December 2, 2011 Diet Blog

OK, Day 2... I think we can muddle through...
Today went well considering...in the spirit of the fact that I began a diet in December- the FIRST of many holiday festivities was today at work. Yup, you guessed it! A party. Breads and cakes and pastries followed by chips and dips and chocolates.... I didn't touch a morsel. I ate my apple, drank my tea and hung in there.
I came in to the neighbor being led through the house by my husband so that she could see both of the bathrooms. It was weird to come home and hear another woman's laughter coming from upstairs accompanied by my husband's. They came right down after I called out that I was home. She stayed to chit chat for a minute while he went outside and then headed back to her home. I haven't seen her in awhile. I've never seen her inside my house and I've never been in hers. We usually talk out doors. Her daughter, who lives in Columbia and teached ESL which is English as a second language is coming home for Christmas. She's excited but also trying to get the "mom" things taken care of- like her banking and her needed medications and required doctor visits...so she's busy, but happily so. I'm glad for her.
So, Day 2 down- going into day 3 vwith surprising enthusiasm and relief...yes..relief...weird right?! See you next blog!

December 1, 2011 Diet Blog

Well, the truth is I went into self destruct mode. I just literally gave up. The harder I tried, the worse things got. I wondered if it would ever end. I stopped writing in the blog because it was beyond depressing...and distressing...I'm so glad to see November go. I'm not even going to go into the Holiday, except to say that my drunk sister-in-law who has lost all of her weight, felt that it was necessary to point out my weight, what I was eating, etc while she sucked down a slab of fat from a prime rib. She was disgusting, loud, obnoxious and unkind. I haven't seen or spoken to her since- not that she knows...I just took hit after hit from my husbands family ... it was awful.
Today, I'm changing up the chess pieces. I'm feeling better mentally and I really want to feel better physically too. Emotionally, I feel like I've gained some control. I was spiraling downward at a pace that was unfathomable. I'm doing the weight watchers points diet. Its a way of life really, and I can have literally anything I want. I just have to count it. That way worked really well for me in the past. I feel motivated and ready to give it a shot. December may not be the best month to do it- but you can do the point thing through the holidays, I've done it before.
Hopefully the "Diet Clog" is gone at long last and I can find some positive again. If you are in a downward spiral don't, crash. I know its hard to just let go, but once you crash, you can repair or step away from the rubble and start anew. I've started anew. There was no repairing that rubble after the crash. See you next blog. ;-)