Since I missed October completely I thought I'd come on again and touch base with you all. As you may or may not know I traveled in October to book signings and had the opportunity to visit Oahu Hawaii. When I returned getting back to the business of dieting was difficult to say the least.
It took literally about two weeks for me to find the will power-for lack of better terminology- to stay on the right path for a full day. It took four solid days of fighting with myself through parties at work, dinners with family and friends and taste buds that craved Halloween candy like everyone else had.
I've come to the realization that I'm a "carbo-holic." I'm hooked on carbs- the bad kind. It is my 'drug of choice' and beating that particular addiction takes serious focus, determination and yes...WORK!
Though I'm still struggling, I fell back into the pattern and am forging ahead. How? One minute at a time; joking about it with my friends; putting my focus elsewhere... using whatever tools came available to me. I am on day 5. Though I did not get on the scale because I didn't want the numbers to send me into a downward spiral I feel like I've gained some weight. I'm very conscious of my body...I wish I wasn't sometimes. I feel things getting evened out now and the tailspin did not occur thankfully, so I'm trudging along the diet path again and still hoping to release another twenty pounds or so.
My advice is to begin. It doesn't matter what time of day or if you've just cheated two seconds ago...begin now. There is no set starting position, there is just the fact that if you need to shed the weight, you do have to start somewhere. Take it one day at at time; one hour at a time; one minute at a time; one second at a time. I'm reaching for the 'cheat day' of Thanksgiving Day. I pray I am solid to that point. I feel like I've reached firmer ground...join me.
It's an uphill, constant battle that we may need to fight for the rest of our lives. You know what they say...'there is strength in numbers.' Let's DO THIS! Together.
In the meantime remember that you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Don't let your interpretation of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Remember, I'm right here with you...wielding that shield and fighting my way through years of abuse and fat on my body... Hold on! You can do it! WE can do it! See you next blog. ;-)
Friday, November 12, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
November 7, 2010 Diet Blog
I'm sorry I'm late but as you may or may not know my life is quite full at the moment. I've been doing great with book signings, traveling and talking to people about myself and my work. The diet was going excellent until I went to Hawaii on October 15. I kept in in check- but am struggling to get back on it. I did not weigh myself on the 5th as planned because I just feel that I cannot handle the depression that comes with the elevated numbers. As of tomorrow the 8th I am going back on it full force-my goal "cheat day" being Thanksgiving. On Dec 5th come hell or high water I will post the poundage for you.
I do want to mention the amazing experience that I had in Hawaii though. Of course, the entire trip was out of this world as I'm sure you can imagine if you haven't been there already yourself. But the most astounding thing occurred. Let me explain from the beginning. Upon arrival in Honolulu I headed for the luggage area as is the customary thing to do. A stewardess was racing across the floor trying to make a plane-catch a bus or whatever...anyway, she collided with me even though I saw her barrelling through and tried to get out of her way.
She stepped on my instep with her heel and left a lovely little hole in it in the shape of her heel. It hurt, but not so bad that I did or said anything. She apologised while still on the run and I limped a bit but got my luggage and continued on my way-friend in tow.
Later I took the sock and shoe off of my foot to discover the bloody mess that had been left underneath. I got peroxide, neosporin and band aids, doctored it up and didn't miss a beat.
About 4 days later while visiting the Honolulu Zoo we were going through a tunnel of Banyan trees, which are trees whose branches are the roots and not the bottom of the trunk. They are wild. Anyway, It was about 88 degrees F and the time change had me totally exhausted, and by this time there was an infection setting into my foot that I was pretending didn't exist.
I thought I was hallucinating because I saw little 'beings' for lack of a better word. They were about the size of barbie dolls. There were two. They had wings. One was dressed in light blue the other in browns and tans. The blue one seemed to try and hide where the brown one was more brazen and actually waved at me.
I rubbed my eyes in disbelief. I admit I thought I was seeing things. After I rubbed my eyes they were gone. I called out that I needed water. They reappeared seconds later. That time I snapped a picture with my camera.
After that I got water and rested under an umbrella and felt a little better. I took over 500 pictures on the trip and to be perfectly truthful, I forgot about the little beings.
At home I downloaded all of my pictures. I had gone to the doctor, got a tetanus shot, antibiotics and a prescription for blood work and was feeling much better. The pictures that I took of the Banyan tree came up. Sure enough...the little ladies were in the picture. I gasped.
I posted them on face book...so that ALL of my friends could now see that I really AM a lunatic... and many commented. A lot of people saw them, some did not. One did not but wanted to more than anything and asked me to mark them somehow. I thought that was a good idea and so I figured out how to use the paint brush program and outlined what I saw. As I did that I saw a third one but I hadn't seen her that day so I mentioned her but outlined only the ones I did see.
The picture outlines were awesome- I do not draw that well...holy moly! They were angels- they were beautiful...and yes folks...I ABSOLUTELY think that I saw them... I'm not sure why or what/if anything I should do or study or say but there they are plain and simple...
So I'm home now- dealing with that, wishing I could just drop everything and return there to see if I see them again...but cannot (the cost alone....) and I'm sharing that experience with you. Hows THAT for a blog? ;-)
Tomorrow I start over. I'm going to call upon any angels surrounding me for help in all of my endeavors...for my health and weight loss, for fame and fortune to surround my writing, for my dream of giving vast sums of money to SIDS research, for the lives of people I touch paths with to be blessed and for love and peace to spread through me in the Lords name...isn't that really what we all want?
In the mean time take care of you...I'll be back on Dec 5th. Talk to you then!
I do want to mention the amazing experience that I had in Hawaii though. Of course, the entire trip was out of this world as I'm sure you can imagine if you haven't been there already yourself. But the most astounding thing occurred. Let me explain from the beginning. Upon arrival in Honolulu I headed for the luggage area as is the customary thing to do. A stewardess was racing across the floor trying to make a plane-catch a bus or whatever...anyway, she collided with me even though I saw her barrelling through and tried to get out of her way.
She stepped on my instep with her heel and left a lovely little hole in it in the shape of her heel. It hurt, but not so bad that I did or said anything. She apologised while still on the run and I limped a bit but got my luggage and continued on my way-friend in tow.
Later I took the sock and shoe off of my foot to discover the bloody mess that had been left underneath. I got peroxide, neosporin and band aids, doctored it up and didn't miss a beat.
About 4 days later while visiting the Honolulu Zoo we were going through a tunnel of Banyan trees, which are trees whose branches are the roots and not the bottom of the trunk. They are wild. Anyway, It was about 88 degrees F and the time change had me totally exhausted, and by this time there was an infection setting into my foot that I was pretending didn't exist.
I thought I was hallucinating because I saw little 'beings' for lack of a better word. They were about the size of barbie dolls. There were two. They had wings. One was dressed in light blue the other in browns and tans. The blue one seemed to try and hide where the brown one was more brazen and actually waved at me.
I rubbed my eyes in disbelief. I admit I thought I was seeing things. After I rubbed my eyes they were gone. I called out that I needed water. They reappeared seconds later. That time I snapped a picture with my camera.
After that I got water and rested under an umbrella and felt a little better. I took over 500 pictures on the trip and to be perfectly truthful, I forgot about the little beings.
At home I downloaded all of my pictures. I had gone to the doctor, got a tetanus shot, antibiotics and a prescription for blood work and was feeling much better. The pictures that I took of the Banyan tree came up. Sure enough...the little ladies were in the picture. I gasped.
I posted them on face book...so that ALL of my friends could now see that I really AM a lunatic... and many commented. A lot of people saw them, some did not. One did not but wanted to more than anything and asked me to mark them somehow. I thought that was a good idea and so I figured out how to use the paint brush program and outlined what I saw. As I did that I saw a third one but I hadn't seen her that day so I mentioned her but outlined only the ones I did see.
The picture outlines were awesome- I do not draw that well...holy moly! They were angels- they were beautiful...and yes folks...I ABSOLUTELY think that I saw them... I'm not sure why or what/if anything I should do or study or say but there they are plain and simple...
So I'm home now- dealing with that, wishing I could just drop everything and return there to see if I see them again...but cannot (the cost alone....) and I'm sharing that experience with you. Hows THAT for a blog? ;-)
Tomorrow I start over. I'm going to call upon any angels surrounding me for help in all of my endeavors...for my health and weight loss, for fame and fortune to surround my writing, for my dream of giving vast sums of money to SIDS research, for the lives of people I touch paths with to be blessed and for love and peace to spread through me in the Lords name...isn't that really what we all want?
In the mean time take care of you...I'll be back on Dec 5th. Talk to you then!
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