lately. My sister-in-law said "are you sure that's just a roll, and not a sub or a hero?" She laughed but it cut me to the quick. Why would she say that. She's not thin herself. I did not retort or comment back but it hurt my feelings. I know that I'm still not where I wish that I was but I'm out there trying hard and succeeding in as far as the scale is headed in the right direction. It just bothered me so much. Sometimes I think people just get off on using me as a target to get the scope sites off of themselves.
Normally a thing like that would've sent me reeling; running to eat away the stress. Thankfully the Lord saw fit to make my body rebel against food today. I wish people would treat me the way that I treat them though. Too much to ask I guess because I'm very conscious of trying to be good and kind because I think its important.
I'm heading off to bed. I'm still dragging my tail. See you next blog. ;-)
Monday, January 18, 2010
January 17, 2010 Diet Blog
Martin Luther King day. The man with a dream...may he rest in peace.
I went to the doctor. I got antibiotics for a urinary tract infection. My stomach hurts from it and from the medicine. I ate noodles and sauce for lunch. No breakfast. Some peanuts as a snack and that was it for the day.
I did every stitch of laundry and some miscellaneous cleaning. I went to the post office but they were closed. I did everything at a leisurely pace and slept in between. I'm just not feeling well. My 3 day weekend is over and I basically wasted it by being sick. I guess rest is a good thing but I feel like life is passing me by so quickly.
This blog is going to be short because I feel so ill but I did want to mention one thing that happened at the doctors office. They left the door open to my room and so I got a glimpse of the patient that was going into the next room. I'd say she was maybe 150-160 on a five foot three or four inch frame. I saw the nurse go in there and heard the nurse tell her about a test that she needed to have done. She gave her options of going here or there to get the test done but then clearly told her that she couldn't go to the third option because of her 'weight problem." I was horrified. She wasn't obese or even close to it. Granted she had a little extra weight on her but I'd hardly call it a problem. She left with her face hanging. My heart bled for her. When the doctor came in to talk to me I winced. Not because of the pain of him pushing on my belly but because he might tell me that too. It fits me but I would be devastated. I'm sure that the other patient was. He didn't say it but I felt it.
I'm too sick to continue this but I don't understand why things like that occur. That's a doctors office for heaven sake. Is that good bedside manner? Do they even teach good bedside manner anymore?
I'm obviously off the beaten trail for the diet. I didn't break it but I didn't eat right either. So much for being on a roll. I'm kind of "bummed" about losing the momentum but like I often tell you guys- tomorrow is another day. Start again...and so will I. See you next blog. ;-)
I went to the doctor. I got antibiotics for a urinary tract infection. My stomach hurts from it and from the medicine. I ate noodles and sauce for lunch. No breakfast. Some peanuts as a snack and that was it for the day.
I did every stitch of laundry and some miscellaneous cleaning. I went to the post office but they were closed. I did everything at a leisurely pace and slept in between. I'm just not feeling well. My 3 day weekend is over and I basically wasted it by being sick. I guess rest is a good thing but I feel like life is passing me by so quickly.
This blog is going to be short because I feel so ill but I did want to mention one thing that happened at the doctors office. They left the door open to my room and so I got a glimpse of the patient that was going into the next room. I'd say she was maybe 150-160 on a five foot three or four inch frame. I saw the nurse go in there and heard the nurse tell her about a test that she needed to have done. She gave her options of going here or there to get the test done but then clearly told her that she couldn't go to the third option because of her 'weight problem." I was horrified. She wasn't obese or even close to it. Granted she had a little extra weight on her but I'd hardly call it a problem. She left with her face hanging. My heart bled for her. When the doctor came in to talk to me I winced. Not because of the pain of him pushing on my belly but because he might tell me that too. It fits me but I would be devastated. I'm sure that the other patient was. He didn't say it but I felt it.
I'm too sick to continue this but I don't understand why things like that occur. That's a doctors office for heaven sake. Is that good bedside manner? Do they even teach good bedside manner anymore?
I'm obviously off the beaten trail for the diet. I didn't break it but I didn't eat right either. So much for being on a roll. I'm kind of "bummed" about losing the momentum but like I often tell you guys- tomorrow is another day. Start again...and so will I. See you next blog. ;-)
Sunday, January 17, 2010
January 16, 2010 Diet Blog
It was a lazy Saturday. I have a stomach ache. It feels as if I have a urinary tract infection after all. I purchased some over the counter medication. Hopefully it will help. If not I'll have to go see a doc. Yuck!
I stuck to my diet like glue. It was a pretty lazy day though. I bummed around doing housework at a leisurely pace and then boom! An idea for the character in my new book overwhelmed me! It took her personality to a whole new level. I sat down, began writing and got ten pages not double spaced written in a matter of hours. It was wild. I'm so happy with the rough draft! I LOVE Writing! It's such a "RUSH!!" My friends/proof readers love it too! It's not my normal style at all but its sexy, has a hint of danger and intrigue and is fun! This opened up a whole new aspect to the main character. I'm so excited about it.
Later I went on face book. There is a friend on there who lost their job. The bills got met this month but the friend cannot afford to buy food. I couldn't help it. I stuck $20 bucks in an envelope with no return address and sent it off from :The Grocery Fairy. I know...I know... it'll leave me short but I had to. I'm able to eat...too able as you well know...and I am gainfully employed. This economy is killing the spirit of good people.
Later I had an appointment for a Mani-pedi. I cancelled the pedi to make up for the money. My hands and my feet don't match but I feel good about myself anyway. My feet are Christmas glitter red, my hands are purple/Burgundy. So what? Whose going to see my feet anyway? I helped someone get food. Am I crazy?
I'm just scared that the person will post it on face book. The "Santa's Elf" persons are still doing that. I just hope they don't see each others posts and trace it back to the fact that they all know me. Gees...is this what a criminal goes through? Thank heaven I'm not THAT!!
Other than that it was a lazy day. I'm happy with myself. But nervous that I might get caught. It's better NOT to get caught because then the person never feels obliged in any way or HAS to be nice to me or whatever. They can just be themselves...no weirdness. As it is I'll have to force myself to look them in the eye...lying is not my strong suit lol. Do you understand? My day has been that. I play ping pong in my brain on and off. ;-) Too late though. I act on those thoughts right away so I won't cower....
On that note I will sign off reminding you that you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. I will work on these things too. We're in this together! See you next Blog! ;-)
I stuck to my diet like glue. It was a pretty lazy day though. I bummed around doing housework at a leisurely pace and then boom! An idea for the character in my new book overwhelmed me! It took her personality to a whole new level. I sat down, began writing and got ten pages not double spaced written in a matter of hours. It was wild. I'm so happy with the rough draft! I LOVE Writing! It's such a "RUSH!!" My friends/proof readers love it too! It's not my normal style at all but its sexy, has a hint of danger and intrigue and is fun! This opened up a whole new aspect to the main character. I'm so excited about it.
Later I went on face book. There is a friend on there who lost their job. The bills got met this month but the friend cannot afford to buy food. I couldn't help it. I stuck $20 bucks in an envelope with no return address and sent it off from :The Grocery Fairy. I know...I know... it'll leave me short but I had to. I'm able to eat...too able as you well know...and I am gainfully employed. This economy is killing the spirit of good people.
Later I had an appointment for a Mani-pedi. I cancelled the pedi to make up for the money. My hands and my feet don't match but I feel good about myself anyway. My feet are Christmas glitter red, my hands are purple/Burgundy. So what? Whose going to see my feet anyway? I helped someone get food. Am I crazy?
I'm just scared that the person will post it on face book. The "Santa's Elf" persons are still doing that. I just hope they don't see each others posts and trace it back to the fact that they all know me. Gees...is this what a criminal goes through? Thank heaven I'm not THAT!!
Other than that it was a lazy day. I'm happy with myself. But nervous that I might get caught. It's better NOT to get caught because then the person never feels obliged in any way or HAS to be nice to me or whatever. They can just be themselves...no weirdness. As it is I'll have to force myself to look them in the eye...lying is not my strong suit lol. Do you understand? My day has been that. I play ping pong in my brain on and off. ;-) Too late though. I act on those thoughts right away so I won't cower....
On that note I will sign off reminding you that you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. I will work on these things too. We're in this together! See you next Blog! ;-)
January 15 Diet Blog
It was such a nice day at work. We were busy but not overwhelmed; it was the lead in for a three day weekend; the mail was normal... it was just an all around pleasant day. I stuck to my diet like glue because my front desk co-worker won both of the office lotteries. She turned so red! It was my turn to pull a name after the first one had already been pulled by the record room supervisor. I pulled her name out and it was all done fair and square with witnesses. Of course I teased her that it was a fix and I should get half. ;-)
She took the winnings and did the nicest thing. She played the lottery for everyone and then she purchased ice cream and fruit for everyone. I stayed the course.... Wasn't that so nice of her though? I thought it was. I played the lottery with her too. We played $5 worth. If we win I want to do like she did and share it with everyone in a nice way. What a great idea!
You may or may not remember that the karate one on one with me and Joshu was rescheduled to tonight at 7;30pm rather than tomorrow morning early. I found myself to be a little apprehensive about going but of course I went anyway. They teach courage there; facing fears...that type of thing. I couldn't chicken out and live with myself.
I was expected to warm up with the actual class, so I went onto the mat. I sincerely tried to hide in the back but the Sempai leading the warm ups wasn't having it. He called me to the front. I had to comply. That's how it works. I followed instructions. He smiled at me in a teasing manner. Later, he reminded me about a time when he was a yellow belt...I had apparently done something similar to him. I had to laugh. If everyone remembers that person I'm in for one helluva ride lol. Later another person commented to me when I spoke of hiding in the back, "Why do you try so hard to fit in when clearly you were born to stand out?" I wrote it on my face book page when I got home. He quoted a movie. I'm both flattered and Flabbergasted....
Warm ups went okay and I was able to calm down. Joshu then called me off of the mat for the private. We went into the enclosed, smaller room and we worked together diligently, bringing me up to speed on the evolved changes in the curriculum. It was frightening! I may as well have gone in as a white belt. Everything has changed. The challenge to me will be a great one needless to say. I have another private scheduled for next Saturday at 9;30 am. I'll keep you posted. Joshu was just lovely. It was like De'Jevu in reverse though. I used to be her. It's like hearing my own words come from somebody else.
That's about it for now. I will continue to keep you posted.
Remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. Were in this together! See you next Blog! ;-)
She took the winnings and did the nicest thing. She played the lottery for everyone and then she purchased ice cream and fruit for everyone. I stayed the course.... Wasn't that so nice of her though? I thought it was. I played the lottery with her too. We played $5 worth. If we win I want to do like she did and share it with everyone in a nice way. What a great idea!
You may or may not remember that the karate one on one with me and Joshu was rescheduled to tonight at 7;30pm rather than tomorrow morning early. I found myself to be a little apprehensive about going but of course I went anyway. They teach courage there; facing fears...that type of thing. I couldn't chicken out and live with myself.
I was expected to warm up with the actual class, so I went onto the mat. I sincerely tried to hide in the back but the Sempai leading the warm ups wasn't having it. He called me to the front. I had to comply. That's how it works. I followed instructions. He smiled at me in a teasing manner. Later, he reminded me about a time when he was a yellow belt...I had apparently done something similar to him. I had to laugh. If everyone remembers that person I'm in for one helluva ride lol. Later another person commented to me when I spoke of hiding in the back, "Why do you try so hard to fit in when clearly you were born to stand out?" I wrote it on my face book page when I got home. He quoted a movie. I'm both flattered and Flabbergasted....
Warm ups went okay and I was able to calm down. Joshu then called me off of the mat for the private. We went into the enclosed, smaller room and we worked together diligently, bringing me up to speed on the evolved changes in the curriculum. It was frightening! I may as well have gone in as a white belt. Everything has changed. The challenge to me will be a great one needless to say. I have another private scheduled for next Saturday at 9;30 am. I'll keep you posted. Joshu was just lovely. It was like De'Jevu in reverse though. I used to be her. It's like hearing my own words come from somebody else.
That's about it for now. I will continue to keep you posted.
Remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. Were in this together! See you next Blog! ;-)
Thursday, January 14, 2010
January 14, 2010 Diet Blog
So it's been two straight weeks! I haven't had so much as a morsel of food that is bad for me. I feel a little weaker when I'm under stress and I am right now, but have been able to deter the feelings so far. I have a little depression too. I know why...but not really...it's hard to explain.
I got a letter in the mail from an old friend that I haven't seen in awhile. It was in response to the holiday things that I did to reach out to others. It was so nice to hear from her. She's doing well and says that she misses me terribly. I miss her too. It was just a separation of lives that got busy...nothing caused it. I wonder why that happens sometimes. Missing her made me sad. I'm an elevator ride of emotion again....
Face book messages are coming in fast and furious. I'm friends with people that wouldn't have given me the time of day in high school. They are fun, nice and decent human beings...well except one guy...he's a big tease and a big flirt... I think he was that back in the day as well, only not with me. I was a nerd.
The co-worker did not say good morning or anything pleasant along those lines after I greeted her this morning. How stupid. Lets recap...you were mistaken- you got uppity about it- you were wrong and now your acting like an idiot...okay...later I walked out with the crowd the same as I always do. She nearly fell- or at least we all thought she was going to fall. I couldn't help it- I asked if she was alright. She explained that her shoe just made the noise as it scraped the cobblestone as she walked. We all said goodnight. So maybe she reconsidered? Hope so. It's dumb.
I heard a thing on the radio this morning that bothered me some. The question of the day was would you give up your boyfriend for a million dollars. Maybe the key word is boyfriend. I admit to there being times when I felt like I would've given hubby away for nothing but not really! If it came down to it he's worth a million times a million and then some.... I felt bad for the people that the answers were about but worse for the ones giving the answers. Poor things. How sad is that?
I'm feeling much better. I'm having a lot of "symptoms" though. For instance, the head ache the other day, the stomach ache that followed, breaking out in pimples... depression, stress... my husband thinks that my body is literally detoxing after the holiday extravaganza of food and the cold-turkey switch over to healthy living. He may be right. I hope it starts shedding weight now that withdrawal is finished.
I'll close the blog here reminding us all that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Do not let our perceptions of our body stand in the way of us having fun! Stay positive and stay the course! See you next blog!
I got a letter in the mail from an old friend that I haven't seen in awhile. It was in response to the holiday things that I did to reach out to others. It was so nice to hear from her. She's doing well and says that she misses me terribly. I miss her too. It was just a separation of lives that got busy...nothing caused it. I wonder why that happens sometimes. Missing her made me sad. I'm an elevator ride of emotion again....
Face book messages are coming in fast and furious. I'm friends with people that wouldn't have given me the time of day in high school. They are fun, nice and decent human beings...well except one guy...he's a big tease and a big flirt... I think he was that back in the day as well, only not with me. I was a nerd.
The co-worker did not say good morning or anything pleasant along those lines after I greeted her this morning. How stupid. Lets recap...you were mistaken- you got uppity about it- you were wrong and now your acting like an idiot...okay...later I walked out with the crowd the same as I always do. She nearly fell- or at least we all thought she was going to fall. I couldn't help it- I asked if she was alright. She explained that her shoe just made the noise as it scraped the cobblestone as she walked. We all said goodnight. So maybe she reconsidered? Hope so. It's dumb.
I heard a thing on the radio this morning that bothered me some. The question of the day was would you give up your boyfriend for a million dollars. Maybe the key word is boyfriend. I admit to there being times when I felt like I would've given hubby away for nothing but not really! If it came down to it he's worth a million times a million and then some.... I felt bad for the people that the answers were about but worse for the ones giving the answers. Poor things. How sad is that?
I'm feeling much better. I'm having a lot of "symptoms" though. For instance, the head ache the other day, the stomach ache that followed, breaking out in pimples... depression, stress... my husband thinks that my body is literally detoxing after the holiday extravaganza of food and the cold-turkey switch over to healthy living. He may be right. I hope it starts shedding weight now that withdrawal is finished.
I'll close the blog here reminding us all that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Do not let our perceptions of our body stand in the way of us having fun! Stay positive and stay the course! See you next blog!
January 13, 2010 Diet Blog
We checked out the story at work and sure enough we had done the right thing at the front desk...as usual. The rules have not changed at all. I was up all night fussing with it in my brain. The co-worker in question was wrong...a thing she doesn't handle with grace and dignity. She came in and I said good morning because in my opinion there was no need for her to feel bad. She snubbed me. It's funny. She's the wrong one. Oh well...maybe tomorrow she will figure out that she's acting like an adolescent.
I stuck to the diet like glue. I'm suffering from exhaustion though. I was up most of the night. My brain just refused to shut off. Tomorrow makes two solid weeks totally strict. Four more to go. Can she do it folks?! We'll soon see.
I'm really in a bad way and focusing on the screen is hard. Please forgive me but I have to go put my head on the pillow. I'll blog again tomorrow. If you have anything you'd like to tell me post it in comments! I'd still love to hear from you. We are in this together after all. See you next blog! ;-)
I stuck to the diet like glue. I'm suffering from exhaustion though. I was up most of the night. My brain just refused to shut off. Tomorrow makes two solid weeks totally strict. Four more to go. Can she do it folks?! We'll soon see.
I'm really in a bad way and focusing on the screen is hard. Please forgive me but I have to go put my head on the pillow. I'll blog again tomorrow. If you have anything you'd like to tell me post it in comments! I'd still love to hear from you. We are in this together after all. See you next blog! ;-)
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
January 12, 2010 Diet Blog
It was a busy day...a real elevator ride right to the end. Bad-good-bad-good...you get the idea. It's amazing that people who are not doing what they are supposed to be doing in their own lives decide they know about what other people should be doing in theirs. In the last seconds of my day at work I faced that exact dilemma with a co-worker. One I love but who thinks she knows everything about how my job works when clearly she knows zilch. My co-worker at the front desk and I were both taken back by it...meanwhile when needed to do her own job she refused twice today upsetting yet another person and she had more personal calls than the Lord had prayers. I left feeling aggravated but I sang in the car as a deterrent to it and believe it or not I felt better.
Once home I got news that the last of the "Santa's Elf" gifts was received and the person is thrilled but of course wondering who the mysterious elf may be. It's too cute- the reactions I mean and luckily I know for a fact that none of them visit this blog (purposeful act). I think that God would approve. I really like doing nice things for others. My husband joked that I will need to turn over any and all of the book money when we get rich so that we can do what we are setting out to do when we become best selling on a global scale. He has to take it from me because I'll find people that I think need it or they'll find me is what he actually said and then I'll have none for SIDS. He's right too.... The outcome is that I feel so very very blessed today because of that. I see them smiling in my head. I like to feel that. And now...they too have an awesome story to tell...
I stuck to the diet and I'm feeling better. My stomach aches today. It's strange. At one point I thought I might be getting a urinary tract infection because it felt like that but I drank a lot of water and short of a small stomach ache I'm fine.
My husband purchased an Elton John documentary with a gift card that he got as a Christmas gift. It was such a good show. One of my favorite songs is I'm still standing. He said the funniest thing about Celene Dion though. He said that he was performing in the place in Las Vegas that was built especially for her and how much he loved her and what a good sense of humor she has and a bunch of things like that. Then he added a defensive but...with a pause and added that on behalf of all of us in the world that have struggled with their weight throughout their entire life...he hates her. I nearly choked on my drink. I laughed. It's true. Shes thin, beautiful, rich, famous....everything I hope to be through my books, PLUS NATURALLY THIN! ...Not fair ;-).
I'll sign off on that note because I cannot top it no matter what I write- Elton gets today's vote for best material in my blog! Keep the faith. If you can make someone else feel good do it- it's such a rush as they say! And remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive...were in this together so lets DO IT! See you next blog! ;-)
Once home I got news that the last of the "Santa's Elf" gifts was received and the person is thrilled but of course wondering who the mysterious elf may be. It's too cute- the reactions I mean and luckily I know for a fact that none of them visit this blog (purposeful act). I think that God would approve. I really like doing nice things for others. My husband joked that I will need to turn over any and all of the book money when we get rich so that we can do what we are setting out to do when we become best selling on a global scale. He has to take it from me because I'll find people that I think need it or they'll find me is what he actually said and then I'll have none for SIDS. He's right too.... The outcome is that I feel so very very blessed today because of that. I see them smiling in my head. I like to feel that. And now...they too have an awesome story to tell...
I stuck to the diet and I'm feeling better. My stomach aches today. It's strange. At one point I thought I might be getting a urinary tract infection because it felt like that but I drank a lot of water and short of a small stomach ache I'm fine.
My husband purchased an Elton John documentary with a gift card that he got as a Christmas gift. It was such a good show. One of my favorite songs is I'm still standing. He said the funniest thing about Celene Dion though. He said that he was performing in the place in Las Vegas that was built especially for her and how much he loved her and what a good sense of humor she has and a bunch of things like that. Then he added a defensive but...with a pause and added that on behalf of all of us in the world that have struggled with their weight throughout their entire life...he hates her. I nearly choked on my drink. I laughed. It's true. Shes thin, beautiful, rich, famous....everything I hope to be through my books, PLUS NATURALLY THIN! ...Not fair ;-).
I'll sign off on that note because I cannot top it no matter what I write- Elton gets today's vote for best material in my blog! Keep the faith. If you can make someone else feel good do it- it's such a rush as they say! And remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive...were in this together so lets DO IT! See you next blog! ;-)
Monday, January 11, 2010
January 11, 2010 Diet Blog
This morning began with a terrible head ache. Turns out it stayed with me throughout the entire day. I shook a lot and felt awkward. This afternoon I dropped a bunch of things and felt on edge and grumpy. Tonight I'm shivering from cold. My hubby thinks I'm coming down with something. I hope not.
I registered and paid for math as my next college class. I put in for the scholarship but have heard nothing. I hope that I get it so that I can finish up and get the degree.
The day at work was long and fraught with exasperating, grumpy people. It got so bad that the boss actually told me and my co-worker at the front desk to hang up on a particular person if we felt it was necessary. I nearly fell out of the chair I was so shocked at the statement. Luckily I did not have to resort to that tactic and neither did my co-worker but I can safely speak for us both when I tell you that no one that crosses paths with that person are in love with them. I'm just so glad that the day is over.
I stuck to the diet but feel just awful so I'm on my way up to bed to lie down in the dark. I'm exhausted. This kind of day often leaves me in that state I'm sad to say. I'd probably cry or something but my head hurts too much.
I did go on face book but really it was just to breeze through. If something good was on there I missed it. No private messages either. I wish there had been. I could've used the laughs.
I had yogurt for breakfast, salad for lunch and yogurt for dinner. I'm just not very hungry. I enjoyed none of it. I am happy to say that I resisted great big delicious looking cookies that were put out at work today. It really wasn't a problem. I wasn't up to it.
My co-worker is doing great as well. The funniest thing happened. She literally could not remember if she had cheated or not. As she went through each of the times and foods she had eaten yesterday we came to the conclusion that the only 'issue' for lack of a better word was a piece of bread that she felt was of 'healthy' size. She didn't cheat. It was her dinner along with a small bowl of chili. I'm proud of her.
Do you see what that means? It's my opinion that she was on 'automatic pilot.' She ate healthy without being aware of it. It's getting to be a habit! She goes to Italy for her vacation this coming July. She wants to look good. I believe that she will.
I'm going to sign off because the screen is blurry. My head is still pounding. It's so cold lately. If you live in an area like that bundle up...I want to lose weight together but let's skip the being sick together thing shall we? ;-) Good night. See you next blog.
I registered and paid for math as my next college class. I put in for the scholarship but have heard nothing. I hope that I get it so that I can finish up and get the degree.
The day at work was long and fraught with exasperating, grumpy people. It got so bad that the boss actually told me and my co-worker at the front desk to hang up on a particular person if we felt it was necessary. I nearly fell out of the chair I was so shocked at the statement. Luckily I did not have to resort to that tactic and neither did my co-worker but I can safely speak for us both when I tell you that no one that crosses paths with that person are in love with them. I'm just so glad that the day is over.
I stuck to the diet but feel just awful so I'm on my way up to bed to lie down in the dark. I'm exhausted. This kind of day often leaves me in that state I'm sad to say. I'd probably cry or something but my head hurts too much.
I did go on face book but really it was just to breeze through. If something good was on there I missed it. No private messages either. I wish there had been. I could've used the laughs.
I had yogurt for breakfast, salad for lunch and yogurt for dinner. I'm just not very hungry. I enjoyed none of it. I am happy to say that I resisted great big delicious looking cookies that were put out at work today. It really wasn't a problem. I wasn't up to it.
My co-worker is doing great as well. The funniest thing happened. She literally could not remember if she had cheated or not. As she went through each of the times and foods she had eaten yesterday we came to the conclusion that the only 'issue' for lack of a better word was a piece of bread that she felt was of 'healthy' size. She didn't cheat. It was her dinner along with a small bowl of chili. I'm proud of her.
Do you see what that means? It's my opinion that she was on 'automatic pilot.' She ate healthy without being aware of it. It's getting to be a habit! She goes to Italy for her vacation this coming July. She wants to look good. I believe that she will.
I'm going to sign off because the screen is blurry. My head is still pounding. It's so cold lately. If you live in an area like that bundle up...I want to lose weight together but let's skip the being sick together thing shall we? ;-) Good night. See you next blog.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
January 10, 2010 Diet Blog
What a funny day! The 'Santa's Elf' gifts made it to their designated targets. It was on face book home pages and of course they are wondering who did it. I couldn't help but grin to myself...I've committed the 'perfect crime' so to speak. But nice things for very good reasons. If they don't know who did it then they never have to feel obligated or odd about it. Do you know what I mean? I love doing stuff like that. It'll die down shortly because they'll give up and move on.
I visited karate today to see the people that I was unable to see yesterday. It was lovely to visit. I watched my techniques in action. I wrote that program and piloted it. It's wild to see it carried forth like that beyond my time at karate. I hugged them so tight. I missed them so much.
I finished up the laundry and then watched batman...actually I fell asleep and dreamed through Batman. I watched Sleepless in Seattle though- a movie I loved so much starring Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks. It was great...again.
I stuck to the diet easily today. I'm not sure why but I ate on cue, but not because I felt hunger. Weird right? I stayed out of my husbands hair again so he could get the lesson plans and things he needs done. He's working so hard on it. That made for some boredom for me. Usually I eat to reduce boredom. I didn't give it a second thought. Instead I turned on the television. I don't watch a whole lot of it so it was nice and relaxing. The whole day was. I feel good. I feel happy. I'm not sure why. I just do so I'm rolling with it.
I'll sign off here in our usual manner reminding us all that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Not to let our perceptions of our bodies stand in the way of us having a good time. To stay positive. We are in this together. See you next blog! ;-)
I visited karate today to see the people that I was unable to see yesterday. It was lovely to visit. I watched my techniques in action. I wrote that program and piloted it. It's wild to see it carried forth like that beyond my time at karate. I hugged them so tight. I missed them so much.
I finished up the laundry and then watched batman...actually I fell asleep and dreamed through Batman. I watched Sleepless in Seattle though- a movie I loved so much starring Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks. It was great...again.
I stuck to the diet easily today. I'm not sure why but I ate on cue, but not because I felt hunger. Weird right? I stayed out of my husbands hair again so he could get the lesson plans and things he needs done. He's working so hard on it. That made for some boredom for me. Usually I eat to reduce boredom. I didn't give it a second thought. Instead I turned on the television. I don't watch a whole lot of it so it was nice and relaxing. The whole day was. I feel good. I feel happy. I'm not sure why. I just do so I'm rolling with it.
I'll sign off here in our usual manner reminding us all that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Not to let our perceptions of our bodies stand in the way of us having a good time. To stay positive. We are in this together. See you next blog! ;-)
January 9, 2010 Diet Blog
Today was nice. I didn't get any special face book mail and to tell you the truth I actually missed it. It was a great day anyway though. Of course I stuck to my diet perfectly. I had oatmeal for breakfast, veggie salad for lunch and my sister-in-laws home made chicken soup for dinner.
As you know I have been a little worried about getting back into some sort of exercise regimen. It's important to me. I went up to karate and spoke to Sensei about it. He couldn't have been more pleased. He set me up with a private 1 to 1 with Joshu Delmore. I met Joshu Delmore as a teacher to her son. I was a black belt, she was a mom named Barbara and I signed her up. She joined because of me. Its funny how life is sometimes. She was thrilled to be the one he chose to help bring me back on board. The real inspiration for this goes to an old high school "friend" for lack of a better description. I sent black belt photos to them of my son and I. It made me miss it. I really want to give it a try.
Later I took my tree and the decorations down, did a little laundry and tried to stay out of my husbands hair. He is preparing to teach his scuba class at Seton Hall next semester, which begins on the 25th. He will be the head teacher, not the assistant now and there is much to do.
I went to karaoke and sang until midnight and that ended the night in a very happy manner. We had a great time. I just wish it wasn't so cold.
I end this blog in our usual ritual saying: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having fun. Stay positive! See you next blog. ;-)
As you know I have been a little worried about getting back into some sort of exercise regimen. It's important to me. I went up to karate and spoke to Sensei about it. He couldn't have been more pleased. He set me up with a private 1 to 1 with Joshu Delmore. I met Joshu Delmore as a teacher to her son. I was a black belt, she was a mom named Barbara and I signed her up. She joined because of me. Its funny how life is sometimes. She was thrilled to be the one he chose to help bring me back on board. The real inspiration for this goes to an old high school "friend" for lack of a better description. I sent black belt photos to them of my son and I. It made me miss it. I really want to give it a try.
Later I took my tree and the decorations down, did a little laundry and tried to stay out of my husbands hair. He is preparing to teach his scuba class at Seton Hall next semester, which begins on the 25th. He will be the head teacher, not the assistant now and there is much to do.
I went to karaoke and sang until midnight and that ended the night in a very happy manner. We had a great time. I just wish it wasn't so cold.
I end this blog in our usual ritual saying: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having fun. Stay positive! See you next blog. ;-)
Friday, January 8, 2010
January 8, 2010 Diet Blog
Today was another day that I woke up to a new and wild message in my private Face Book inbox! Another old friend. This time the person was not on line. I answered the message and couldn't help but grin all day over it. I think that I initiated this particular message. The response was truly one that nearly made me spit out my morning coffee! I love face book! I love the connections. I love touching base with and seeing how everyone is doing! Yesterdays friend also contacted me. It's seriously a blast!
I stuck to the diet perfectly again. One co-worker walked by and told me to help myself to the peanut m&m's on her desk. We both share them as a fave candy! Anyway- I'm proud to report that I did not have even one. The miracles are flying!
My searcher BFF came in today with beautiful pictures of her grand kids. She looks so young to be a grandmother! Her grandson with the special needs did great in the new school. I was glad to hear it. She had a personal issue to contend with and she was very happy to report that she did not eat her way through it for comfort. I may have mentioned that she has lost all of her weight and is maintaining. She has been for about a year I think. Anyway- she says that stress generally makes her use food for comfort- especially at that level. I understood that and so did my front desk co-worker. We both admit to having that same affliction. I was glad to hear that she did not compound her original stress with the stress of the guilt she would've felt over the eating thing. Good job Searcher BFF! You are at hero status from my angle!
My front desk co-worker is trying diligently to get on a path and stay the course. I'm on a path, but I have moments of weakness. How do these thin people do it? How do they choose correctly or stay thin even when choosing wrong? I know...metabolism blah, blah, blah...it's just so damn hard sometimes. Like at lunch- they wanted me to try these new crackers. I chose not to. It was the right choice. But seriously...I wanted to try the stupid cracker. Do you see what I mean? I guess the reward is on the way though...so I'll keep forging ahead.
Lunch time was a montage of laughter, and reasons for it again. Honestly- I left lunch exhausted from laughing! My stomach hurt. Then afternoon was just as funny! I can't repeat that stuff either- not because its a secret...clearly it is not, but let's just say it was VERY naughty!
My husband took my nephew to cub scouts tonight so I am on my own. I'm lonely. It's a good thing though.
I'll sign off here saying TGIF!!! And reminding you that you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Try not to let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. See you next blog! ;-)
I stuck to the diet perfectly again. One co-worker walked by and told me to help myself to the peanut m&m's on her desk. We both share them as a fave candy! Anyway- I'm proud to report that I did not have even one. The miracles are flying!
My searcher BFF came in today with beautiful pictures of her grand kids. She looks so young to be a grandmother! Her grandson with the special needs did great in the new school. I was glad to hear it. She had a personal issue to contend with and she was very happy to report that she did not eat her way through it for comfort. I may have mentioned that she has lost all of her weight and is maintaining. She has been for about a year I think. Anyway- she says that stress generally makes her use food for comfort- especially at that level. I understood that and so did my front desk co-worker. We both admit to having that same affliction. I was glad to hear that she did not compound her original stress with the stress of the guilt she would've felt over the eating thing. Good job Searcher BFF! You are at hero status from my angle!
My front desk co-worker is trying diligently to get on a path and stay the course. I'm on a path, but I have moments of weakness. How do these thin people do it? How do they choose correctly or stay thin even when choosing wrong? I know...metabolism blah, blah, blah...it's just so damn hard sometimes. Like at lunch- they wanted me to try these new crackers. I chose not to. It was the right choice. But seriously...I wanted to try the stupid cracker. Do you see what I mean? I guess the reward is on the way though...so I'll keep forging ahead.
Lunch time was a montage of laughter, and reasons for it again. Honestly- I left lunch exhausted from laughing! My stomach hurt. Then afternoon was just as funny! I can't repeat that stuff either- not because its a secret...clearly it is not, but let's just say it was VERY naughty!
My husband took my nephew to cub scouts tonight so I am on my own. I'm lonely. It's a good thing though.
I'll sign off here saying TGIF!!! And reminding you that you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Try not to let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. See you next blog! ;-)
January 7, 2010 Diet Blog
It was such a busy day at work that we could barely breathe! Lunch time was excellent though, and I hated to let it go. The banter was absolutely hilarious and I literally laughed until I cried at the things that were being said/aired out in that room. I can't repeat a word of it for you though. I'm sworn to secrecy...and if its one thing I am; it's a good 'gate keeper.' LOL!
I awoke to a funny message in my face book private inbox from an old friend. The friend was actually on line and we shared a healthy bout of playfulness before we both had to get to work. I was sorry to have to let the conversation go. It was so much fun!
I did great on the diet. Stuck to it like glue though asked several times to 'just take a bite' and the ever faithful, 'a little won't kill you.' I handled it with grace and dignity. Considering my frazzled state of mind it was nothing short of a miracle.
One conversation had my stomach twisting during the day. One of my co-workers has a niece that is very over weight- those are her words. The child has been bullied so badly because of it that she no longer wants to attend school. In fact she flat out refuses. Her parents are home schooling her because of it. It's so sad. Kids can be so cruel.
I wasn't popular in school either but that crowd and I are now friends on Face book. We were all young and stupid, and honestly I am doing okay compared to some of them. They've had or have had hard lives too. Thankfully, they- like me have grown up. That poor child...that's all I can say about that.
I am so glad to be home tonight. I'm freezing and I'm going to go take a hot bath to reduce that feeling. I will sign off here reminding you that you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive! See you next blog. ;-)
I awoke to a funny message in my face book private inbox from an old friend. The friend was actually on line and we shared a healthy bout of playfulness before we both had to get to work. I was sorry to have to let the conversation go. It was so much fun!
I did great on the diet. Stuck to it like glue though asked several times to 'just take a bite' and the ever faithful, 'a little won't kill you.' I handled it with grace and dignity. Considering my frazzled state of mind it was nothing short of a miracle.
One conversation had my stomach twisting during the day. One of my co-workers has a niece that is very over weight- those are her words. The child has been bullied so badly because of it that she no longer wants to attend school. In fact she flat out refuses. Her parents are home schooling her because of it. It's so sad. Kids can be so cruel.
I wasn't popular in school either but that crowd and I are now friends on Face book. We were all young and stupid, and honestly I am doing okay compared to some of them. They've had or have had hard lives too. Thankfully, they- like me have grown up. That poor child...that's all I can say about that.
I am so glad to be home tonight. I'm freezing and I'm going to go take a hot bath to reduce that feeling. I will sign off here reminding you that you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive! See you next blog. ;-)
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
January 6, 2010 Diet Blog
Day 6. Hanging in there. I got a heart gift from the old friend who teased me so bad I had to call in reinforcements to handle it. Two sentences...teasing over...he's as docile as a lamb. I've really got to learn that skill.
I grabbed a banana for breakfast, smart ones for lunch and hot veggie salad for dinner. I had no time for snacks. We were busy at work. To be honest food never even entered my mind until a fellow worker told me it was lunch. It came so fast.
My Searcher BFF came by to say hi. I think she's got a cold. Two days in a row she was suffering from sniffles when she came in. She hasn't heard anything about her Grandson in the new school situation. Plus I had no real time to talk because of the phones today. Do you think my boss would mind if I launched it out the window?
I snapped a nail today much to my great dismay. I was trying to wait until next Fri when my appointment is to have them done. Needless to say I had no choice after that. One white nasty nail, 9 metallic Christmas red ones...had to go.
While I was there Two other clients, the manicurist and myself had one hell of a conversation. For people that barely know me they openly shared such intimate details of their lives that it scared me in a way. Of course I kept that to myself. I listened and talked and gave opinions on things...its funny, I realize how rough my life was when things like that happen. All of the items on the table were things that I've already been through as a young person. The corker? These women are my age give or take a little.... wow. They said that I am very insightful...no...just know because I've been there.
My husband seems in a better mood, Blairstown BFF too, although she did not mention the job at the karate school. Sigh...thank heaven.
I'll sign off here reminding us all that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Do not let perceptions of body types stand in the way of us having a good time! Stay positive! See you next blog. ;-)
I grabbed a banana for breakfast, smart ones for lunch and hot veggie salad for dinner. I had no time for snacks. We were busy at work. To be honest food never even entered my mind until a fellow worker told me it was lunch. It came so fast.
My Searcher BFF came by to say hi. I think she's got a cold. Two days in a row she was suffering from sniffles when she came in. She hasn't heard anything about her Grandson in the new school situation. Plus I had no real time to talk because of the phones today. Do you think my boss would mind if I launched it out the window?
I snapped a nail today much to my great dismay. I was trying to wait until next Fri when my appointment is to have them done. Needless to say I had no choice after that. One white nasty nail, 9 metallic Christmas red ones...had to go.
While I was there Two other clients, the manicurist and myself had one hell of a conversation. For people that barely know me they openly shared such intimate details of their lives that it scared me in a way. Of course I kept that to myself. I listened and talked and gave opinions on things...its funny, I realize how rough my life was when things like that happen. All of the items on the table were things that I've already been through as a young person. The corker? These women are my age give or take a little.... wow. They said that I am very insightful...no...just know because I've been there.
My husband seems in a better mood, Blairstown BFF too, although she did not mention the job at the karate school. Sigh...thank heaven.
I'll sign off here reminding us all that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Do not let perceptions of body types stand in the way of us having a good time! Stay positive! See you next blog. ;-)
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
January 5, 2010 Diet Blog
It is Day 5. Yes I weighed in...seriously, are you sitting? Sit... I am DOWN half a pound. Yes...I said down. Somehow that other half a pound dropped off and an extra half a pound joined it. I'm astounded! I can't explain it...so instead...I think I'll just forge ahead.
I had oatmeal for breakfast, hot veggie salad for lunch and then again for dinner. Since I was alone it was easy and quick. Guess I felt lazy or something...I am kind of worn to a frazzle at the moment.
I began the day in my usual morning ritual ending it on Face book, same as always. Some birthdays were listed and of course I reached out to wish happy ones to the people. On one page the person complained about literally being broke. They had no money. Plus no one had sent a Christmas gift...I did but I guess it didn't arrive yet, but I think they meant someone of more emotional importance in their life...and they expected no birthday cards either... anyway...yes, you guessed it! I stuffed $20.00 anonymously into a birthday card and mailed it off. It will be late, but I think they will feel good anyway. Maybe they will think its someone else and that will open up a door for communication or something. Wouldn't that be awesome? I signed it 'Santa's Elf' like all of the rest.
It was a hard day at work. I got into work early as I normally do and booted up the computers, changed the calendars, watered the plants and such. I headed for the ladies room and embarrassingly it was full of men. They said it was no problem, to come right in...I was mentally horrified at that thought, but handled myself with grace and dignity. Needless to say I decided to use the bathroom down the hall and around the corner from us.
On my way there I saw the pale, ashen face of a fellow co-worker. I already knew that her mother was very ill. She'd taken a toll for the worse and I found myself holding her as she cried helplessly. There was nothing I could do. My heart bled for her.
I didn't make it to the bathroom and my day began right there. My mood was solemn but I pasted on that fake reception desk smile and did what I had to do. Sadly, it seemed as if every client and every phone call was that of someone who was in a sour mood. We handled each one as they came.
My BFF from the Searcher Vault popped in but there was little time to talk. I got enough though to have thought about her on and off all day. (Best of luck to the baby. Keep me informed!)
Late in the afternoon my co-worker got word that her mother had died. I could barely breathe when I heard. Obviously she left...a piece of my heart went with her. I'm no stranger to death as I've mentioned. My heart broke for her. I wish there was something...anything that I could do...of course there isn't....
I was glad to be going home even though I knew that my husband was taking our nephew to a hockey game. I figured I'd see them off like I usually do; maybe get a much needed bear hug. Nope! The house was dark and cold, my husbands jeep wasn't here and the cats weren't fed. I took care of the cats, turned the heat on as well as the lights and went onto face book. I was feeling very lonely.
All of the sudden my husband rushes into the house in a cloud of fury. He actually scared me he was so crazed! It seems that he had stopped at Modells to get our nephew a hockey team shirt so that they could look the same. Whatever happened had him paying an exorbitant amount for the shirt that was on the sale rack...anyway- he left in a huff without buying the shirt. He was so upset though. I told him to get it at the game. Of course he will but it ruined his surprise for the child. You gotta love him for that...but I could've done without the tantrum.
He left shortly after that...no hug...not knowing about my day.... I feel very alone for some reason.
I was done with face book. I changed into my pajamas and slippers and just wandered about for a few minutes. Then my phone rang. It was Blairstown BFF. I was so glad to hear from her. She found a job at the karate school advertised in the paper but was afraid to call and wanted me to do it because I worked there for so many years. I had to say no. If I did that they would NEVER hire her. I know that BECAUSE I worked there for so many years. She is a black belt for Pete's sake, not a child. Courage is what they teach. Believe me they'd laugh her right out of the building. I was of course made to feel guilty for that...I love her but that is always how she handles a 'no' from me whether it be karaoke or whatever. Guilt. She ended the conversation by saying that she had to go over a friends. Okay. Do you want the job or not? I thought but did not say it.
Instead I went with: 'They are open at night. You should call now' . She did not call. Silly.... shes 7 years my senior.
I said I would definitely give her a reference letter and she could use my name. Nothing. If I didn't call for her, she wasn't calling. Okay. Then no job. Let's get real here....
Then I sat down to write the blog. I'm tired, frustrated and feeling a bit 'used.' But I'm taking a deep breath as my co-worker at the front desk so often suggests....this too shall pass.
Speaking of my co-worker at the desk she did pretty good in case you were wondering about her two hour intervals of dieting from yesterday. She had 2 Nilla Wafers. I said that it was terrific because guess what?! It wasn't 5! She later had a piece of a gingerbread house roof made of chocolate- but just a bite...again I said GREAT! She didn't eat the whole roof! You go girl! I'm proud of you! This morning she went upstairs for a fruit salad. They had none and chocolate pudding called to her from the shelf. I'm happy to report that she turned a deaf ear and opted for an apple instead! ;-) Good girl! One thing at a time...one minute at a time.
So were moving forward. I sure hope that tomorrow is better. I'll sign off here remembering that I too look as good as I can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. And not to let our perceptions of our bodies stand in the way of us having a good time. Stay positive! Were in this together! See you next blog! ;-)
I had oatmeal for breakfast, hot veggie salad for lunch and then again for dinner. Since I was alone it was easy and quick. Guess I felt lazy or something...I am kind of worn to a frazzle at the moment.
I began the day in my usual morning ritual ending it on Face book, same as always. Some birthdays were listed and of course I reached out to wish happy ones to the people. On one page the person complained about literally being broke. They had no money. Plus no one had sent a Christmas gift...I did but I guess it didn't arrive yet, but I think they meant someone of more emotional importance in their life...and they expected no birthday cards either... anyway...yes, you guessed it! I stuffed $20.00 anonymously into a birthday card and mailed it off. It will be late, but I think they will feel good anyway. Maybe they will think its someone else and that will open up a door for communication or something. Wouldn't that be awesome? I signed it 'Santa's Elf' like all of the rest.
It was a hard day at work. I got into work early as I normally do and booted up the computers, changed the calendars, watered the plants and such. I headed for the ladies room and embarrassingly it was full of men. They said it was no problem, to come right in...I was mentally horrified at that thought, but handled myself with grace and dignity. Needless to say I decided to use the bathroom down the hall and around the corner from us.
On my way there I saw the pale, ashen face of a fellow co-worker. I already knew that her mother was very ill. She'd taken a toll for the worse and I found myself holding her as she cried helplessly. There was nothing I could do. My heart bled for her.
I didn't make it to the bathroom and my day began right there. My mood was solemn but I pasted on that fake reception desk smile and did what I had to do. Sadly, it seemed as if every client and every phone call was that of someone who was in a sour mood. We handled each one as they came.
My BFF from the Searcher Vault popped in but there was little time to talk. I got enough though to have thought about her on and off all day. (Best of luck to the baby. Keep me informed!)
Late in the afternoon my co-worker got word that her mother had died. I could barely breathe when I heard. Obviously she left...a piece of my heart went with her. I'm no stranger to death as I've mentioned. My heart broke for her. I wish there was something...anything that I could do...of course there isn't....
I was glad to be going home even though I knew that my husband was taking our nephew to a hockey game. I figured I'd see them off like I usually do; maybe get a much needed bear hug. Nope! The house was dark and cold, my husbands jeep wasn't here and the cats weren't fed. I took care of the cats, turned the heat on as well as the lights and went onto face book. I was feeling very lonely.
All of the sudden my husband rushes into the house in a cloud of fury. He actually scared me he was so crazed! It seems that he had stopped at Modells to get our nephew a hockey team shirt so that they could look the same. Whatever happened had him paying an exorbitant amount for the shirt that was on the sale rack...anyway- he left in a huff without buying the shirt. He was so upset though. I told him to get it at the game. Of course he will but it ruined his surprise for the child. You gotta love him for that...but I could've done without the tantrum.
He left shortly after that...no hug...not knowing about my day.... I feel very alone for some reason.
I was done with face book. I changed into my pajamas and slippers and just wandered about for a few minutes. Then my phone rang. It was Blairstown BFF. I was so glad to hear from her. She found a job at the karate school advertised in the paper but was afraid to call and wanted me to do it because I worked there for so many years. I had to say no. If I did that they would NEVER hire her. I know that BECAUSE I worked there for so many years. She is a black belt for Pete's sake, not a child. Courage is what they teach. Believe me they'd laugh her right out of the building. I was of course made to feel guilty for that...I love her but that is always how she handles a 'no' from me whether it be karaoke or whatever. Guilt. She ended the conversation by saying that she had to go over a friends. Okay. Do you want the job or not? I thought but did not say it.
Instead I went with: 'They are open at night. You should call now' . She did not call. Silly.... shes 7 years my senior.
I said I would definitely give her a reference letter and she could use my name. Nothing. If I didn't call for her, she wasn't calling. Okay. Then no job. Let's get real here....
Then I sat down to write the blog. I'm tired, frustrated and feeling a bit 'used.' But I'm taking a deep breath as my co-worker at the front desk so often suggests....this too shall pass.
Speaking of my co-worker at the desk she did pretty good in case you were wondering about her two hour intervals of dieting from yesterday. She had 2 Nilla Wafers. I said that it was terrific because guess what?! It wasn't 5! She later had a piece of a gingerbread house roof made of chocolate- but just a bite...again I said GREAT! She didn't eat the whole roof! You go girl! I'm proud of you! This morning she went upstairs for a fruit salad. They had none and chocolate pudding called to her from the shelf. I'm happy to report that she turned a deaf ear and opted for an apple instead! ;-) Good girl! One thing at a time...one minute at a time.
So were moving forward. I sure hope that tomorrow is better. I'll sign off here remembering that I too look as good as I can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. And not to let our perceptions of our bodies stand in the way of us having a good time. Stay positive! Were in this together! See you next blog! ;-)
Monday, January 4, 2010
January 4, 2010 Diet blog
Day 4 on the strictness diet regimine! I like how the days of the month are coinciding to the day number. Of course like I've mentioned I'm going to hold the course until February 14th. My coworked liked the idea a lot but felt that my goal was too long of a time for her. To my great astonishment she told me at around 10am that her first goal was noon. I laughed with her, but she was serious. She stayed the course to the best of her ability and then set her next goal for 2pm. She was hilareous! She made that one and then decided to really stretch herself, setting the next goal for 5pm.
As much as I laughed I also respected her candor and honesty on the subject. It varies individually. What worked for her was hourly intervals. Me- I set a 6 weekgoal because my last goal of 20 days really went well. My point in bringing this up is that we have to do whats best for ourselves. Just because it differes doesn't mean one works better than the other. My lifestyle is completely different from hers. She feels more vulnerable at the moment. I feel a little empowered...confused but empowered none the less. The idea is the same thing though. That's the beauty of this blogging thing. We can exchange ideas and then twist them to fit our own specific needs. There is no rhyme or reason that fits everyone. I am proud of her! I can't wait to hear how she did at 5 and then what her next goals were and how they went.
My husband scared me a little bit tonight. He had mentioned that he would be home a little late because of some personal bussiness that he needed to attend to. I ran up to the college to get a registration booklet. I arrived home an hour late. Since he gets off at three thirty, I assumed he'd be there. By 6, he still hadn't shown up. By 7pm I began to panic. By 7:15 I was frantic. I called his cell, no answer. I called the job, no answer. By 7:30 I was almost hysterical with worry and chanced another call to the cell. He answered. After a deep sigh of relief I got upset. If I pulled that he would be angry with me. I was frantic. Men!...Grrrr....
The day was busy but not overwhelming. Some people were short tempered but nothing we couldn't handle. I'm cranky and grumpy now. He scared me. I don't like that. He knew too because he got real tender and explained himself ending with an "I love you." Sheesh....
I had 2 soft boiled eggs for breakfast and coffee. Smart Ones for lunch. Yogurt for snack while waiting for my husband so that I could cook him dinner, hot vegetable salad because I couldn't wait anymore for dinner.
Oh, before I forget- for those that asked me earlier what a hot vegetable salad is-it is simmply that. Cooked veggies mixed together. Tonights was peas, carrots and green beans. Yesterdays was broccolli, cauliflower and green beans. I try to include at least 3, more if I have it available for the different textures and tastes. It's quite good on a cold day. Regular salad is too cold in the winter for me. I need to heat up my belly.
I'll sign off here reminding all of us that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. And to not let our perceptions of our bodies stand in the way of our having fun. Stay positive! See you next blog! ...Hubby just arrived. I'm going to get him dinner. (I may throw it at him...grrrr... lol) See you next blog! ;-)
As much as I laughed I also respected her candor and honesty on the subject. It varies individually. What worked for her was hourly intervals. Me- I set a 6 weekgoal because my last goal of 20 days really went well. My point in bringing this up is that we have to do whats best for ourselves. Just because it differes doesn't mean one works better than the other. My lifestyle is completely different from hers. She feels more vulnerable at the moment. I feel a little empowered...confused but empowered none the less. The idea is the same thing though. That's the beauty of this blogging thing. We can exchange ideas and then twist them to fit our own specific needs. There is no rhyme or reason that fits everyone. I am proud of her! I can't wait to hear how she did at 5 and then what her next goals were and how they went.
My husband scared me a little bit tonight. He had mentioned that he would be home a little late because of some personal bussiness that he needed to attend to. I ran up to the college to get a registration booklet. I arrived home an hour late. Since he gets off at three thirty, I assumed he'd be there. By 6, he still hadn't shown up. By 7pm I began to panic. By 7:15 I was frantic. I called his cell, no answer. I called the job, no answer. By 7:30 I was almost hysterical with worry and chanced another call to the cell. He answered. After a deep sigh of relief I got upset. If I pulled that he would be angry with me. I was frantic. Men!...Grrrr....
The day was busy but not overwhelming. Some people were short tempered but nothing we couldn't handle. I'm cranky and grumpy now. He scared me. I don't like that. He knew too because he got real tender and explained himself ending with an "I love you." Sheesh....
I had 2 soft boiled eggs for breakfast and coffee. Smart Ones for lunch. Yogurt for snack while waiting for my husband so that I could cook him dinner, hot vegetable salad because I couldn't wait anymore for dinner.
Oh, before I forget- for those that asked me earlier what a hot vegetable salad is-it is simmply that. Cooked veggies mixed together. Tonights was peas, carrots and green beans. Yesterdays was broccolli, cauliflower and green beans. I try to include at least 3, more if I have it available for the different textures and tastes. It's quite good on a cold day. Regular salad is too cold in the winter for me. I need to heat up my belly.
I'll sign off here reminding all of us that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. And to not let our perceptions of our bodies stand in the way of our having fun. Stay positive! See you next blog! ...Hubby just arrived. I'm going to get him dinner. (I may throw it at him...grrrr... lol) See you next blog! ;-)
Sunday, January 3, 2010
January 3, 2010 Diet Blog
Day 3- strict and steady! I had yogurt for breakfast, hot vegetable salad for lunch, 3oz ham and green beans for dinner. No snacks. It was beyond cold outside, it was brutal. Still I was forced to brave the tundra to rescue my mother-in-law a second time. Yesterday, her car broke down as you may remember and as the current saga would have it my sister-in-law was in the city yesterday visiting a friend with the kids.
Since my mother-in-law phoned me today for another rescue I just assumed that the situation was the same. This time mother-in-law needed me to pick up medication for her at the pharmacy. She usually has it delivered, but they do not deliver on Sundays. She was completely out she said, which shocked me because I think the pharmacy, the doctor or my sister-in-law should've noticed that. But okay...I ventured out into the deep frigid weather and got the meds from a pharmacy on the other side of town. I have to admit to being a little shocked by that because there is a CVS literally 2 blocks from her home.
As I pulled onto her block I noticed my sister-in-laws candy-apple red Rav-4 in the driveway. I found that odd. Why did my sister-in-law not go out for the meds. She lives there and her car works. I brought the meds in and actually my sister-in-law was shocked to see me. Naturally, I explained. I gave my mother-in-law the meds and she hugged me tightly. That is not something that occurs between us that often...in fact I cannot remember the last time. She thanked me for the second rescue in two days. I have NO idea why there needed to be a second one.
I stopped to toss the bull with my sister-in-law and the kids and then came back to my house. I'm still baffled by that entire 2nd rescue. I've decided to just let it go. She needed/wanted the rescue. She got it. Go figure....
After that I went to my best BFF's house to help her compose a letter to the resort in Orlando Florida. They put latex gloves out for a cookie decorating event that her husband took her daughter to and he is very allergic. He had to go to an urgent care hospital; they missed the time at Universal studios which was part of their package not to mention that her husbands throat nearly closed, his eyes swelled shut and his face looked like he went twelve rounds with Mike Tyson. She paid a lot of money and wants a refund. I don't blame her. Her lawyer suggested she write first. If they refund, it's done. If not it's going to cost them a whole lot more than just a three day comp. They aren't stupid. I think they'll comp her just to shut her up. She doesn't want a future comp either- she never wants to go there again. I don't blame her for that either. Anyway, I helped her compose a well thought out, factual letter that was angry without being rude and we sent it to her lawyer for approval. Whew!
I heard from the friend that I sent the $50 to. Nothing was mentioned, so I can't mention it either. It was anonymous you might remember. Ahhhh, the holiday trials and tribulations. LOL...
It's back to the ole grindstone tomorrow. I'm sad about having to let the holiday season go...well, this holiday season anyhow. It was the BEST one I've had in years. I'm so relaxed and my head is in such a good place. I'm healthy and I'm feeling amazing....
I'll sign off here reminding us all that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. None of us are alone in this! See you next blog! ;-)
Since my mother-in-law phoned me today for another rescue I just assumed that the situation was the same. This time mother-in-law needed me to pick up medication for her at the pharmacy. She usually has it delivered, but they do not deliver on Sundays. She was completely out she said, which shocked me because I think the pharmacy, the doctor or my sister-in-law should've noticed that. But okay...I ventured out into the deep frigid weather and got the meds from a pharmacy on the other side of town. I have to admit to being a little shocked by that because there is a CVS literally 2 blocks from her home.
As I pulled onto her block I noticed my sister-in-laws candy-apple red Rav-4 in the driveway. I found that odd. Why did my sister-in-law not go out for the meds. She lives there and her car works. I brought the meds in and actually my sister-in-law was shocked to see me. Naturally, I explained. I gave my mother-in-law the meds and she hugged me tightly. That is not something that occurs between us that often...in fact I cannot remember the last time. She thanked me for the second rescue in two days. I have NO idea why there needed to be a second one.
I stopped to toss the bull with my sister-in-law and the kids and then came back to my house. I'm still baffled by that entire 2nd rescue. I've decided to just let it go. She needed/wanted the rescue. She got it. Go figure....
After that I went to my best BFF's house to help her compose a letter to the resort in Orlando Florida. They put latex gloves out for a cookie decorating event that her husband took her daughter to and he is very allergic. He had to go to an urgent care hospital; they missed the time at Universal studios which was part of their package not to mention that her husbands throat nearly closed, his eyes swelled shut and his face looked like he went twelve rounds with Mike Tyson. She paid a lot of money and wants a refund. I don't blame her. Her lawyer suggested she write first. If they refund, it's done. If not it's going to cost them a whole lot more than just a three day comp. They aren't stupid. I think they'll comp her just to shut her up. She doesn't want a future comp either- she never wants to go there again. I don't blame her for that either. Anyway, I helped her compose a well thought out, factual letter that was angry without being rude and we sent it to her lawyer for approval. Whew!
I heard from the friend that I sent the $50 to. Nothing was mentioned, so I can't mention it either. It was anonymous you might remember. Ahhhh, the holiday trials and tribulations. LOL...
It's back to the ole grindstone tomorrow. I'm sad about having to let the holiday season go...well, this holiday season anyhow. It was the BEST one I've had in years. I'm so relaxed and my head is in such a good place. I'm healthy and I'm feeling amazing....
I'll sign off here reminding us all that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. None of us are alone in this! See you next blog! ;-)
Saturday, January 2, 2010
January 2 2010 Diet Blog
Day 2 of the strict diet regimen. It was a busy day so I didn't really have time to think about it that much. The highlights included cleaning the basement, grocery shopping and rescuing my mother-in-law when her car broke down at the bank.
Fun things included playful banter on Face book, finding an old letter from my mother after she had read my very first novel and thinking how wonderful that made me feel at the time and making snow angels out on the lawn...that's a long story. I'll tell it another day.
I UN-officially weighed in today just to assess the holiday damage. Are you sitting? I didn't believe it myself but I checked three separate times. According to my scale I only gained half a pound. Yup...its true.
How could that be? I ate-drank and was merry. Don't get me wrong; I'm thrilled! Just astonished is all. The only thing I can attribute it to is the strictness for that time before the holidays came. 20 solid days- not one morsel was bad for me during that time! I'm still astounded! The official weigh in is on the 5th as always, so let's not get too excited....oh Okay! Get excited! ;-) Of course I will keep you as updated as possible. My new goal is February 14. Valentine's Day.
I'm friends on face book with my best BFF's brother's significant other now. She contacted me for the photos that I took of them at the New Years party. They are back in England now and she wanted to see them. Of course I accepted her friend request and shared them right to her page. What a lovely person she is. I liked her so much. That entire family has literally adopted me. I'm lucky and grateful.
My body conditioning class ended as you know. I'm kind of sad about it. Although it was a lot of work, the exercise was wonderful for me. I'm worried about losing momentum. I have a Wii Fit. I'm going to try and do that. It will depend on this semester's classes though. I need to take at least one, preferably two. Sadly, County employees have to register last and so the classes that I need never seem to be open. It's so hard. I will just keep chipping away at it though...just like my weight. This is my year I think! Yours too.
I'll sign off here because I'm in desperate need of a shower after the events of the day. About the snow angels...let me just say that I'm still part child I guess. It was fun! So...sue me! ;-) They say "how old would you think you were if you didn't know your own age?" I actually thought about that lately because of all the holiday spirit, fun, laughter and banter going on around me. I've been told that I've aged like fine wine...refined and beautiful as my hand was gently kissed and huge black brown eyes twinkled at me in a teasing manner; I was called a hot tomale because my 'walk is sexy' as I walked away from the crowd, and I was called a 'smart ass' in a playful banter on face book private conversation after the culprit had me so red I thought my cheeks were going to pop off. (Thank heaven I couldn't be seen! That being said, I think that I'm around 22. Old enough to be a little more responsible than a younger person, but still young enough to know that being silly from time to time is okay.
I wonder how much I would think I weigh if I had no way of knowing, using that same formula. Hmmm...I'm going to have to seriously think that one through. I'll sign off on that note as I said reminding us all that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive...I'm right here with you! Lets paddle this boat to shore together! We can do this! So lets.... Have an excellent night. See you next blog! ;-)
Fun things included playful banter on Face book, finding an old letter from my mother after she had read my very first novel and thinking how wonderful that made me feel at the time and making snow angels out on the lawn...that's a long story. I'll tell it another day.
I UN-officially weighed in today just to assess the holiday damage. Are you sitting? I didn't believe it myself but I checked three separate times. According to my scale I only gained half a pound. Yup...its true.
How could that be? I ate-drank and was merry. Don't get me wrong; I'm thrilled! Just astonished is all. The only thing I can attribute it to is the strictness for that time before the holidays came. 20 solid days- not one morsel was bad for me during that time! I'm still astounded! The official weigh in is on the 5th as always, so let's not get too excited....oh Okay! Get excited! ;-) Of course I will keep you as updated as possible. My new goal is February 14. Valentine's Day.
I'm friends on face book with my best BFF's brother's significant other now. She contacted me for the photos that I took of them at the New Years party. They are back in England now and she wanted to see them. Of course I accepted her friend request and shared them right to her page. What a lovely person she is. I liked her so much. That entire family has literally adopted me. I'm lucky and grateful.
My body conditioning class ended as you know. I'm kind of sad about it. Although it was a lot of work, the exercise was wonderful for me. I'm worried about losing momentum. I have a Wii Fit. I'm going to try and do that. It will depend on this semester's classes though. I need to take at least one, preferably two. Sadly, County employees have to register last and so the classes that I need never seem to be open. It's so hard. I will just keep chipping away at it though...just like my weight. This is my year I think! Yours too.
I'll sign off here because I'm in desperate need of a shower after the events of the day. About the snow angels...let me just say that I'm still part child I guess. It was fun! So...sue me! ;-) They say "how old would you think you were if you didn't know your own age?" I actually thought about that lately because of all the holiday spirit, fun, laughter and banter going on around me. I've been told that I've aged like fine wine...refined and beautiful as my hand was gently kissed and huge black brown eyes twinkled at me in a teasing manner; I was called a hot tomale because my 'walk is sexy' as I walked away from the crowd, and I was called a 'smart ass' in a playful banter on face book private conversation after the culprit had me so red I thought my cheeks were going to pop off. (Thank heaven I couldn't be seen! That being said, I think that I'm around 22. Old enough to be a little more responsible than a younger person, but still young enough to know that being silly from time to time is okay.
I wonder how much I would think I weigh if I had no way of knowing, using that same formula. Hmmm...I'm going to have to seriously think that one through. I'll sign off on that note as I said reminding us all that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive...I'm right here with you! Lets paddle this boat to shore together! We can do this! So lets.... Have an excellent night. See you next blog! ;-)
Friday, January 1, 2010
December 31 2009 - January 1, 2010
Happy New Year everyone! The turn of the year and the turn of the decade have got my mind reeling. I find that even as time passes, there are still facets of 'me' that are only emerging for the first time... things I did not know existed. I embark on this year realizing the weight of that statement and knowing that there is so much more that I want to give to the world. I also know that I need to "live long and prosper" to accomplish that goal.
Needless to say I have climbed back onto the 'strict diet' train with that statement burned into my brain on too many levels to count. Upon my exit from that train and into the bliss of uncaring holiday binging I figured out that setting smaller time goals using an unwavering strict pathway to get there had a positive effect. I am re-entering that same formula as of this morning.
My goal for time is February 14. Valentine's Day I will allow myself to cheat. Unlike the holidays it will just be for the one day and then the plan is to jump onto the strict diet train again. The holidays were too long and too hard to maintain any kind of strict regimen. That was a pipe dream...but setting the time goal before them worked beautifully. Give this experiment a try with me! We'll do it together! I'd bet money that you too have so much more to give to the world than you've felt able to do in the past...and no matter WHAT age you are- there are still learning experiences to be had!
The end of 2009 went out with a bang for me...literally. I celebrated with my best BFF, her hubby and kids, her brother that was here from England, her brother's 'significant other' and friends, and of course- my hubby. We went to a Hibachi restaurant- probably THE most fattening food in the world!
Then we went back to the house of one of the friends where we watched the ball drop and they blew off fireworks. My best BFF's brother lost three fingers to that as a child. He steered clear. I followed his lead. One of the things that I've learned about myself this year is that I'm a smart person. Smart people do not blow off fire crackers in their back yard while drinking...or even while not drinking! We left as it seemed to be getting out of hand.
I got 'love' texts on my phone and 'love' messages on my face book page. So many of them were heartfelt. A person that I knew but was not close to as a young person mentioned that they were doing well but were short on cash to pay for gas to get to their AA meetings. My heart was really touched by that. I'm one to pause when something touches me like that. I feel that the Angels are nudging me when I feel that for a certain thing.
Though I could not help with that exact situation, because it was New Years Eve already, I really wanted to help. The address of said acquaintance was posted in their Face book information so I sent a $50 bill anonymously. I had sent a $20 bill just before Christmas for the same reason in the same way. On both, I drew a picture of a 'cross' shining on and a smiley face Angel watching over a car on a sunny day headed to a building with the letters AA on it. I wrote 'fill your belly, fill your car, then get to your meeting...' No signature. No return address.
I mailed it out. I have no idea if either of them arrived or will arrive in the case of the 2nd one. Still, I leave that part in God's hands. I think he would approve. If that acquaintance is deserving the money will arrive. I feel good about helping someone that is trying to help themselves. That's the way I want to enter this special turn of the decade New Year. I want to help others. It does not matter if they know who helped them (although the idea of teasing them by making them wonder is fun...and clearly exists for me!) Alcoholism runs rampant in my family. If I can help fix just one...you know what I mean?
I got one phone text that was just a number. It said 'hpy new yr I love u.'
Knowing how the anonymous cards will drive the recipient crazy but with a smile is a feeling I've been experiencing for a couple of months now. When I tried to call the number it was blocked. I text back 'whoz this pls?' I got no response. I loved it and I actually laughed out loud but it is indeed driving me crazy, not knowing who is playing with me, and has been doing so for awhile now.
...I will admit that the playful actions of whoever that is has sparked GREAT inspiration into my writing...I think that's God's plan...that 'do unto others' thing haunts me! So I deserve it returned in the same way I give it, I guess... ;-)
Oprah once called it 'random acts of kindness.
' A 'rose by any other name is still a rose.'
I am enjoying and want this year to begin like this...giving and receiving... and get bigger and better! I want that for you too.
So let's go friends! Let's do this thing! Let's make this year OUR YEAR! Let's be the people that we want to be and if we can assist others along the way, LET'S DO THAT! Again, Happy New Year! May this year bring you health, wealth, happiness, laughter, joy and love...as well as make your inner desires all come true...even the secret ones never expressed out loud... Thanks for blogging with me!
And remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stop you from having a good time. Stay positive. Remember that I'm right here...really. You are not alone! Have a great day and an even better year! See you next blog! ;-) xo
Needless to say I have climbed back onto the 'strict diet' train with that statement burned into my brain on too many levels to count. Upon my exit from that train and into the bliss of uncaring holiday binging I figured out that setting smaller time goals using an unwavering strict pathway to get there had a positive effect. I am re-entering that same formula as of this morning.
My goal for time is February 14. Valentine's Day I will allow myself to cheat. Unlike the holidays it will just be for the one day and then the plan is to jump onto the strict diet train again. The holidays were too long and too hard to maintain any kind of strict regimen. That was a pipe dream...but setting the time goal before them worked beautifully. Give this experiment a try with me! We'll do it together! I'd bet money that you too have so much more to give to the world than you've felt able to do in the past...and no matter WHAT age you are- there are still learning experiences to be had!
The end of 2009 went out with a bang for me...literally. I celebrated with my best BFF, her hubby and kids, her brother that was here from England, her brother's 'significant other' and friends, and of course- my hubby. We went to a Hibachi restaurant- probably THE most fattening food in the world!
Then we went back to the house of one of the friends where we watched the ball drop and they blew off fireworks. My best BFF's brother lost three fingers to that as a child. He steered clear. I followed his lead. One of the things that I've learned about myself this year is that I'm a smart person. Smart people do not blow off fire crackers in their back yard while drinking...or even while not drinking! We left as it seemed to be getting out of hand.
I got 'love' texts on my phone and 'love' messages on my face book page. So many of them were heartfelt. A person that I knew but was not close to as a young person mentioned that they were doing well but were short on cash to pay for gas to get to their AA meetings. My heart was really touched by that. I'm one to pause when something touches me like that. I feel that the Angels are nudging me when I feel that for a certain thing.
Though I could not help with that exact situation, because it was New Years Eve already, I really wanted to help. The address of said acquaintance was posted in their Face book information so I sent a $50 bill anonymously. I had sent a $20 bill just before Christmas for the same reason in the same way. On both, I drew a picture of a 'cross' shining on and a smiley face Angel watching over a car on a sunny day headed to a building with the letters AA on it. I wrote 'fill your belly, fill your car, then get to your meeting...' No signature. No return address.
I mailed it out. I have no idea if either of them arrived or will arrive in the case of the 2nd one. Still, I leave that part in God's hands. I think he would approve. If that acquaintance is deserving the money will arrive. I feel good about helping someone that is trying to help themselves. That's the way I want to enter this special turn of the decade New Year. I want to help others. It does not matter if they know who helped them (although the idea of teasing them by making them wonder is fun...and clearly exists for me!) Alcoholism runs rampant in my family. If I can help fix just one...you know what I mean?
I got one phone text that was just a number. It said 'hpy new yr I love u.'
Knowing how the anonymous cards will drive the recipient crazy but with a smile is a feeling I've been experiencing for a couple of months now. When I tried to call the number it was blocked. I text back 'whoz this pls?' I got no response. I loved it and I actually laughed out loud but it is indeed driving me crazy, not knowing who is playing with me, and has been doing so for awhile now.
...I will admit that the playful actions of whoever that is has sparked GREAT inspiration into my writing...I think that's God's plan...that 'do unto others' thing haunts me! So I deserve it returned in the same way I give it, I guess... ;-)
Oprah once called it 'random acts of kindness.
' A 'rose by any other name is still a rose.'
I am enjoying and want this year to begin like this...giving and receiving... and get bigger and better! I want that for you too.
So let's go friends! Let's do this thing! Let's make this year OUR YEAR! Let's be the people that we want to be and if we can assist others along the way, LET'S DO THAT! Again, Happy New Year! May this year bring you health, wealth, happiness, laughter, joy and love...as well as make your inner desires all come true...even the secret ones never expressed out loud... Thanks for blogging with me!
And remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stop you from having a good time. Stay positive. Remember that I'm right here...really. You are not alone! Have a great day and an even better year! See you next blog! ;-) xo
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