October 2, 2009 Diet Blog

It was a brisk, cool October morning and I shivered getting out of my nice cozy bed. Still, on the upside it's Friday! That means the weekend is here soon. This weekend seems to be a lonely one for me though and so I'm dredding it a little. My husband is taking our nephew on the Cub Scouts camping trip, my Blairtown BFF is having in-laws in, my Wanaque BFF is helping her mom move to Florida...and so on. Everybody is busy. It's a good thing I guess.
Today breakfast consisted on 1 1/2 cups of pineapple again, 10am snack was a banana, lunch was a smart Ones and a lite n fit yogurt. For dinner I went out with my sister in law and my niece for a girls night out. We ate a a restaurant close by called Houlihans. We each had Southwestern wrap, but broccoli instead of french fries. She had salsa, I didn't because I'm not a huge fan of spicy. We did have two margaritas each though. It was fun. We took a phone picture and sent it to my Blairstown friend. She likes when we do that. We were home by 8:30 and I was alone for awhile.
My house is very old and has seen better days. It's in dire need of some renovations and a serious face lift. It makes a lot of noise. I think it's moaning and groaning over the aches and pains of aging...I have to admit I have moments like that myself. It enhanced my luming feelins of being alone. I didn't like it.
I decided to pop in to karaoke even though I was alone. Normally I would never do that but my own loneliness was getting the better of me and I didn't want to binge or anything. The house was spooking me a little too; also an unusual reaction.
I went. Someone bought me a glass of wine upon entering and I sat with the friend that runs the karaoke show there. He is missing his significant other. She is away in Florida for awhile. He misses her terribly. Her trip is indefinitely long. To be perfectly truthful, I miss her too. We were getting very close as she was forced to leave.
I sang a few songs and was still lonely and uncomfortable. You may or may not remember that I mentioned the friend that had taken me off his face book for no apparent reason? If not, I saw him out just before that and he had bragged about being my friend, he always told me how sweet and nice I am on the page itself...it made no sense, so I actually private messaged him about it. I gently said it was okay that he did it but I was just wondering why. He never responded. My feelings were a little hurt but it wasn't like he was a BFF or anything. Truly, I only noticed he was gone because I had a job for him and went on to let him know and he was gone. It was only a day or two after he'd bragged to the karaoke crowd that we were friends. Needless to say since he didn't respond, the job went to another too.
Anyway, he came into karaoke with his girl friend. He brought her over to my table say hi to me. He asked me about an XBFF of mine. I was shocked honestly that he had no idea that X and I were not hanging together anymore. I had kind of thought that maybe X was involved with my being removed from the face book page. I guess not...but now I really don't get it. Anyway, I pretended nothing was up and they turned to walk away. He turns back around, looks me straight in the eye and tells me genuinely how nice it was to see me. I said that it was nice to see him too but truthfully the response was knee-jerk. He turned back away and went to the bar with his girlfriend. In my head I silently apologised to XBFF for thinking he had something to do with it when clearly he didn't. Luckily I had never mentioned it to anyone because it really wasn't all that important in the grand scheme of things. XBFF was on my mind after that though. I often wonder why X pulled all of that crap on me-asked forgiveness- got it more than once- couldn't find fault with me so X made something up- got mad at me for that and the BFF thing was over. It was so odd. Does anyone understand the male gender? If so- can you explain them to me? I'm totally confused. I went home shortly after that. I had drank half the glass of wine but I was tired from the dinner margaritas. I couldn't shake the thoughts of XBFF...I just wonder...? (sigh)
I wanted to mention this great article I read about in a magazine before I sign off. The name of the magazine was "First For Women." The cover is green and the date at the top right is October, 5 2009. The article in it was named, "Walk off 9x more belly fat," and it was on page 32 of the magazine. It discussed meditative walking, and prayer walking. It's not what you think. It was really interesting. The person that wrote it quoted various studies done and had clear factual evidence, not just testimonies of success stories although those were in the article as well and the weight losses were great. The entire magazine was good, but that was the cover headline in a purple strip across the front that caught my attention. I made my co-worker read it too. She enjoyed it as well.
Let me close with the same reminder: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your body get in the way of your having a good time. Stay positive. Let me add that if you are lonely come here. I did... see you next time! ;-)