Christmas went great. I had my husbands family over and cooked a smaller-but lovely dinner for them. I made an oven stuffer roaster; chicken. I made rice pilaf, gravy, biscuits, stuffing, salad and vegetables. My mother in law is not a fan of turkey and since it was just us I thought that would please her. I was right.
For dessert, I had promised my niece that we could make some kind of a fancy cake because her brother and I had made the spider cake that won the cub scouts bake off contest a month or so ago. She had originally chosen a ladybug cake. I designed it, purchased the items to make it and the day before Christmas she changed her mind and decided that she wanted to make lips.
I didn't really see it as a problem of any kind and my coworker came up with the idea of using a fruit roll up cut into shape to make a tongue that stuck out of the lips. I thought that it sounded hilarious and so that's what we did. My niece loved the idea too!
It came out excellent! The lips were pink with pastel colored sprinkles, the lines were drawn in purple and the tongue was a huge bright red fruit roll up. We served it after we took several pictures and posted them on face book. She was so cute and so proud... so was I really.
The face book comments were sweet; all saying what a cute idea and things of that nature. The funniest thing happened though. I had a ton of private messages in my face book inbox! That is unusual. As it turns out my friends teased me to death in playfully crude and rude ways about the cake, the tongue and several things that could be done using those items. I was laughing so hard as I read them to my husband that I could barely get the words out. He said my face was so red that he thought my cheeks might explode. It was really funny. That was a first for me.
The next day the same thing happened. I can't believe the reactions! I took the picture down. There was one inbox message that did not match those though. This one was from a friend of my brothers from high school. I may have mentioned him. He always thought my name was Mary. It's not. He was the guy that ALL of the girls swooned over. Myself included, not that he ever knew I existed obviously.
He teased me without mercy over the fact that I have two black belts. He actually knows my real name now. Funny that it took 33 years and two black belts for me to be brave enough to tell him. He had no mercy though...I laughed so hard. It went on for several days until I couldn't take it anymore. I cannot believe the amount of come backs and the ability he had to twist my words...and my head...into a pretzel. I was forced to 'concede.' He's been behaved for several days now. I was shocked at the way my head reverted right back to how I was then tho. Still, it was pretty fun to try and banter with 'the big boys,' even though I didn't do very well in the arena. My brother thinks its the funniest thing in the world. I'm thinking that I might beat them both with a broom! (Just kidding.)
I got an award of appreciation at work today. I nearly fell off the chair. It was quite a surprise. It was nice and it felt good to be acknowledged in such a nice way. All of the freeholders signed it. And that leads us here to the 30th of December.
The dieting is non-existent. When New Years Eve is done I'm going strict again until Feb 14th. That is the goal. Join me...it'll be okay. Well do it together. By Summer we'll be gorgeous! See you next blog.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Dec 22-24 Diet Blog
I haven't been blogging as steadily as I was because I haven't been following the diet. I fully plan on jumping on board again right after Christmas. I already brought the needed household items and will go strict again until Feb 14. Setting that little goal of 20 days worked but setting one for two or three days was a futile attempt. I couldn't do it. I'm not that strong I guess but once I get on a roll again I will go for the gusto!
Christmas celebrations have been abundant. I still haven't heard anything about the anonymous gift being received. My prom date wrote me the most magnificent message in my private face book inbox. I read it to my husband and he was very impressed. Many of the people that I'd lost touch with freached out to me throughout the season. It felt wonderful. I'm glad that I did that!
I've also been having a playful banter with an old high school chum as well. I laughed my head off at some of the outlandish things chum has felt comfortable saying to me. We weren't really close as young high schoolers but I like the banter and am growing very fond of chum.
That's about it. Tomorrow is Christmas. Once that day is over I will get back on track. How is everyone out there doing? Join me afterward! We'll do it together! In the meantime Happy Holidays to everyone. See you next blog! ;-)
Christmas celebrations have been abundant. I still haven't heard anything about the anonymous gift being received. My prom date wrote me the most magnificent message in my private face book inbox. I read it to my husband and he was very impressed. Many of the people that I'd lost touch with freached out to me throughout the season. It felt wonderful. I'm glad that I did that!
I've also been having a playful banter with an old high school chum as well. I laughed my head off at some of the outlandish things chum has felt comfortable saying to me. We weren't really close as young high schoolers but I like the banter and am growing very fond of chum.
That's about it. Tomorrow is Christmas. Once that day is over I will get back on track. How is everyone out there doing? Join me afterward! We'll do it together! In the meantime Happy Holidays to everyone. See you next blog! ;-)
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
December 22, 2009 Diet Blog
Holiday Party at work today. That's three straight days of "blowing it" diet wise. I can't control it. I'm tired, frustrated...ah gees....
The holiday party is never much fun for the people that work the front desk because everyone else gets to relax but that doubles the work load for us. They don't bother to answer their phones or help clients- they just leave it up to us... At one point I had 5 people on hold; one of the husbands of a coworker called; she literally stood two feet from her phone and instead of picking it up she let it bounce back to me- I had to get up and call to her because she would've gotten upset if she missed his call- by that point I had 8 people on hold. It was ridiculous. The party lunch food wasn't brought in until 12:30, which literally gave me 20 minutes of 'party.' By the end of the day I'd had it.
Traffic was bumper to bumper on the way home because of an accident. My husband actually got home later than I did and that is rare! Then we had to go to my sister-in-laws to eat dinner, which normally is lovely- but I was so tense by then that I really didn't want to. We did and it worked out fine- the soup made from the turkey I served on Sunday was terrific...my mood lifted because I was with the kids...it was worth it. I'm glad we went.
I'm home now and looking forward to relaxing. I'm glad the day is over. I need to regain control of myself...my diet is severely blown! I'll keep you posted. See you next blog! ;-)
The holiday party is never much fun for the people that work the front desk because everyone else gets to relax but that doubles the work load for us. They don't bother to answer their phones or help clients- they just leave it up to us... At one point I had 5 people on hold; one of the husbands of a coworker called; she literally stood two feet from her phone and instead of picking it up she let it bounce back to me- I had to get up and call to her because she would've gotten upset if she missed his call- by that point I had 8 people on hold. It was ridiculous. The party lunch food wasn't brought in until 12:30, which literally gave me 20 minutes of 'party.' By the end of the day I'd had it.
Traffic was bumper to bumper on the way home because of an accident. My husband actually got home later than I did and that is rare! Then we had to go to my sister-in-laws to eat dinner, which normally is lovely- but I was so tense by then that I really didn't want to. We did and it worked out fine- the soup made from the turkey I served on Sunday was terrific...my mood lifted because I was with the kids...it was worth it. I'm glad we went.
I'm home now and looking forward to relaxing. I'm glad the day is over. I need to regain control of myself...my diet is severely blown! I'll keep you posted. See you next blog! ;-)
Monday, December 21, 2009
Dec 19 - 21, 2009 Diet Blog
Saturday was spent on last minute things for our holiday party, cooking and cleaning. Blairstown BFF stayed over after we went to karaoke for the final time. It was such a hard night. Those doors closing for the final time felt like a chapter of my life was over with. I drank water. I stuck to the diet like glue. It was such a fight though. I was so glad that I accomplished the goal. Sunday was the Holiday Party. By noon the Turkey was in the oven, the house was decorated, I was dressed and ready and my son arrived with his wife two hours early. It was so great to see him. I get overwhelmed with emotion whenever he comes home. His wife was lovely, personable and friendly. I think she's getting more comfortable with the family now. I'm glad about that. My husband and son left to get ice and several miscellaneous items and she voluntarily chose to stay with me. I liked that and enjoyed my time with her. We talked until the first guests arrived. Then I got to work on the dinner, the men returned home and more guests arrived. We had a full house! It was amazing. Hosting a party is hard work and my visiting with guests time was limited. Everyone was satisfied and everyone raved over the dinner. I put out quite a spread. As I said I did not diet at all. I really didn't eat much though, I was way to busy.
Monday was a work day. One of the girls brought in Spanish foods and desserts. I did not diet. I did eat too much. I ate dinner at home using the delicious left overs from my holiday party. Afterwards I fell asleep for a couple of hours and now I feel human again. I was exhausted all day. I functioned but on low battery. My co-worker was ill too. She had a bad blood pressure attack because she hadn't taken her medicine. Like me- she tends to take care of everyone but herself. Like me- the Lord stepped in and forced her to rethink that position before it got really bad. I was worried about her. She has tomorrow off. I know she will be doing for others...'tis the season, but it's routine for her- still I hope she grabs a little "me time" and rests a bit. Tomorrow I too am doing the "me" thing and going strict until Christmas Day.
The funniest thing happened though. On face book I have found many friends and acquaintances from my past. Several of those are from high school. One boy I knew and I are 'friends' now. It's funny because back then he was actually friends with my brother. He actually thought that my name was "Mary." I'm sure he thought it was funny when I reminded him.
Anyway, he barely knew I existed back then. I'm told he had a rough life as far as drugs and such goes after high school. He was a 'guest of the state' for something as well. Now he is in AA and has found the Lord- which I applaud. We've corresponded several times and I like him so far.
For whatever reason he went on to my face book page and commented on a bunch of my stuff, which is also fine. As you know I also believe in the Lord and know that I am protected by Angels. I also love the Supernatural as I've mentioned. Some things that I found interesting and fun about that subject are posted on my page. He commented on that. He said that I shouldn't mess with that because the Bible says so and that he's only telling me that because he cares about me. I was a little taken back by that.
Out of the two of us- I actually live by the rules of 'do unto others' and that I think the Lord would want me to. That's not to say I'm perfect because I'm not- far from it, but I've never been in trouble with the law, I don't bully people and I really try to be kind to others. He was not always the person he is now. I'm glad that he cares but it just felt...odd. I thought about it and responded "I believe in all paths to God." on one of his comments, and then "entertainment purposes" on the other. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I am glad that he cared enough to comment...I'm just unsure of how I feel about THAT person correcting me in this manner. Does that make any sense? Anyway- I haven't looked at it today. I'm almost nervous to. I don't want to tell someone how to believe, or someone to tell me. Isn't that between me and God? Sorry about the religious aspect of this blog- but I just wanted to write down what I'm going through in my mind in case it effects me in some way that would send me reeling and break my stride on the diet.
That's about it for tonight. I am very tired. See you on the next blog! ;-)
Monday was a work day. One of the girls brought in Spanish foods and desserts. I did not diet. I did eat too much. I ate dinner at home using the delicious left overs from my holiday party. Afterwards I fell asleep for a couple of hours and now I feel human again. I was exhausted all day. I functioned but on low battery. My co-worker was ill too. She had a bad blood pressure attack because she hadn't taken her medicine. Like me- she tends to take care of everyone but herself. Like me- the Lord stepped in and forced her to rethink that position before it got really bad. I was worried about her. She has tomorrow off. I know she will be doing for others...'tis the season, but it's routine for her- still I hope she grabs a little "me time" and rests a bit. Tomorrow I too am doing the "me" thing and going strict until Christmas Day.
The funniest thing happened though. On face book I have found many friends and acquaintances from my past. Several of those are from high school. One boy I knew and I are 'friends' now. It's funny because back then he was actually friends with my brother. He actually thought that my name was "Mary." I'm sure he thought it was funny when I reminded him.
Anyway, he barely knew I existed back then. I'm told he had a rough life as far as drugs and such goes after high school. He was a 'guest of the state' for something as well. Now he is in AA and has found the Lord- which I applaud. We've corresponded several times and I like him so far.
For whatever reason he went on to my face book page and commented on a bunch of my stuff, which is also fine. As you know I also believe in the Lord and know that I am protected by Angels. I also love the Supernatural as I've mentioned. Some things that I found interesting and fun about that subject are posted on my page. He commented on that. He said that I shouldn't mess with that because the Bible says so and that he's only telling me that because he cares about me. I was a little taken back by that.
Out of the two of us- I actually live by the rules of 'do unto others' and that I think the Lord would want me to. That's not to say I'm perfect because I'm not- far from it, but I've never been in trouble with the law, I don't bully people and I really try to be kind to others. He was not always the person he is now. I'm glad that he cares but it just felt...odd. I thought about it and responded "I believe in all paths to God." on one of his comments, and then "entertainment purposes" on the other. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I am glad that he cared enough to comment...I'm just unsure of how I feel about THAT person correcting me in this manner. Does that make any sense? Anyway- I haven't looked at it today. I'm almost nervous to. I don't want to tell someone how to believe, or someone to tell me. Isn't that between me and God? Sorry about the religious aspect of this blog- but I just wanted to write down what I'm going through in my mind in case it effects me in some way that would send me reeling and break my stride on the diet.
That's about it for tonight. I am very tired. See you on the next blog! ;-)
Saturday, December 19, 2009
December 17 and 18, 2009 Diet Blog
Holiday Preparations have got me hopping! Friday was spent doing last minute touch-ups on the upstairs of the house, shopping for food and beverages for Sunday's Holiday Party that we are hosting, getting my mani-pedi at the nail salon, where I gave gifts of movie tickets and got body wash and a 'to-do' notebook. (They read one of the two novels that I gave them, which was very cool too.)
Blairtown BFF joined me after that and we went out to the final karaoke night at the Cornerstone Inn. It was hard to stick to the strictness of my diet- but I made a promise to myself and I really wanted to keep it so I did. I had water while out claiming designated driver status once again. That battle plan is a good one and works like a charm. I climbed into bed long around 12:30 am. I felt sad and a little empty. Part of my growth as a person happened inside of that place. I got to know and love new people there. I looked into that bathroom mirror with newness and excitement at times, pain at others, confusion sometimes...but always wonderment. I'm going to miss being a part of that...going somewhere that 'everybody knows my name,' as that old song from the sit-com "Cheers" went.
This morning Blairstown BFF left at around 11am and I got to work on cooking and hanging the final decorative items around the house. We are prepared. The baked ziti is made and just needs to be popped in the oven, the desserts are ready and I'm as ready as I'll ever be. Turkey, Lamb and the fixins tomorrow A.M.
I heard from my son today. He did VERY well in the classes he is taking towards his Masters. I'm so very proud of him. He really is the son that EVERY mother dreams of having.
My mother-in-law got me a little upset today. Of course I'm not under enough stress... You may or may not remember that I've mentioned the extremely strained relationship that I have with my mother. I keep a very delicate balance of staying in touch but not letting her in enough to hurt me or my family. I sent her gifts of course, for the Holiday. I never miss any thing like that...unlike her....She sent me a card back saying that she hasn't worked in 4 months and that she couldn't afford gifts. I have zero problems with that. The card or a letter or that type of thing is all I ever asked of her or my Dad for that matter. (met him at age 44. He died 6 months later. That's a story for another day though.)
Anyway, it was nice. I was happy. Until... Today my sister-in-law called to let me know that my mother also sent a card to my mother-in-law. It said stuff about me not sending any pictures of my son's wedding and not so nice stuff about me. Now- I have asked my mother-in-law for the last 25 years to not fuel the fire- to respond if she felt she must but not to give a whole lot of information and not assist in any of the unfounded complaints that my mother sees fit to write about our family members. Sadly most of what mom writes is twisted truths or outright lies. It has been hard on all of us and our family is not bonded because she pits the siblings against each other, as well as all of the rest of the family members and those she calls friends.
Instead of abiding by my wishes she wrote back a long and lengthy letter basically adding fuel to my mother's current fire. 'What's wrong with Connie? I have no pictures either...etc etc..." Hello?! I was the mother of the groom and the only picture I have is the one I got as an anniversary gift by request. Their thank you cards did not even contain a photo. Both of those women were at the wedding. Why did they not take any photos? And since when is it the groom's mother's job to provide pictures for everyone? I was in them, I didn't take any...sheeesh...
My sister-in-law then told me the worst part. Before my mother-in-law mailed the fuel letter she told her not to do that. She told her to stay out of it and my mother-in-law (who I drop everything and go running for...) told her in a nasty way, "I don't care what Connie wants. I'm doing it anyway." She picked herself up and took the fuel letter to the mailman. So now I'm expecting a screaming phone call from my mother. Isn't that lovely? I get screamed at for things that aren't my fault or that I haven't done. Scenarios that are completely made up.... I feel like I do everything for this woman...I can't believe she'd dismiss my happiness so quickly and with malice of forethought. Why?Why would she fuel the problems between my mother and I further? You'd think that after 25 years of asking that she'd think twice...especially because I've been so good to her....story of my life....
---sigh---
Anyway, I am happy to report that I have completely stuck to my diet and have made it to my goal of the 20th. Tomorrow I will go off for the day but will try not to get crazy. Stress is a killer for me and I am under the gun. There is a lot of delicious desserts and chocolates in this house. I will overcome the desire and try to handle the stress in a different manner. Believe it or not writing it here has helped me a great deal. I think that I just needed NOT to bottle it up- which is my usual pattern.
Keep me posted on your Holiday issues as they arise. We'll formulate plans against the caloric foes together! In the mean time- especially during the Holidays...remember that you look as good as you can for today, tomorrow you will look that much better! Do NOT let your perception of your body deter you from having a good time! Stay positive...I will try to do the same. Hey! Good news! It's snowing! ;-) See you next Blog!
Blairtown BFF joined me after that and we went out to the final karaoke night at the Cornerstone Inn. It was hard to stick to the strictness of my diet- but I made a promise to myself and I really wanted to keep it so I did. I had water while out claiming designated driver status once again. That battle plan is a good one and works like a charm. I climbed into bed long around 12:30 am. I felt sad and a little empty. Part of my growth as a person happened inside of that place. I got to know and love new people there. I looked into that bathroom mirror with newness and excitement at times, pain at others, confusion sometimes...but always wonderment. I'm going to miss being a part of that...going somewhere that 'everybody knows my name,' as that old song from the sit-com "Cheers" went.
This morning Blairstown BFF left at around 11am and I got to work on cooking and hanging the final decorative items around the house. We are prepared. The baked ziti is made and just needs to be popped in the oven, the desserts are ready and I'm as ready as I'll ever be. Turkey, Lamb and the fixins tomorrow A.M.
I heard from my son today. He did VERY well in the classes he is taking towards his Masters. I'm so very proud of him. He really is the son that EVERY mother dreams of having.
My mother-in-law got me a little upset today. Of course I'm not under enough stress... You may or may not remember that I've mentioned the extremely strained relationship that I have with my mother. I keep a very delicate balance of staying in touch but not letting her in enough to hurt me or my family. I sent her gifts of course, for the Holiday. I never miss any thing like that...unlike her....She sent me a card back saying that she hasn't worked in 4 months and that she couldn't afford gifts. I have zero problems with that. The card or a letter or that type of thing is all I ever asked of her or my Dad for that matter. (met him at age 44. He died 6 months later. That's a story for another day though.)
Anyway, it was nice. I was happy. Until... Today my sister-in-law called to let me know that my mother also sent a card to my mother-in-law. It said stuff about me not sending any pictures of my son's wedding and not so nice stuff about me. Now- I have asked my mother-in-law for the last 25 years to not fuel the fire- to respond if she felt she must but not to give a whole lot of information and not assist in any of the unfounded complaints that my mother sees fit to write about our family members. Sadly most of what mom writes is twisted truths or outright lies. It has been hard on all of us and our family is not bonded because she pits the siblings against each other, as well as all of the rest of the family members and those she calls friends.
Instead of abiding by my wishes she wrote back a long and lengthy letter basically adding fuel to my mother's current fire. 'What's wrong with Connie? I have no pictures either...etc etc..." Hello?! I was the mother of the groom and the only picture I have is the one I got as an anniversary gift by request. Their thank you cards did not even contain a photo. Both of those women were at the wedding. Why did they not take any photos? And since when is it the groom's mother's job to provide pictures for everyone? I was in them, I didn't take any...sheeesh...
My sister-in-law then told me the worst part. Before my mother-in-law mailed the fuel letter she told her not to do that. She told her to stay out of it and my mother-in-law (who I drop everything and go running for...) told her in a nasty way, "I don't care what Connie wants. I'm doing it anyway." She picked herself up and took the fuel letter to the mailman. So now I'm expecting a screaming phone call from my mother. Isn't that lovely? I get screamed at for things that aren't my fault or that I haven't done. Scenarios that are completely made up.... I feel like I do everything for this woman...I can't believe she'd dismiss my happiness so quickly and with malice of forethought. Why?Why would she fuel the problems between my mother and I further? You'd think that after 25 years of asking that she'd think twice...especially because I've been so good to her....story of my life....
---sigh---
Anyway, I am happy to report that I have completely stuck to my diet and have made it to my goal of the 20th. Tomorrow I will go off for the day but will try not to get crazy. Stress is a killer for me and I am under the gun. There is a lot of delicious desserts and chocolates in this house. I will overcome the desire and try to handle the stress in a different manner. Believe it or not writing it here has helped me a great deal. I think that I just needed NOT to bottle it up- which is my usual pattern.
Keep me posted on your Holiday issues as they arise. We'll formulate plans against the caloric foes together! In the mean time- especially during the Holidays...remember that you look as good as you can for today, tomorrow you will look that much better! Do NOT let your perception of your body deter you from having a good time! Stay positive...I will try to do the same. Hey! Good news! It's snowing! ;-) See you next Blog!
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
December 16, 2009 Diet Blog
When I logged on I discovered that yesterdays post wasn't up. I found it in the same place where the other one I lost turned up. I'm not sure why that happens. Maybe I'm sleepy or not paying attention and I hit the wrong button or something. (Sadly, I'm not above that.) I apologise for the lateness of the post, especially if you were looking for it yesterday.
Today, I slept in and enjoyed the nice, cozy warmth of my blanket until my cats simply would have no more of such non-sense. They insisted on attention and so my day began whether I liked it or not.
I accomplished all of my goals that I set out to do and several others. I called my daughter-in -law on the phone, text my son, talked to several friends, wrapped all the rest of the gifts and studied my tail off!
I am also very happy to report that I stuck to my diet. I had oatmeal for breakfast, Smart Ones for lunch, steak and broccoli for dinner. No snacks- no time. I was concentrating on meeting the goals that I set for myself.
The count down is on. The 20th is Sunday. It's the Holiday Party at my house and I promised myself that I could indulge in the same foods as the rest of the world but of course that I wouldn't go completely overboard about it. This may seem odd- but I'm really kind of nervous about it. Not the party- but about the diet and losing the ground I've taken so to speak. I hope that I can get back on track afterwards is why. I'm going to have to let that go though. If I worry now, it may manifest the negative thought just because its there if you know what I mean. Worry is not going to help anything....
I took my final at body conditioning class. I'm happy to report that I got an 'A.' I was very happy about that. I did 42 minutes on the treadmil. My back still hurts but its feeling a bit better. Since this is my last official class, I'm wondering what to do with myself now. The excersise is so good for me. To be perfectly truthful I really liked it. I don't have the money to purchase one or join a gym right now so I'm at a loss. I guess I'll try pulling the Wii Fit out and giving it another go. I know that I need to do something, that's for sure.
Well, I'm home and heading for a hot shower. Of course I'll keep you posted on the excersise dilemma. I'll figure something out. Any ideas? Share them with me! I'd love to hear!
In the mean time try to remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Try not to let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive... I'm right here if you need me! See you next Blog! ;-)
Today, I slept in and enjoyed the nice, cozy warmth of my blanket until my cats simply would have no more of such non-sense. They insisted on attention and so my day began whether I liked it or not.
I accomplished all of my goals that I set out to do and several others. I called my daughter-in -law on the phone, text my son, talked to several friends, wrapped all the rest of the gifts and studied my tail off!
I am also very happy to report that I stuck to my diet. I had oatmeal for breakfast, Smart Ones for lunch, steak and broccoli for dinner. No snacks- no time. I was concentrating on meeting the goals that I set for myself.
The count down is on. The 20th is Sunday. It's the Holiday Party at my house and I promised myself that I could indulge in the same foods as the rest of the world but of course that I wouldn't go completely overboard about it. This may seem odd- but I'm really kind of nervous about it. Not the party- but about the diet and losing the ground I've taken so to speak. I hope that I can get back on track afterwards is why. I'm going to have to let that go though. If I worry now, it may manifest the negative thought just because its there if you know what I mean. Worry is not going to help anything....
I took my final at body conditioning class. I'm happy to report that I got an 'A.' I was very happy about that. I did 42 minutes on the treadmil. My back still hurts but its feeling a bit better. Since this is my last official class, I'm wondering what to do with myself now. The excersise is so good for me. To be perfectly truthful I really liked it. I don't have the money to purchase one or join a gym right now so I'm at a loss. I guess I'll try pulling the Wii Fit out and giving it another go. I know that I need to do something, that's for sure.
Well, I'm home and heading for a hot shower. Of course I'll keep you posted on the excersise dilemma. I'll figure something out. Any ideas? Share them with me! I'd love to hear!
In the mean time try to remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Try not to let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive... I'm right here if you need me! See you next Blog! ;-)
December 15, 2009 Diet Blog
My co-worker was out today and it was pretty busy. The stress is still pretty high and the co-worker that suffered through the open window has been home with a severe cold/fever for two days now. The co-worker that refused to close the window seems like she is oblivious to it all. It's a crazy world. I was glad to see 4:30 come...in fact, it couldn't come fast enough for me. I have tomorrow off. The goals are to study for my final and to get the rest of the gift wrapping done, as well as picking up small gifts for my son's father-in-law and his spouse, and my son's mother-in -law and her husband.
Body conditioning class was great. Since I began losing weight as I began the class, I believe that it helped me with the weight loss- such as it is. I learned a lot about nutrition too. Facts like: 60% of calories in our daily diet regimen should come from carbohydrates; there are two types of carbohydrates too. Complex carbohydrates, which are the good ones that come from grains, rice, pasta and breads, and simple carbohydrates, which are very bad and come from candy, soda, and junk foods like that. Glucose is the same thing as blood sugar, and Glycogen's are carbohydrates stored in the muscles and the liver and are used for energy. They can be 'sparked by adrenaline' for quick use.
Proteins have a basic unit called amino acid. They are used for recovery, repair and building up lean body mass. They also fight infection. I hadn't known that. There are two types of proteins. Complete proteins, which come from meats or animal sources, and incomplete which come from plant products and grains. Supposedly the Vegan diet, which has absolutely NO animal sources is the healthiest diet though.
Fats are actually good sources of nutrition in moderation. They are a concentrated energy source. 25% of our daily calorie intake should come from fats. There are two types. Saturated fats, which come from animal products and unsaturated fats which come from plant products. Unsaturated fats turn to liquid at room temperature and are much better for us health wise. You need fats though, because fats store vitamins.
Of course the best source of anything is the natural source but I learned a lot about vitamins as well. Did you know that supplements of any kind are not regulated by the FDA? In fact, they are not regulated by anyone. I found that amazing. They can put anything they want on the label so we need to be careful because too much of something- even vitamins can be dangerous and in worst case scenario has caused death. I was shocked to learn that.
I think that I may have known this little tid- bit, but it's worth an honorable mention: if a label on ANYTHING says 'enriched or fortified' that is fancy lingo for 'man made nutrients.' Put it back. It has no value what so ever if you are looking for a healthy food. If I sweep out some of the cob webs from my brain, I think I'll find that information on a back shelf somewhere.
Anyway- like I said I learned a lot. That's just a smidgen of what I need to study. I remember this much but there's tons of information in the book and in my notes. (sigh) I'll sign off here. I'm heading to bed. I'm exhausted and thankfully I can study this all tomorrow! See you next blog!
;-)
Body conditioning class was great. Since I began losing weight as I began the class, I believe that it helped me with the weight loss- such as it is. I learned a lot about nutrition too. Facts like: 60% of calories in our daily diet regimen should come from carbohydrates; there are two types of carbohydrates too. Complex carbohydrates, which are the good ones that come from grains, rice, pasta and breads, and simple carbohydrates, which are very bad and come from candy, soda, and junk foods like that. Glucose is the same thing as blood sugar, and Glycogen's are carbohydrates stored in the muscles and the liver and are used for energy. They can be 'sparked by adrenaline' for quick use.
Proteins have a basic unit called amino acid. They are used for recovery, repair and building up lean body mass. They also fight infection. I hadn't known that. There are two types of proteins. Complete proteins, which come from meats or animal sources, and incomplete which come from plant products and grains. Supposedly the Vegan diet, which has absolutely NO animal sources is the healthiest diet though.
Fats are actually good sources of nutrition in moderation. They are a concentrated energy source. 25% of our daily calorie intake should come from fats. There are two types. Saturated fats, which come from animal products and unsaturated fats which come from plant products. Unsaturated fats turn to liquid at room temperature and are much better for us health wise. You need fats though, because fats store vitamins.
Of course the best source of anything is the natural source but I learned a lot about vitamins as well. Did you know that supplements of any kind are not regulated by the FDA? In fact, they are not regulated by anyone. I found that amazing. They can put anything they want on the label so we need to be careful because too much of something- even vitamins can be dangerous and in worst case scenario has caused death. I was shocked to learn that.
I think that I may have known this little tid- bit, but it's worth an honorable mention: if a label on ANYTHING says 'enriched or fortified' that is fancy lingo for 'man made nutrients.' Put it back. It has no value what so ever if you are looking for a healthy food. If I sweep out some of the cob webs from my brain, I think I'll find that information on a back shelf somewhere.
Anyway- like I said I learned a lot. That's just a smidgen of what I need to study. I remember this much but there's tons of information in the book and in my notes. (sigh) I'll sign off here. I'm heading to bed. I'm exhausted and thankfully I can study this all tomorrow! See you next blog!
;-)
Monday, December 14, 2009
December 14, 2009 Diet Blog
Sometimes I feel like I can really pull this diet thing off without a struggle and other times it's so hard that I literally MUST take it one second at a time. I can't figure out my own emotions. I stayed the course but it was exceptionally hard today. One of the girls brought in Bagels, crackers and cheese and all sorts of delicious goodies. Of course, I had none. I wonder why it is that most of the other girls can eat whatever/when ever they want and I'm the round one.... Bah- humbug.;-)
Sheesh....
I think that part of 'breaking the code' to success might just be setting little goals. In my case- the time goal. I have to make it to the 20th of December and then I can eat something wonderful. The number on the scale doesn't work as a goal for me. That number is frustrating because even as I lose the number showing is still so big and it makes me feel like a cow. It's also depressing. My self esteem is pretty well shot and so I don't like to put myself through that. Let's face it- that number can be a real blow to our already bruised egos.
So far, what I do know is that dieting has to fit your lifestyle. I know that it takes forethought and battle plans to overcome obstacles and it takes preparation to be ready for when a surprise is thrown our way. I think the smaller time goal may be another good idea. It's worth taking a look at. I'm in the middle of the first one. When it ends, I cheat and then I begin 'strict' again. (This would be in between Christmas and New Years and then afterward until Valentine's Day.) I'll keep you updated on round 2 of this experiment when I get there. I'm not dumb enough to think that I won't cheat on Christmas Day and on New Years Eve but other than that I hope to hold my eating bad food at bay until the next goal day arrives.
Today was rough going but I held onto my goal. I had no breakfast sadly. I hurt my back scrubbing and had all I could do to get ready in time for work. (Game plan accomplished by the way, in case you were wondering.) Lunch was a lovely green salad and grapes. It was so good. Dinner was the same as lunch but with a nice piece of salmon to go with it. No snacks today.
We decorated the office. I toughed it out best I could but I have to admit I was happy when my friend and co-worker stepped in to finish the job. She does great and really, it's her 'thing.' It went well and looks fabulous. I'm sure that the boss will be pleased if/when he comes in tomorrow.
Body conditioning class was tonight. My back hurt pretty bad, but I did 30 minutes before I couldn't take the pain any more. I'm off to a hot shower and relaxation so it will be better by tomorrow...at least that's what I'm hoping.
The holidays are hard for us dieters. Believe me I'm an expert. As I go forward I will certainly share anything that I think will help us on the blog. If you want to do the same I would be very grateful as I'm sure everyone who reads it will be. Sometimes reading someone Else's thoughts or ideas can either help us or trigger new ideas of our own, so lets help each other! Write your thoughts in the comment spot! See you next blog! ;-)
Sheesh....
I think that part of 'breaking the code' to success might just be setting little goals. In my case- the time goal. I have to make it to the 20th of December and then I can eat something wonderful. The number on the scale doesn't work as a goal for me. That number is frustrating because even as I lose the number showing is still so big and it makes me feel like a cow. It's also depressing. My self esteem is pretty well shot and so I don't like to put myself through that. Let's face it- that number can be a real blow to our already bruised egos.
So far, what I do know is that dieting has to fit your lifestyle. I know that it takes forethought and battle plans to overcome obstacles and it takes preparation to be ready for when a surprise is thrown our way. I think the smaller time goal may be another good idea. It's worth taking a look at. I'm in the middle of the first one. When it ends, I cheat and then I begin 'strict' again. (This would be in between Christmas and New Years and then afterward until Valentine's Day.) I'll keep you updated on round 2 of this experiment when I get there. I'm not dumb enough to think that I won't cheat on Christmas Day and on New Years Eve but other than that I hope to hold my eating bad food at bay until the next goal day arrives.
Today was rough going but I held onto my goal. I had no breakfast sadly. I hurt my back scrubbing and had all I could do to get ready in time for work. (Game plan accomplished by the way, in case you were wondering.) Lunch was a lovely green salad and grapes. It was so good. Dinner was the same as lunch but with a nice piece of salmon to go with it. No snacks today.
We decorated the office. I toughed it out best I could but I have to admit I was happy when my friend and co-worker stepped in to finish the job. She does great and really, it's her 'thing.' It went well and looks fabulous. I'm sure that the boss will be pleased if/when he comes in tomorrow.
Body conditioning class was tonight. My back hurt pretty bad, but I did 30 minutes before I couldn't take the pain any more. I'm off to a hot shower and relaxation so it will be better by tomorrow...at least that's what I'm hoping.
The holidays are hard for us dieters. Believe me I'm an expert. As I go forward I will certainly share anything that I think will help us on the blog. If you want to do the same I would be very grateful as I'm sure everyone who reads it will be. Sometimes reading someone Else's thoughts or ideas can either help us or trigger new ideas of our own, so lets help each other! Write your thoughts in the comment spot! See you next blog! ;-)
Sunday, December 13, 2009
December 11-13, 2009 Diet Blog
There has been so little time this week, that I have to squish the weekend into one blog. The diet went well all 3 days so far. I am being completely strict until the 20th of December, because My home Holiday Party is that day. It's been hard because Holiday parties that are not mine are going on all around me, and at work the food is abundant and plentiful to say the least. Still, I've been steadfast. I've had a weak moment or two, but NONE that I acted upon.
Friday night after work I went grocery shopping, dropped off my medicine to be refilled, and came home to get ready for my nephew's cub scout Holiday party. Sadly, I passed out from exhaustion on the sofa before it was time to go. Hubby didn't wake me. He went alone and woke me when he got in. I hadn't moved a muscle. He said there was nothing but 'crap' served anyway. I'm kind of glad I missed it in that way. I'm weak lately.
Saturday we got up early and tackled the big jobs around the house. We washed all of the curtains, waxed all of the furniture, cleaned the windows, cleaned the porch and did all of the laundry and wrapped over half of the gifts. We finished around 6pm. I got us a light dinner ready, we watched television and hit the hay.
Sunday is today. The game plan is the dining room and the kitchen. Underneath and inside of everything. We are also going to Shampoo the carpets and get the tree up. So, were doing well. The Christmas music is blasting, I'm sitting with you sharing a cup of coffee and this info and then...it's off to the races again! Have a great day whatever you are doing.
And remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body get in the way of you having a good time...(especially with all of the Holiday festivities going on! And take care of you...you will be glad that you did. These people love YOU. They want to see and be with YOU. YOU is not that stupid number on the scale. YOU is that good person with the big heart.... We tend to forget that as we struggle to see the person that we want to look like in the mirror.) Stay positive...and I'm an email or a comment on the Blog away.... See you next time! ;-)
Friday night after work I went grocery shopping, dropped off my medicine to be refilled, and came home to get ready for my nephew's cub scout Holiday party. Sadly, I passed out from exhaustion on the sofa before it was time to go. Hubby didn't wake me. He went alone and woke me when he got in. I hadn't moved a muscle. He said there was nothing but 'crap' served anyway. I'm kind of glad I missed it in that way. I'm weak lately.
Saturday we got up early and tackled the big jobs around the house. We washed all of the curtains, waxed all of the furniture, cleaned the windows, cleaned the porch and did all of the laundry and wrapped over half of the gifts. We finished around 6pm. I got us a light dinner ready, we watched television and hit the hay.
Sunday is today. The game plan is the dining room and the kitchen. Underneath and inside of everything. We are also going to Shampoo the carpets and get the tree up. So, were doing well. The Christmas music is blasting, I'm sitting with you sharing a cup of coffee and this info and then...it's off to the races again! Have a great day whatever you are doing.
And remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body get in the way of you having a good time...(especially with all of the Holiday festivities going on! And take care of you...you will be glad that you did. These people love YOU. They want to see and be with YOU. YOU is not that stupid number on the scale. YOU is that good person with the big heart.... We tend to forget that as we struggle to see the person that we want to look like in the mirror.) Stay positive...and I'm an email or a comment on the Blog away.... See you next time! ;-)
Thursday, December 10, 2009
December 10, 2009 Diet Blog
It was a good day. I didn't cheat on my diet but truthfully I didn't eat hardly at all because I was so anxious about the television show. That's not good either. No excuses. I just couldn't.... Maybe that's the answer! I should be a performer. ;-)
I got off at noon, came home and rehearsed the story several times, checking my time using my egg timer from the kitchen. I was given 5-7 minutes. I came in just under six so I figured that it would give me leeway if I talked to fast or talked too slow. I was covered!
The show went well. We performed live out of Mount Sinai Hospital Kravis Children's Center. The studio is located right there! 'Kid's Zone TV' it's called. The kids called in from their rooms to ask questions- it was so cute! I enjoyed myself so much. The show will air on PBS/BET channels. I will let you know when if I find out. I also am supposed to get a tape of the show. It's been such an experience.
A sad thing happened just before we aired though. A beer can-empty was found in the bathroom we were using. No one claimed it but to tell you the truth- no one there for the show smelled like beer. Everyone hugged me goodbye. I would've smelled it! I hate beer. I'd wager that one of the realatives brought it in. They nearly cancelled the show. It's a children's hospital for Pete's sake! At the last minute- just when all of the performer's stress peaked, they decided to go forward. I guess that I did alright because I was asked to return. The Producer took my name and cell and gave me her card. I felt pretty good about that. I'm so very tired though.
I'm going to sign off here and go crawl under a blanket. See you next Blog! ;-)
I got off at noon, came home and rehearsed the story several times, checking my time using my egg timer from the kitchen. I was given 5-7 minutes. I came in just under six so I figured that it would give me leeway if I talked to fast or talked too slow. I was covered!
The show went well. We performed live out of Mount Sinai Hospital Kravis Children's Center. The studio is located right there! 'Kid's Zone TV' it's called. The kids called in from their rooms to ask questions- it was so cute! I enjoyed myself so much. The show will air on PBS/BET channels. I will let you know when if I find out. I also am supposed to get a tape of the show. It's been such an experience.
A sad thing happened just before we aired though. A beer can-empty was found in the bathroom we were using. No one claimed it but to tell you the truth- no one there for the show smelled like beer. Everyone hugged me goodbye. I would've smelled it! I hate beer. I'd wager that one of the realatives brought it in. They nearly cancelled the show. It's a children's hospital for Pete's sake! At the last minute- just when all of the performer's stress peaked, they decided to go forward. I guess that I did alright because I was asked to return. The Producer took my name and cell and gave me her card. I felt pretty good about that. I'm so very tired though.
I'm going to sign off here and go crawl under a blanket. See you next Blog! ;-)
December 9, 2009 Diet Blog
It was a tough morning to drag myself out from under that warm and cozy quilt. I did not want to get up and face the cold, nasty, wet weather or the day if it was going to have a cold, nasty, wet disposition. Still, I took a deep breath in and began my day.
The morning was slower than it has been at work, but not slow. The clients seemed to be on edge and I'm sure they too wished that they did not have to crawl out from under their nice cozy quilts to brave the floods of Hackensack. I contemplated taking the kayak to work myself- but ultimately used the car....
The tension is still thick at work but eased some in the afternoon. The boss and I shared playful banter twice at his initiation. It was a welcome change in venue. The coworker that got suspended was not in today because today was the day of punishment. I think that the co-worker who refused to shut the window is feeling the stress. She did it to herself though. Common courtesy dictates that she should've closed the window and not went out of her way to hurt the feelings of another, never mind get her in trouble with the boss. I'm cordial to her, like I said- but I have been the recipient of her baloney myself and so I don't hold her in high regard.
It's a shame. She's very pretty.... sad her personality doesn't match her features.
I am anxious about filming the Children's show tomorrow. It is in New York. I've asked my husband to come with me. I am not comfortable traipsing all over unknown areas of New York by myself. Bad things happen there. I'm not interested in becoming a statistic.
I ate well considering the multitudes of food, cakes and goodies being brought into work for birthdays. I stayed the course but had to fight myself two separate times in order to do it. There are 7 workers who have birthdays in December. I promised myself that I would remain strict until my home party, which is December 20th, Sunday. On that day I will cheat. It's a goal. I will accomplish it. So far I have remained steadfast. I'll keep you posted as we go.
We were talking about dieting the other day at work because someones Doctor called them "Obese." The person in question is heavy...even chunky...but not obese. That's an awful word. One of my co-workers said that it sounds like "Oh Beast!" To be perfectly truthful- that definition of the word fits too in my opinion. That word should be saved for people that are really heavy- not for people that are 5'7' and about 170 pounds. Now this person gets to walk around knowing that the label 'obese' has been put on her.
What is that doing to her self-esteem, which I'm sure is in a rough place anyway since she is dieting. Meanwhile...and this is the corker...the Doctor that told her that is a big fat guy himself. Can you imagine? I wonder if that label on her wasn't part psychological on his part...you know...like to make himself feel better? Some people bring others down just for that specific purpose. Those kinds of 'predators' pray on the weak. Not that she's weak- but in that area, aren't we all? Not to mention that he's male. They seem to like females to be 'off their game.' Sheesh! I can't help but wonder if that's more on him than on her. Still, now she has that word embedded in her mind.
I had fruit salad for breakfast, vegetable salad for lunch, strawberries at 5pm when I got home because I was so hungry that I was afraid if I waited for dinner that I'd cheat. We had lean steak, Hubby had mashed potatoes, I did not, I had green beans and peas. It was good.
Afterward I went to body conditioning class. I did 40 minutes at 2.8. I can't get it back to 3.0. I tried. My shins hurt right away. I'm not stupid enough to incapacitate myself the night before I film the Children's show. I did well I felt.
Bed can't come soon enough for me! See you next Blog! ;-)
The morning was slower than it has been at work, but not slow. The clients seemed to be on edge and I'm sure they too wished that they did not have to crawl out from under their nice cozy quilts to brave the floods of Hackensack. I contemplated taking the kayak to work myself- but ultimately used the car....
The tension is still thick at work but eased some in the afternoon. The boss and I shared playful banter twice at his initiation. It was a welcome change in venue. The coworker that got suspended was not in today because today was the day of punishment. I think that the co-worker who refused to shut the window is feeling the stress. She did it to herself though. Common courtesy dictates that she should've closed the window and not went out of her way to hurt the feelings of another, never mind get her in trouble with the boss. I'm cordial to her, like I said- but I have been the recipient of her baloney myself and so I don't hold her in high regard.
It's a shame. She's very pretty.... sad her personality doesn't match her features.
I am anxious about filming the Children's show tomorrow. It is in New York. I've asked my husband to come with me. I am not comfortable traipsing all over unknown areas of New York by myself. Bad things happen there. I'm not interested in becoming a statistic.
I ate well considering the multitudes of food, cakes and goodies being brought into work for birthdays. I stayed the course but had to fight myself two separate times in order to do it. There are 7 workers who have birthdays in December. I promised myself that I would remain strict until my home party, which is December 20th, Sunday. On that day I will cheat. It's a goal. I will accomplish it. So far I have remained steadfast. I'll keep you posted as we go.
We were talking about dieting the other day at work because someones Doctor called them "Obese." The person in question is heavy...even chunky...but not obese. That's an awful word. One of my co-workers said that it sounds like "Oh Beast!" To be perfectly truthful- that definition of the word fits too in my opinion. That word should be saved for people that are really heavy- not for people that are 5'7' and about 170 pounds. Now this person gets to walk around knowing that the label 'obese' has been put on her.
What is that doing to her self-esteem, which I'm sure is in a rough place anyway since she is dieting. Meanwhile...and this is the corker...the Doctor that told her that is a big fat guy himself. Can you imagine? I wonder if that label on her wasn't part psychological on his part...you know...like to make himself feel better? Some people bring others down just for that specific purpose. Those kinds of 'predators' pray on the weak. Not that she's weak- but in that area, aren't we all? Not to mention that he's male. They seem to like females to be 'off their game.' Sheesh! I can't help but wonder if that's more on him than on her. Still, now she has that word embedded in her mind.
I had fruit salad for breakfast, vegetable salad for lunch, strawberries at 5pm when I got home because I was so hungry that I was afraid if I waited for dinner that I'd cheat. We had lean steak, Hubby had mashed potatoes, I did not, I had green beans and peas. It was good.
Afterward I went to body conditioning class. I did 40 minutes at 2.8. I can't get it back to 3.0. I tried. My shins hurt right away. I'm not stupid enough to incapacitate myself the night before I film the Children's show. I did well I felt.
Bed can't come soon enough for me! See you next Blog! ;-)
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
December 8, 2009 Diet Blog
The tension is still beyond thick at work. The coworker that got ill from the open window is suspended without pay officially tomorrow. No one likes the other girl. The decision was a bad one. I still don't understand it.
My friend from the building across the street came in. She is the one that has lost all of her weight and is maintaining. She says that it is so hard. For many years I heard people say that the maintenance was the hardest part of dieting- losing is the easy part. I never really understood it but I do now. The motivation is different. The number or clothing doesn't change- the people noticing stops or slows to almost a halt...you MUST feel some kind of anxiety I would imagine.... I give her such credit.
Her daughter is battling her weight as well. I told her to extend an invitation here for her daughter to join us. I hope that she does. I wonder if her daughter would read some of these blogs and see her mom strewn within the lines? Would she recognise how much her mom means to others? I wonder if she'd see how much respect her mom commands by her weight accomplishment, the fact that shes a good person and the size of her HUGE heart? I hope that she does. We love her mom!
Last night the balloon that found its way into our room was hovering over me when my husband awoke in the middle of the night. He pushed it away. He also feels that there is some kind of cosmic activity in the house. It's good cosmic activity though. I feel the Angels around me.
After work I got my hair done. It is dark and straight. My best BFF was knocked off her feet when I popped into her home looking like that with no warning. I love doing that.
I popped into the karate school that I worked in for years. A young Joshu that I was very fond of was there- apparently taking on a second job. He looked well. It was nice to see him. It brought back many memories.
I also saw another old friend. Her son was my student when he was 3. Hes 14 now. She went from being a mom to being a Joshu too. I did that... began it I mean. I talked her into taking her very first class. It was great to see her too. I told them about the children's show on the 1oth. They seemed very happy for me.
I ate yogurt for breakfast, smart ones for lunch and yogurt again for dinner because that was all that I had access to. I turned down wine and had tea. I went shopping at the mall with my best BFF and her daughter. They shopped. I just tagged along. My young PA friend called me on the phone and we talked for awhile too. It was so much fun. They had pizza and soda. I had nothing. I held my ground. I'm kind of proud of me tonight.
I'll sign off here because I'm feeling very good and I want to relax. It's been such a long day!
Remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. Were in this together. See you next blog! ;-)
My friend from the building across the street came in. She is the one that has lost all of her weight and is maintaining. She says that it is so hard. For many years I heard people say that the maintenance was the hardest part of dieting- losing is the easy part. I never really understood it but I do now. The motivation is different. The number or clothing doesn't change- the people noticing stops or slows to almost a halt...you MUST feel some kind of anxiety I would imagine.... I give her such credit.
Her daughter is battling her weight as well. I told her to extend an invitation here for her daughter to join us. I hope that she does. I wonder if her daughter would read some of these blogs and see her mom strewn within the lines? Would she recognise how much her mom means to others? I wonder if she'd see how much respect her mom commands by her weight accomplishment, the fact that shes a good person and the size of her HUGE heart? I hope that she does. We love her mom!
Last night the balloon that found its way into our room was hovering over me when my husband awoke in the middle of the night. He pushed it away. He also feels that there is some kind of cosmic activity in the house. It's good cosmic activity though. I feel the Angels around me.
After work I got my hair done. It is dark and straight. My best BFF was knocked off her feet when I popped into her home looking like that with no warning. I love doing that.
I popped into the karate school that I worked in for years. A young Joshu that I was very fond of was there- apparently taking on a second job. He looked well. It was nice to see him. It brought back many memories.
I also saw another old friend. Her son was my student when he was 3. Hes 14 now. She went from being a mom to being a Joshu too. I did that... began it I mean. I talked her into taking her very first class. It was great to see her too. I told them about the children's show on the 1oth. They seemed very happy for me.
I ate yogurt for breakfast, smart ones for lunch and yogurt again for dinner because that was all that I had access to. I turned down wine and had tea. I went shopping at the mall with my best BFF and her daughter. They shopped. I just tagged along. My young PA friend called me on the phone and we talked for awhile too. It was so much fun. They had pizza and soda. I had nothing. I held my ground. I'm kind of proud of me tonight.
I'll sign off here because I'm feeling very good and I want to relax. It's been such a long day!
Remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. Were in this together. See you next blog! ;-)
Monday, December 7, 2009
December 7, 2009 Diet Blog
The morning began with my husband waking me up out of a sound sleep. It seems that one of our anniversary balloons unattached itself from the bunch and floated across the living room, up the stairs making the complete turn and into the hallway outside of our bedroom door. It was odd I had to admit. I thought that maybe the cats had chewed it loose or something. It has been with the rest of the balloons since our 25th anniversary, which was November 4th. He showed me the ends of the ribbons. They weren't frayed at all. With all of the 'cosmic' activity in our lives lately, we decided that the Angels were leaving us a message. We think they want us to realize that we came through a lot and hung tough. We are still together. We still love one another. It was a bit spooky though. I have to admit.
I got into work at the usual time only to find the door locked. The office was completely dark. In the six years that I've been there, that has never happened. Everyone was late except for the new girl and me. It was so weird. Five minutes before work time began, a co-worker with a key showed up and we got in and opened the doors to the public right on time. Someone was already waiting.
I mailed out the gifts for my mother and my siblings, nieces and nephews this morning. They will arrive early, but that's a good thing. I have ulterior motives. The gifts are movie tickets. The mothers can get the Dads to take the kids to the movies and get them out of her hair, which creates time for wrapping and holiday preparations. It's my master plan! I do it every year.
The tension at work is so thick that you could literally cut it with a knife. The boss wasn't in today. The co-worker that refused to close the window is on everyone's bad list and the one that asked her to close the window is suffering with a cold and fever. She came to work anyway so as not to get in worse trouble. There's something just so wrong with that.
After work I went to the game store and purchased my last two gifts. My husbands gift got back ordered and won't be delivered until who knows when so I had to shop for a different one. It kind of made me angry. I was done and very organized about the whole thing. Hubby asked me what I'd like for Christmas. I asked him to pay the bill for my hair tomorrow. It's very expensive and since I'm filming the Children's show on the 10th I need to get it done. He agreed. It's the perfect gift. I'm so happy.
I saw the funniest commercial...actually I've seen it a million times lately- but I laugh every single time. It's the preview for a show that is coming called "Men Of A Certain Age." Ray Romano says to his friend, "I lost two pounds by peeing last night." His friend retorts, "You can't lose two pounds just by peeing." Ray adds, "My record is two and a half!" Every time I see it I crack up. I'm going to check and see how much I lose before and after just to see. It's an experiment! ;-)
I had fruit salad for breakfast, Smart Ones and Yogurt for lunch, turkey cutlets, rice pilaf and green beans left over from last night for dinner. No snacks. I had body conditioning class tonight too. 40 minutes at 2.8. I did okay. I feel tired but I feel good. I haven't gotten it up to 3.0 again. My legs just won't take it. Still, I'm not unhappy. I'm actually worried about what might happen after the class ends and I'm forced into a class where we need to sit and take notes. That's a scary thought.
I'm heading upstairs for a hot shower and a warm blanket. I'll sign off here. See you next blog! ;-)
I got into work at the usual time only to find the door locked. The office was completely dark. In the six years that I've been there, that has never happened. Everyone was late except for the new girl and me. It was so weird. Five minutes before work time began, a co-worker with a key showed up and we got in and opened the doors to the public right on time. Someone was already waiting.
I mailed out the gifts for my mother and my siblings, nieces and nephews this morning. They will arrive early, but that's a good thing. I have ulterior motives. The gifts are movie tickets. The mothers can get the Dads to take the kids to the movies and get them out of her hair, which creates time for wrapping and holiday preparations. It's my master plan! I do it every year.
The tension at work is so thick that you could literally cut it with a knife. The boss wasn't in today. The co-worker that refused to close the window is on everyone's bad list and the one that asked her to close the window is suffering with a cold and fever. She came to work anyway so as not to get in worse trouble. There's something just so wrong with that.
After work I went to the game store and purchased my last two gifts. My husbands gift got back ordered and won't be delivered until who knows when so I had to shop for a different one. It kind of made me angry. I was done and very organized about the whole thing. Hubby asked me what I'd like for Christmas. I asked him to pay the bill for my hair tomorrow. It's very expensive and since I'm filming the Children's show on the 10th I need to get it done. He agreed. It's the perfect gift. I'm so happy.
I saw the funniest commercial...actually I've seen it a million times lately- but I laugh every single time. It's the preview for a show that is coming called "Men Of A Certain Age." Ray Romano says to his friend, "I lost two pounds by peeing last night." His friend retorts, "You can't lose two pounds just by peeing." Ray adds, "My record is two and a half!" Every time I see it I crack up. I'm going to check and see how much I lose before and after just to see. It's an experiment! ;-)
I had fruit salad for breakfast, Smart Ones and Yogurt for lunch, turkey cutlets, rice pilaf and green beans left over from last night for dinner. No snacks. I had body conditioning class tonight too. 40 minutes at 2.8. I did okay. I feel tired but I feel good. I haven't gotten it up to 3.0 again. My legs just won't take it. Still, I'm not unhappy. I'm actually worried about what might happen after the class ends and I'm forced into a class where we need to sit and take notes. That's a scary thought.
I'm heading upstairs for a hot shower and a warm blanket. I'll sign off here. See you next blog! ;-)
Sunday, December 6, 2009
December 6, 2009
It was a busy day. I did laundry, grocery shopped, went to CVS twice, party box, wrote out my Christmas cards and went to AMC Theatre at The Garden State Plaza and purchased gift certificates for several people as holiday gifts. Whew! Those few sentences took me all day.
I fought with myself over something today though. Normally, it would've effected my diet in a negative fashion but I was able to get past it by actually facing the feelings instead of burying them in chocolate or some other detrimental food binge.
Let me explain what happened. I have an XBFF that I loved very much once upon a time. At Thanksgiving I reached out to those I've been estranged with and for the most part, the response was good. The birthday of X is today. I got reminded by alarm on my phone. I deleted that today- so it won't happen again.
I really hated this particular XBFF for awhile because X did some things that were pretty awful, and hurtful to me unnecessarily, and also hurt a very young friend of mine in a very bad way- one that will make her cringe with hurt and shame forever more. I don't hate easily...in fact I can't think of anyone else I've actually felt hatred for---ever... and I've had a rough life....I was mean to X from that second forward, I loathed X openly, was furious with X, and felt such disgust that I broke up the friendship over it. It turned out that X is nothing that they claimed to be. Finding that out made it set in stone. X lied about everything and anything that was ever said to or involed me. It was heart wrenching to have been duped that badly by someone. I loved X to pieces...or the person that X claimed to be anyway....
For me- carrying that kind of hatred around is unnatural. By nature I'm peaceful, unconfrontational and gentle. Though 'nervous Nellie' fits too, I don't hurt others. I show compassion and sympathy or empathy as each situation presents itself. I truely do not understand why X felt the need to hurt either one of us- but X leaves a trail of destruction in their wake as it turned out. X hurt me- but the true hatred came when I found out what X did to that young friend. I hated X with every ounce of my being.... It showed when we crossed paths. He entered a place- I left. I didn't acknowledge X or rolled my eyes in a nasty manner when we crossed paths. If I saw X first- X never knew I was there...you get the idea....
Anyway- For me- I reached out to X on Thanksgiving too. I feel that I need to forgive X and then the bad feelings will go away. I'm a better person than that. I don't like the things that came out of me over loving this person. It'll be better for me to let go of the hate. I just didn't know how to do that. So I added him to the text list. X responded pleasantly on the Thanksgiving text, which didn't shock me. X is forever pleasant...just very fake... phoney, you know? It helped me--- but it didn't. I can't explain other than to say that I still felt such anger. I let go of it best I could but dredged up the hurt again. I thought hard about it. I decided to try and let that go too. I text X "Hpy Bday." I wrote it just like that. Nothing more, nothing less.
X text me back as I knew would happen. X is always Johnny on the spot and just as full of it as the portable John that saying is named after. X wrote "Thank you so much." Just like that. Oh! the hurt flooded back through me like a tidal wave. I cried for awhile and asked the Angels for help in letting go of the hurt so that I could heal. I cried hard. You know- this may sound odd- but they came. The Angels really came. I felt them envelope me while I cried. I looked up and my cat was sitting in front of me staring. I think the cat saw them. I laughed at the confused look on the cats face. With that my Angels were gone. Somehow I felt better and was able to continue on into my busy day.
The fight with myself was over texting X at all. Now I'm glad I did. Not for X- X isn't worth the dirt on my doormat, but for me; for my heart.... It did help me release the hatred. X doesn't deserve me or her in their life. I know that now. It's X's loss. I feel pity for X. X must think very little of himself to be so ugly to people that love them. Thank you Angels....
I ate fruit salad for breakfast, vegetable salad for lunch, turkey cutlet, rice pilaf and green beans for dinner. No snacks- no time!
I heard from my ex-coworker who just had the baby. It was so good to talk and share with her. I heard from my young PA friend. She went rock wall climbing with a boy last night and she really likes him. I'm so thrilled for her! I hope that it works out. The last fella was horrid, judgemental...ick! I heard from several others too, which made me so happy! I feel better about things. I love deeply--- and I'm loved deeply. I have Angels on my side too.... You sure can't beat that!
I'll sign off here remembering that I too- look as good as I can for today. Tomorrow I too will look that much better. I need to not let my perception of my body get in the way of my having a good time. I need to stay positive! We are in this together.... Have an excellent Sunday night and I'll see you next Blog! ;-)
I fought with myself over something today though. Normally, it would've effected my diet in a negative fashion but I was able to get past it by actually facing the feelings instead of burying them in chocolate or some other detrimental food binge.
Let me explain what happened. I have an XBFF that I loved very much once upon a time. At Thanksgiving I reached out to those I've been estranged with and for the most part, the response was good. The birthday of X is today. I got reminded by alarm on my phone. I deleted that today- so it won't happen again.
I really hated this particular XBFF for awhile because X did some things that were pretty awful, and hurtful to me unnecessarily, and also hurt a very young friend of mine in a very bad way- one that will make her cringe with hurt and shame forever more. I don't hate easily...in fact I can't think of anyone else I've actually felt hatred for---ever... and I've had a rough life....I was mean to X from that second forward, I loathed X openly, was furious with X, and felt such disgust that I broke up the friendship over it. It turned out that X is nothing that they claimed to be. Finding that out made it set in stone. X lied about everything and anything that was ever said to or involed me. It was heart wrenching to have been duped that badly by someone. I loved X to pieces...or the person that X claimed to be anyway....
For me- carrying that kind of hatred around is unnatural. By nature I'm peaceful, unconfrontational and gentle. Though 'nervous Nellie' fits too, I don't hurt others. I show compassion and sympathy or empathy as each situation presents itself. I truely do not understand why X felt the need to hurt either one of us- but X leaves a trail of destruction in their wake as it turned out. X hurt me- but the true hatred came when I found out what X did to that young friend. I hated X with every ounce of my being.... It showed when we crossed paths. He entered a place- I left. I didn't acknowledge X or rolled my eyes in a nasty manner when we crossed paths. If I saw X first- X never knew I was there...you get the idea....
Anyway- For me- I reached out to X on Thanksgiving too. I feel that I need to forgive X and then the bad feelings will go away. I'm a better person than that. I don't like the things that came out of me over loving this person. It'll be better for me to let go of the hate. I just didn't know how to do that. So I added him to the text list. X responded pleasantly on the Thanksgiving text, which didn't shock me. X is forever pleasant...just very fake... phoney, you know? It helped me--- but it didn't. I can't explain other than to say that I still felt such anger. I let go of it best I could but dredged up the hurt again. I thought hard about it. I decided to try and let that go too. I text X "Hpy Bday." I wrote it just like that. Nothing more, nothing less.
X text me back as I knew would happen. X is always Johnny on the spot and just as full of it as the portable John that saying is named after. X wrote "Thank you so much." Just like that. Oh! the hurt flooded back through me like a tidal wave. I cried for awhile and asked the Angels for help in letting go of the hurt so that I could heal. I cried hard. You know- this may sound odd- but they came. The Angels really came. I felt them envelope me while I cried. I looked up and my cat was sitting in front of me staring. I think the cat saw them. I laughed at the confused look on the cats face. With that my Angels were gone. Somehow I felt better and was able to continue on into my busy day.
The fight with myself was over texting X at all. Now I'm glad I did. Not for X- X isn't worth the dirt on my doormat, but for me; for my heart.... It did help me release the hatred. X doesn't deserve me or her in their life. I know that now. It's X's loss. I feel pity for X. X must think very little of himself to be so ugly to people that love them. Thank you Angels....
I ate fruit salad for breakfast, vegetable salad for lunch, turkey cutlet, rice pilaf and green beans for dinner. No snacks- no time!
I heard from my ex-coworker who just had the baby. It was so good to talk and share with her. I heard from my young PA friend. She went rock wall climbing with a boy last night and she really likes him. I'm so thrilled for her! I hope that it works out. The last fella was horrid, judgemental...ick! I heard from several others too, which made me so happy! I feel better about things. I love deeply--- and I'm loved deeply. I have Angels on my side too.... You sure can't beat that!
I'll sign off here remembering that I too- look as good as I can for today. Tomorrow I too will look that much better. I need to not let my perception of my body get in the way of my having a good time. I need to stay positive! We are in this together.... Have an excellent Sunday night and I'll see you next Blog! ;-)
December 5, 2009 Diet Blog
It's a beautiful Sunday morning. (I'm writing yesterday's day in obviously, I was so tired I couldn't see straight lol).
I floated down the stairs this morning as the aroma of freshly brewing coffee pulled me from my slumber. I'm looking out the window at the snow covered world surrounding me, basking in the beauty of the moment as I sip my hot coffee. My husband is sitting near by, working on his lap top, diligently pounding out the lesson plan for today's special scuba class. I feel cozy. I feel warm. I feel happy. It is the season of home, hearth and family. I want to savor this exact feeling.
The snow makes everything look clean, fresh and lovely. Its just a few inches but that's all that it takes. I want that for myself too. I want to feel fresh and brisk.... I guess that's why we're dieting right? To feel that again....like we did once before... it just takes a few inches right?
I read a quote on face book this morning. It said 'Angels only cry when their songs go unheard." On the surface it is a wonderful quote- but for me a much deeper message was heard, I felt like I needed to apologise to the Angels. I try to hear them, but at times I've gotten so bogged down in earthly revel that I've forgotten to stop and listen. I need to stop for a moment. I need to listen. We all do.
I also felt the need to give thanks. I believe and feel that there is a greater power on my side. So, Angels, for you and our Lord and any other helping hands in my life- Forgive me if I forget, and thank you for everything. If I don't hear you, feel free to shout. ;-)
I had fruit salad for breakfast, smart Ones for lunch, salmon, rice pilaf and peas for dinner. I didn't eat any snacks. My company left. Prom date left early in the morning, which required me to walk him to the bus stop and wait for a bit. Blairstown BFF left around noon. I felt fatigued so I rested. I wrote a lot though. Today, Sunday I will do a lot of house work, and laundry while my husband is away at a diving seminar. I also hope to get the Christmas tree up. It's a small fake one with lights built in. I just put it up and plug it in. Our son is grown now. It's really all we need.
Yesterday was a good day. I take my coffee the same way Prom Date does. Milk only. It was nice to see him. Karaoke buddy's girlfriend has a friend that she's fixing him up with. It kind of was a lucrative visit for him that way. He longs for a family. He's such a good guy. I hope he gets what he wants and deserves from life. He has an excellent personality. He mentioned once that he feels overweight. It's true. Me too.... He had long hair years ago when we went to the prom, he is purposefully bald now. He said his hair was receding and so he shaved his head because he thought that it made him look better. I agree. Though I never saw it except for long or gone, the look fits his face. His sister- also a friend from the eves of my past struggles with her weight. We're certainly in good company in this case.
I'll sign off for now. I will write today's (Sunday) diet in tonight for you. Remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. Remember, I'm right here.... or just email me if you need to write something long, involved and private. For those that have done that...thank you. You make my day! xo
I floated down the stairs this morning as the aroma of freshly brewing coffee pulled me from my slumber. I'm looking out the window at the snow covered world surrounding me, basking in the beauty of the moment as I sip my hot coffee. My husband is sitting near by, working on his lap top, diligently pounding out the lesson plan for today's special scuba class. I feel cozy. I feel warm. I feel happy. It is the season of home, hearth and family. I want to savor this exact feeling.
The snow makes everything look clean, fresh and lovely. Its just a few inches but that's all that it takes. I want that for myself too. I want to feel fresh and brisk.... I guess that's why we're dieting right? To feel that again....like we did once before... it just takes a few inches right?
I read a quote on face book this morning. It said 'Angels only cry when their songs go unheard." On the surface it is a wonderful quote- but for me a much deeper message was heard, I felt like I needed to apologise to the Angels. I try to hear them, but at times I've gotten so bogged down in earthly revel that I've forgotten to stop and listen. I need to stop for a moment. I need to listen. We all do.
I also felt the need to give thanks. I believe and feel that there is a greater power on my side. So, Angels, for you and our Lord and any other helping hands in my life- Forgive me if I forget, and thank you for everything. If I don't hear you, feel free to shout. ;-)
I had fruit salad for breakfast, smart Ones for lunch, salmon, rice pilaf and peas for dinner. I didn't eat any snacks. My company left. Prom date left early in the morning, which required me to walk him to the bus stop and wait for a bit. Blairstown BFF left around noon. I felt fatigued so I rested. I wrote a lot though. Today, Sunday I will do a lot of house work, and laundry while my husband is away at a diving seminar. I also hope to get the Christmas tree up. It's a small fake one with lights built in. I just put it up and plug it in. Our son is grown now. It's really all we need.
Yesterday was a good day. I take my coffee the same way Prom Date does. Milk only. It was nice to see him. Karaoke buddy's girlfriend has a friend that she's fixing him up with. It kind of was a lucrative visit for him that way. He longs for a family. He's such a good guy. I hope he gets what he wants and deserves from life. He has an excellent personality. He mentioned once that he feels overweight. It's true. Me too.... He had long hair years ago when we went to the prom, he is purposefully bald now. He said his hair was receding and so he shaved his head because he thought that it made him look better. I agree. Though I never saw it except for long or gone, the look fits his face. His sister- also a friend from the eves of my past struggles with her weight. We're certainly in good company in this case.
I'll sign off for now. I will write today's (Sunday) diet in tonight for you. Remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. Remember, I'm right here.... or just email me if you need to write something long, involved and private. For those that have done that...thank you. You make my day! xo
Saturday, December 5, 2009
A Holiday Story 2009
Posted by request of someone I love very much:
You may remember that I broke my favorite purse. If not- now you know. I looked for its duplicate but did not find it and just was not interested in any that I saw. Still, it was very annoying to carry my once beautiful brown purse with the perfect earth tone hearts all over it and the silver heart decoration on the front, broken like that. It was cumbersome and awkward but I'm silly and a little stubborn that way. I usually use a purse until it breaks, then I change it. I just happened to have picked this particular one myself and it lasted quite a while.
While cleaning my house I discovered an old purse that I had tucked away many moons ago. As it turned out it was around 20 years ago. I pulled it out recognising it right away. It was one purchased as a gift for me by my mother-in-law as a gift- probably a birthday because it is tan, with brown trim and butterflies on the front.
It was filthy- caked with dust and so I brought it to the kitchen sink and cleaned it off. It was a sturdy thing. It was certainly big enough. It cleaned up as good as new. I thought- 'well, I'll use it until I find one that I love again. '
After I cleaned it I went to switch the things over from the broken purse. When I opened the butterfly purse there were things inside of it. I was surprised and confused. I never save purses, never mind contents of purses. What was inside was the most amazing gift. I had to sit because I got week at the knees-literally.
The contents began with a baby teething toy. I called it a rattle way back in the day. It belonged to my little girl. You may remember, she died of SIDS at two days short of four months old. It took my breath away. I recognised it right away. I reached in and pulled out a stack of photographs that I did not know existed or at least had forgotten. They were of my little girl, my son, my husband, me and the rattle. It was a white ring with different colored keys and a red heart. It;s plastic. It was also filthy so I put it in the dishwasher after I finished going through the now beloved new purse. I think they were given to me also by my mother in law- the photos of our little girl anyway. I think I stashed them because the pain was so severe at the time. I think my mind let me forget...I couldn't handle it.
There were pictures of me pregnant with the third child; (still born in the 7th month.), my son's 5th birthday spent at karate; skiing photos of our little family that showed my son not as high as my husbands hip... treasures...little toys that my son loved, including a clown and an army man. A gift that my husband had given me many years ago when she was born....
The gift? I got to visit with my baby. I remembered holding her, and loving her, her eyes sparkled.... I remembered the family that we were building and the joy behind her birth. I shared the photos with my husband. It was such an experience- there just aren't words to express it- we laughed and remembered...together. We held each other afterwards and I called my son. It's the best Christmas gift I've ever gotten in my life.
My constant wish has been and will always be 'if God had to take her I wanted only to hold her just once more....' I think she gave me that. (I am kind of ticked that she broke my good purse to do it, but...you can't have everything right?)
How's THAT for a true story?
Happiest of Holidays to you and yours. Let's hope 2010 is an awesome year full of Peace on Earth, Laughter, joy, love and life for everyone!
You may remember that I broke my favorite purse. If not- now you know. I looked for its duplicate but did not find it and just was not interested in any that I saw. Still, it was very annoying to carry my once beautiful brown purse with the perfect earth tone hearts all over it and the silver heart decoration on the front, broken like that. It was cumbersome and awkward but I'm silly and a little stubborn that way. I usually use a purse until it breaks, then I change it. I just happened to have picked this particular one myself and it lasted quite a while.
While cleaning my house I discovered an old purse that I had tucked away many moons ago. As it turned out it was around 20 years ago. I pulled it out recognising it right away. It was one purchased as a gift for me by my mother-in-law as a gift- probably a birthday because it is tan, with brown trim and butterflies on the front.
It was filthy- caked with dust and so I brought it to the kitchen sink and cleaned it off. It was a sturdy thing. It was certainly big enough. It cleaned up as good as new. I thought- 'well, I'll use it until I find one that I love again. '
After I cleaned it I went to switch the things over from the broken purse. When I opened the butterfly purse there were things inside of it. I was surprised and confused. I never save purses, never mind contents of purses. What was inside was the most amazing gift. I had to sit because I got week at the knees-literally.
The contents began with a baby teething toy. I called it a rattle way back in the day. It belonged to my little girl. You may remember, she died of SIDS at two days short of four months old. It took my breath away. I recognised it right away. I reached in and pulled out a stack of photographs that I did not know existed or at least had forgotten. They were of my little girl, my son, my husband, me and the rattle. It was a white ring with different colored keys and a red heart. It;s plastic. It was also filthy so I put it in the dishwasher after I finished going through the now beloved new purse. I think they were given to me also by my mother in law- the photos of our little girl anyway. I think I stashed them because the pain was so severe at the time. I think my mind let me forget...I couldn't handle it.
There were pictures of me pregnant with the third child; (still born in the 7th month.), my son's 5th birthday spent at karate; skiing photos of our little family that showed my son not as high as my husbands hip... treasures...little toys that my son loved, including a clown and an army man. A gift that my husband had given me many years ago when she was born....
The gift? I got to visit with my baby. I remembered holding her, and loving her, her eyes sparkled.... I remembered the family that we were building and the joy behind her birth. I shared the photos with my husband. It was such an experience- there just aren't words to express it- we laughed and remembered...together. We held each other afterwards and I called my son. It's the best Christmas gift I've ever gotten in my life.
My constant wish has been and will always be 'if God had to take her I wanted only to hold her just once more....' I think she gave me that. (I am kind of ticked that she broke my good purse to do it, but...you can't have everything right?)
How's THAT for a true story?
Happiest of Holidays to you and yours. Let's hope 2010 is an awesome year full of Peace on Earth, Laughter, joy, love and life for everyone!
December 4, 2009 Diet Blog
It was another long, tiring, emotional day at the office. Though no blow- ups occurred the tension was unbearable. At one point it seemed like it may have passed. We were not that lucky. The letter came suspending my fellow employee without pay for one day. I'm appalled. Thankfully she handled herself with grace and dignity. Especially given the fact that she was not the one that deserved a reprimand.
The end of the day could not come quick enough to suit me. I think that we all felt the same way. This situation is just not right. Our hands are tied though. The economy is bad. If we do anything- the next bad decision could be one made against us....
My diet went fine. Oatmeal for breakfast. Salad and yogurt for lunch, salad and fruit salad for dinner; again, no time for snacks- not that I gave it a second thought.
I do want to mention that bad breath seems to have taken me over. No one has said anything but I feel like my breath is bad even though I brush my teeth etc. I've been chewing gum but I think that I am going to pick up a small bottle of Listerine to keep at my desk. I bring this up because, not only did this occur with me suddenly, but several fellow dieters have mentioned the issue as well. It needs to be addressed obviously, no one wants to have it and certainly being on the other end is no fun either. My answer for now is extra mouthwash. I'll keep you informed. Remember, I promised to talk about everything I learn as I go along. ;-)
My Blairstown BFF came in tonight for a night out at karaoke. My high school prom date came as well. They are not a couple. Blairstown is married. Prom Date is single but looking. Anyway, hubby, myself, my prom date and Blairstown BFF went out and had such a fun night! I am proud to report that I had two bottles of water the entire evening and drove everyone as the volunteer 'designated driver.' How cool is that? I came up with the battle plan on my way home from work. We got in about 2am. Prom Date sleeps on the air mattress made up in the livingroom, Blairstown sleeps in my son's old room and of course Hubby and I will be in our usual spot in the Master Bedroom. It was so much fun!
I just want to take a moment to mention that I weigh in on the 5th as I have each month since the Blog started. I do not want to be about the number as I've stated, but will use it to monitor the progress for you. The progress feels slow and as you've read, I'm far from perfect.But the number is going in the right direction even if I think it isn't fast enough.
My Christmas Party is here at my house on Dec. 20 so that my son can be here and visit with our loved ones, friends and family. I'm really going to try to remain stead fast and focused until that day; at which time I'm not dumb enough to think that I won't cheat. See if you can get that far without cheating too. If you can't it's not worth beating yourself up over, but do try. Set a goal and reach for it even if it isn't this one. It's my new trial battle plan.
I'll sign off now reminding us that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. See you next blog...WITH the dreaded number....
The end of the day could not come quick enough to suit me. I think that we all felt the same way. This situation is just not right. Our hands are tied though. The economy is bad. If we do anything- the next bad decision could be one made against us....
My diet went fine. Oatmeal for breakfast. Salad and yogurt for lunch, salad and fruit salad for dinner; again, no time for snacks- not that I gave it a second thought.
I do want to mention that bad breath seems to have taken me over. No one has said anything but I feel like my breath is bad even though I brush my teeth etc. I've been chewing gum but I think that I am going to pick up a small bottle of Listerine to keep at my desk. I bring this up because, not only did this occur with me suddenly, but several fellow dieters have mentioned the issue as well. It needs to be addressed obviously, no one wants to have it and certainly being on the other end is no fun either. My answer for now is extra mouthwash. I'll keep you informed. Remember, I promised to talk about everything I learn as I go along. ;-)
My Blairstown BFF came in tonight for a night out at karaoke. My high school prom date came as well. They are not a couple. Blairstown is married. Prom Date is single but looking. Anyway, hubby, myself, my prom date and Blairstown BFF went out and had such a fun night! I am proud to report that I had two bottles of water the entire evening and drove everyone as the volunteer 'designated driver.' How cool is that? I came up with the battle plan on my way home from work. We got in about 2am. Prom Date sleeps on the air mattress made up in the livingroom, Blairstown sleeps in my son's old room and of course Hubby and I will be in our usual spot in the Master Bedroom. It was so much fun!
I just want to take a moment to mention that I weigh in on the 5th as I have each month since the Blog started. I do not want to be about the number as I've stated, but will use it to monitor the progress for you. The progress feels slow and as you've read, I'm far from perfect.But the number is going in the right direction even if I think it isn't fast enough.
My Christmas Party is here at my house on Dec. 20 so that my son can be here and visit with our loved ones, friends and family. I'm really going to try to remain stead fast and focused until that day; at which time I'm not dumb enough to think that I won't cheat. See if you can get that far without cheating too. If you can't it's not worth beating yourself up over, but do try. Set a goal and reach for it even if it isn't this one. It's my new trial battle plan.
I'll sign off now reminding us that we look as good as we can for today. Tomorrow we will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. See you next blog...WITH the dreaded number....
Thursday, December 3, 2009
December 3, 2009 Diet Blog
I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night. The day carried over into my rest time and I couldn't shut my mind off. It was a rainy, windy, nasty night, full of lightning bursts. I got up and played on the computer for awhile but a surge of energy shut off everything in the house so I shut it down and went to bed. It was such a restless night.
I dragged myself into work promising myself that it was going to be a better day. It wasn't. In an unrelated to yesterday- incident, two of my co-workers had an altercation. Co-worker A opened the window by her cubicle because she was hot. It was windy and the brisk December air blew across to Co-Worker B's cubicle. B has a history of medical issues and cannot take the cold. When she was shivering she finally asked A to close the window. A- refused in an not very-nice, agitated manner siting a hippa law of some sort about disclosing medical issues and told B that she was a 'princess." She said that she wasn't 'bowing down' to B. B got very upset. Once again all of the people in a supervisory position were out or gone to lunch including the boss. B told the acting supervisor as far as rank went what had happened, that she wasn't feeling well and that she was going home. She put it in writing and gave the note to the bosses assistant. The supervisor took her back into the office to try and resolve the situation with A at around 10 minutes to 1pm. A's lunch hour was at 1pm. A still refused to close the window. B went home. The rest is nuts.
A got to the boss before the acting supervisor. He got upset because B left without consulting him first. He suspended her without pay. Now I ask you, does that make any sense? A only had 10 minutes until she was leaving for lunch. Why couldn't she just close the stupid window? It was ridiculous! There was a full moon just the other day...it really makes you wonder.
I struggled with the decision made about this too just as I struggled with yesterdays. On the way out the door my boss and the assistant said goodnight and I said goodnight back. My boss turned and acted as if they were going to say something to me. Bosses mind Changed or not, but the boss nodded instead and went out the door. I pray that none of the higher ups ask me my opinion. I'm not a good liar and I'm not interested in losing my job.
I came home and just vegged for the night. I had a lite n fit yogurt for dinner. I just can't eat... I always saw my boss in the most amazing of light....fair, just...the one with the view of the bigger picture... I'm so disappointed. B has just purchased a home. Her husbands 9 year old daughter moved here from out of the country and she took that on. She can't afford to lose the money. My heart is bleeding profusely for her. I have to say that A wasn't well liked by anyone but the few higher ups before this...now? Forget it. What WAS that anyway? She got off on hurting another person? And what about the fair -just thing, like listening to both sides of the story? What about that? I'm sorry to put all of this out on the blog...I'm stressed and upset to the point of shaking though.... Usually I head for the chocolate. I'm reacting weird. I'm actually ill. I cannot eat. I'm not sick. Just...ill....
Let me try to go towards a more positive place before I make myself worse.
My sister sent me an article I thought was pretty good. She got it out of 'Shape' magazine's October issue. I have the magazine. I highly recommend reading it. It was called 'Lose Weight without dieting!' It spoke about tricking yourself into eating less, thus dropping pounds effortlessly. 1- Fool Your Appetite. This was the use of smaller dishes so the food portions will look larger- idea. We've all heard it before, haven't we? It's a good idea though. 2- Say no to crime. Obviously committing a crime is a bad idea but they mean the television shows about crime. They supposedly upset you and make you eat more than you normally would as a reaction to being upset. I found that interesting. I love those types of shows; not gory ones; and I do eat more when I'm stressed-usually. It made me wonder. I'll check and let you know. 3- Give your fork a rest. Eat slower. Enjoy your food. Put the fork down once in awhile to share pleasant conversation. We've heard that too. Also a good idea. 4- Jog your memory. Write down in detail what you've eaten, when and how much. It will remind you not to over indulge. 5- Watch your mouth. Well, swear words got soap in the mouths of children using them back when I was a child but that's not what this means. It means to eat in front of a mirror. This is a new one for me. I've never heard it. Simply put, staring at the reflection of yourself while you eat makes you more aware of your body and by association, your weight loss goals. That one seems odd to me but I'll give it a try and post the results. If you want to do the same I would love that!
So that's about everything I can say for today. If you happen to have a moment and want to say a little prayer for peace on earth, I am doing the same. That prayer is important on so many levels in today's world isn't it? Everything from Iraq and Afghanistan to office issues and family sagas are covered under it. I'm going to say one as soon as I log out. In the meantime- I hope you are doing well. Have a great rest of today and I'll see you again on the next blog! ;-)
I dragged myself into work promising myself that it was going to be a better day. It wasn't. In an unrelated to yesterday- incident, two of my co-workers had an altercation. Co-worker A opened the window by her cubicle because she was hot. It was windy and the brisk December air blew across to Co-Worker B's cubicle. B has a history of medical issues and cannot take the cold. When she was shivering she finally asked A to close the window. A- refused in an not very-nice, agitated manner siting a hippa law of some sort about disclosing medical issues and told B that she was a 'princess." She said that she wasn't 'bowing down' to B. B got very upset. Once again all of the people in a supervisory position were out or gone to lunch including the boss. B told the acting supervisor as far as rank went what had happened, that she wasn't feeling well and that she was going home. She put it in writing and gave the note to the bosses assistant. The supervisor took her back into the office to try and resolve the situation with A at around 10 minutes to 1pm. A's lunch hour was at 1pm. A still refused to close the window. B went home. The rest is nuts.
A got to the boss before the acting supervisor. He got upset because B left without consulting him first. He suspended her without pay. Now I ask you, does that make any sense? A only had 10 minutes until she was leaving for lunch. Why couldn't she just close the stupid window? It was ridiculous! There was a full moon just the other day...it really makes you wonder.
I struggled with the decision made about this too just as I struggled with yesterdays. On the way out the door my boss and the assistant said goodnight and I said goodnight back. My boss turned and acted as if they were going to say something to me. Bosses mind Changed or not, but the boss nodded instead and went out the door. I pray that none of the higher ups ask me my opinion. I'm not a good liar and I'm not interested in losing my job.
I came home and just vegged for the night. I had a lite n fit yogurt for dinner. I just can't eat... I always saw my boss in the most amazing of light....fair, just...the one with the view of the bigger picture... I'm so disappointed. B has just purchased a home. Her husbands 9 year old daughter moved here from out of the country and she took that on. She can't afford to lose the money. My heart is bleeding profusely for her. I have to say that A wasn't well liked by anyone but the few higher ups before this...now? Forget it. What WAS that anyway? She got off on hurting another person? And what about the fair -just thing, like listening to both sides of the story? What about that? I'm sorry to put all of this out on the blog...I'm stressed and upset to the point of shaking though.... Usually I head for the chocolate. I'm reacting weird. I'm actually ill. I cannot eat. I'm not sick. Just...ill....
Let me try to go towards a more positive place before I make myself worse.
My sister sent me an article I thought was pretty good. She got it out of 'Shape' magazine's October issue. I have the magazine. I highly recommend reading it. It was called 'Lose Weight without dieting!' It spoke about tricking yourself into eating less, thus dropping pounds effortlessly. 1- Fool Your Appetite. This was the use of smaller dishes so the food portions will look larger- idea. We've all heard it before, haven't we? It's a good idea though. 2- Say no to crime. Obviously committing a crime is a bad idea but they mean the television shows about crime. They supposedly upset you and make you eat more than you normally would as a reaction to being upset. I found that interesting. I love those types of shows; not gory ones; and I do eat more when I'm stressed-usually. It made me wonder. I'll check and let you know. 3- Give your fork a rest. Eat slower. Enjoy your food. Put the fork down once in awhile to share pleasant conversation. We've heard that too. Also a good idea. 4- Jog your memory. Write down in detail what you've eaten, when and how much. It will remind you not to over indulge. 5- Watch your mouth. Well, swear words got soap in the mouths of children using them back when I was a child but that's not what this means. It means to eat in front of a mirror. This is a new one for me. I've never heard it. Simply put, staring at the reflection of yourself while you eat makes you more aware of your body and by association, your weight loss goals. That one seems odd to me but I'll give it a try and post the results. If you want to do the same I would love that!
So that's about everything I can say for today. If you happen to have a moment and want to say a little prayer for peace on earth, I am doing the same. That prayer is important on so many levels in today's world isn't it? Everything from Iraq and Afghanistan to office issues and family sagas are covered under it. I'm going to say one as soon as I log out. In the meantime- I hope you are doing well. Have a great rest of today and I'll see you again on the next blog! ;-)
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
December 2, 2009 Diet Blog
Oh, I woke up in the most spectacular mood today! I floated on a cloud through my morning routine and rode 'Mr. Toad's Wild Ride' to work, laughed and text with my young friend from PA and my high school prom date and went into work feeling like I could conquer the world. I had it going on!
I really meditated about my body. And then I gave myself a motivational speech, which I shared with my co-worker. I'm very loved by my husband, my son, family and friends. I'm a good person and have helped many people- some that I've never met before and may never see again. I've done random acts of kindness during my travels that gave others a good feeling as well as myself, and also provided a good story for them to tell their families. None of those mentioned look at me and see anything other than that. The pounds will come off, but they aren't everything. The things I mentioned ARE. I was really feeling wonderful!
Lunchtime was still fun. The banter and the conversation was fun and moved swiftly from subject to subject until the hour was up. One of the girls mentioned that she sees my weight loss, especially in my upper torso and face. 'Less bulky' was her way of putting it. That felt very good and I went back to work still happy. Sadly, the happiness ended there.
To make a long story short and sweet, a crazy lady called several times. She upset the girl that complimented me at lunch and myself. The complimenter told her that her behavior was unacceptable and inappropriate and was forced to hang up on her. I told her she was very rude and did the same. She was completely out of control. She phoned me back at half hour intervals demanding to talk to the people that were out sick or on a vacation day. She was so verbally abusive that I wrote it at the bottom of the message to my Boss because I wanted the boss to be prepared. The boss is a very important person and not used to being talked to in any other manner than with the respect that was earned.
As I finally took that message for the boss and she gave me a nasty ultimatum assuring me in no uncertain terms that 'her papers had BETTER be ready when she comes in at 4....' That didn't seem like it was going to happen but I said nothing. When the boss came back I explained to him how verbally abusive she had been. I gave forth her exact sentence. I gave him the note. I know that I was noticably upset.
It didn't end there though. Sadly, the girl that complimented me at lunch ended up getting yelled at for telling her friend- a security guard about the issue. She just asked him to wander up and check on us at 4. He didn't. Instead he told his supervisor and another officer was sent up. She actually got in trouble for doing that. I'm shocked. I'm the front man...me and one co-worker. Are we not allowed to call security in when we feel threatened? I felt threatened. What if she came up at four and her papers were not ready? She is well known in our place of employment for this exact problem and has been escorted out of other offices when they felt threatened. I love my job but I've gotta tell you- we handle a lot of 'crazy' people- mad; upset, irate, livid, hurting people. I don't think the boss really gets that. They aren't like that with the boss.... I'm so upset. It ruined the rest of my night and I can't get it out of my mind. What's that old saying? 'You can't fight city hall.' This situation is so messed up. The Boss should've backed her play. It's ME that's in danger if some crazy snaps. I'm glad that she told her friend. She should've been commended for thinking to protect us that are out front. Instead she got reprimanded for doing what I think was the right thing. I just don't know what to do.... I don't know what to think. There's no way to twist this where she comes out wrong....
My diet went great though. Oatmeal for breakfast, grilled chicken salad for lunch, regular vegetable salad and fruit salad for dinner. No snacks. Body conditioning was fine too. 40 minutes at 2.6 - 2.9 depending. I was so upset that it was easy. I cried in the car on the way home from class. I'm so upset and frustrated. When she comes in brandishing a weapon or hurts someone because she's not getting her way; what then? I'm so disheartened....this is not good.... I can't believe our safety is not a top priority. I always thought that it was.
I'm going to go grab a hot shower and hit the hay. If you work with me or visit me in the office or lunchroom or see me in the hallways or at all- please don't bring this up. I don't want any more problems brought down on my co-worker's head. It totally stunk to be us this afternoon- I don't imagine anyone on the scene felt any different. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. Good night. ;-)
I really meditated about my body. And then I gave myself a motivational speech, which I shared with my co-worker. I'm very loved by my husband, my son, family and friends. I'm a good person and have helped many people- some that I've never met before and may never see again. I've done random acts of kindness during my travels that gave others a good feeling as well as myself, and also provided a good story for them to tell their families. None of those mentioned look at me and see anything other than that. The pounds will come off, but they aren't everything. The things I mentioned ARE. I was really feeling wonderful!
Lunchtime was still fun. The banter and the conversation was fun and moved swiftly from subject to subject until the hour was up. One of the girls mentioned that she sees my weight loss, especially in my upper torso and face. 'Less bulky' was her way of putting it. That felt very good and I went back to work still happy. Sadly, the happiness ended there.
To make a long story short and sweet, a crazy lady called several times. She upset the girl that complimented me at lunch and myself. The complimenter told her that her behavior was unacceptable and inappropriate and was forced to hang up on her. I told her she was very rude and did the same. She was completely out of control. She phoned me back at half hour intervals demanding to talk to the people that were out sick or on a vacation day. She was so verbally abusive that I wrote it at the bottom of the message to my Boss because I wanted the boss to be prepared. The boss is a very important person and not used to being talked to in any other manner than with the respect that was earned.
As I finally took that message for the boss and she gave me a nasty ultimatum assuring me in no uncertain terms that 'her papers had BETTER be ready when she comes in at 4....' That didn't seem like it was going to happen but I said nothing. When the boss came back I explained to him how verbally abusive she had been. I gave forth her exact sentence. I gave him the note. I know that I was noticably upset.
It didn't end there though. Sadly, the girl that complimented me at lunch ended up getting yelled at for telling her friend- a security guard about the issue. She just asked him to wander up and check on us at 4. He didn't. Instead he told his supervisor and another officer was sent up. She actually got in trouble for doing that. I'm shocked. I'm the front man...me and one co-worker. Are we not allowed to call security in when we feel threatened? I felt threatened. What if she came up at four and her papers were not ready? She is well known in our place of employment for this exact problem and has been escorted out of other offices when they felt threatened. I love my job but I've gotta tell you- we handle a lot of 'crazy' people- mad; upset, irate, livid, hurting people. I don't think the boss really gets that. They aren't like that with the boss.... I'm so upset. It ruined the rest of my night and I can't get it out of my mind. What's that old saying? 'You can't fight city hall.' This situation is so messed up. The Boss should've backed her play. It's ME that's in danger if some crazy snaps. I'm glad that she told her friend. She should've been commended for thinking to protect us that are out front. Instead she got reprimanded for doing what I think was the right thing. I just don't know what to do.... I don't know what to think. There's no way to twist this where she comes out wrong....
My diet went great though. Oatmeal for breakfast, grilled chicken salad for lunch, regular vegetable salad and fruit salad for dinner. No snacks. Body conditioning was fine too. 40 minutes at 2.6 - 2.9 depending. I was so upset that it was easy. I cried in the car on the way home from class. I'm so upset and frustrated. When she comes in brandishing a weapon or hurts someone because she's not getting her way; what then? I'm so disheartened....this is not good.... I can't believe our safety is not a top priority. I always thought that it was.
I'm going to go grab a hot shower and hit the hay. If you work with me or visit me in the office or lunchroom or see me in the hallways or at all- please don't bring this up. I don't want any more problems brought down on my co-worker's head. It totally stunk to be us this afternoon- I don't imagine anyone on the scene felt any different. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. Good night. ;-)
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
December 1, 2009 Diet Blog
Well, it sure was a busy day today. I was exhausted by the end of the day but had to grocery shop and run several errands. I came home, put the items away and then made dinner for my husband and myself. We watched The Presidential Address from West Point and I'll be heading to bed right after I touch base with you. I had oatmeal for breakfast, grilled chicken salad and grapes for lunch, grilled chicken salad and a banana for dinner. No snacks- no time.
As I mentioned I wrote the rough draft of the paper on nutrition. I was able to learn several things while doing that, which had escaped my vast knowledge up until that point. ( I joke about the vast knowledge...it's just that I feel as if I've tried every diet and every diet trick known to man...of course I haven't. It just feels that way sometimes.) Anyway I've been wanting to share this with you, one of the new things I discovered was regarding the food pyramid. Comparing the old one to the new one shows a significant decrease in the amount of food intake that is considered healthy.
I thought about that as I read. I wonder if its because we've become sedentary and therefore require less food to sustain us? We now watch the game on television rather than participating in one. We drive instead of walking short distances. We use machines to do much of our manual labor. Computers often do our shopping. Things like that have lessened our activity and it is spilling over into the next generation. We are an obese nation. The average size for females went from a size twelve to a fourteen. It's amazing when you think about it. I'm not excluding myself here either. I am as guilty as the next person in this type of thing.
I think that we are so fast paced that we don't see what's going on around us. When was the last time we stopped to see the sunset, marvel at the ocean or to smell a beautiful rose? All of these things are factors in the diet process as well as 'going green.' Serious thought should be given to changing what we can about our lives in the fast lane and in turn the 'green' of our earth will grow healthier too while our body weight decreases. It's like a ripple effect.
I'm not saying that my being on a diet will help stop global warming; that's not what I mean. What I am saying is walking instead of driving will help both issues; recycling trash even though it's more trips to the curb will too; things like that; every little bit helps. I'm one person, but if you join me that makes several. Change starts with one, just like dieting starts with the first pound. It starts at one. Believe me when I tell you that I wish it could start at 50 and move from there. It still starts at one.
I also read an article in the October issue of Woman's World about 'One Minute Confidence Boosters.' I think this is another part of breaking our negative, unhealthy eating patterns. There were six ways. 1- Pop a supplement and feel less fearful. They recommend 3 g. of the amino acid tryptophan. It helps the brain secrete serotonin, which boosts your mood. That's an individual choice. For me, I choose not to do anything that I'm not going to be able to do for a lifetime. 2- Talk to yourself to melt away worries. Since I've been doing that for years I guess I'd have to agree with that assessment. However, if I start hearing a voice in my head answering- I'm running to the doctor! 3-Make a list to melt away insecurities. Jot down your accomplishments or things that brought you joy or made you feel happy. Again- I'm a big fan of that. A journal comes in very handy for seeing why I veer off path because I often eat food for comfort. 4- Nod your head to erase all doubts. Supposedly it keeps you positive about your own opinions. 5- (and I love this one.) Wear shades to feel empowered. Also, high heels do that same thing for confidence and of course a trip to the salon! Yes! It's totally true! 6- (and my favorite.) Visit Face book to calm your nerves. (Don't you LOVE THAT?!) It reminds you that you matter to other people, and that you are not alone. I adore face book and my face book friends! They say that carrying a cell phone does the same thing. I'm also a big fan of that!
I'm going to sign off now by quoting another one of the articles called 'A Moment for you.' It's a beautiful sentiment that made me think of you today:
"You're not stuck. You're on the brink of success!
Sometimes it may feel like your dreams are stalled. But that just means it's time to rev your engine! You're on the right path: It's been mapped by the best GPS system around- your heart! You have the best fuel there is: Hope! So don't give up now! Your life's not on hold. It's about to unfold!"
Since I also feel that way about my pending authorship I really identified with the meaning behind the words. They fit me.... Woman's World is a good read! All of these quotes are from the October Issue.
Remember you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. One last quote from the magazine:
"It's very difficult to go back and make a brand new start, but you can always START FROM NOW AND MAKE A BRAND NEW ENDING."
See you next blog ;-)
As I mentioned I wrote the rough draft of the paper on nutrition. I was able to learn several things while doing that, which had escaped my vast knowledge up until that point. ( I joke about the vast knowledge...it's just that I feel as if I've tried every diet and every diet trick known to man...of course I haven't. It just feels that way sometimes.) Anyway I've been wanting to share this with you, one of the new things I discovered was regarding the food pyramid. Comparing the old one to the new one shows a significant decrease in the amount of food intake that is considered healthy.
I thought about that as I read. I wonder if its because we've become sedentary and therefore require less food to sustain us? We now watch the game on television rather than participating in one. We drive instead of walking short distances. We use machines to do much of our manual labor. Computers often do our shopping. Things like that have lessened our activity and it is spilling over into the next generation. We are an obese nation. The average size for females went from a size twelve to a fourteen. It's amazing when you think about it. I'm not excluding myself here either. I am as guilty as the next person in this type of thing.
I think that we are so fast paced that we don't see what's going on around us. When was the last time we stopped to see the sunset, marvel at the ocean or to smell a beautiful rose? All of these things are factors in the diet process as well as 'going green.' Serious thought should be given to changing what we can about our lives in the fast lane and in turn the 'green' of our earth will grow healthier too while our body weight decreases. It's like a ripple effect.
I'm not saying that my being on a diet will help stop global warming; that's not what I mean. What I am saying is walking instead of driving will help both issues; recycling trash even though it's more trips to the curb will too; things like that; every little bit helps. I'm one person, but if you join me that makes several. Change starts with one, just like dieting starts with the first pound. It starts at one. Believe me when I tell you that I wish it could start at 50 and move from there. It still starts at one.
I also read an article in the October issue of Woman's World about 'One Minute Confidence Boosters.' I think this is another part of breaking our negative, unhealthy eating patterns. There were six ways. 1- Pop a supplement and feel less fearful. They recommend 3 g. of the amino acid tryptophan. It helps the brain secrete serotonin, which boosts your mood. That's an individual choice. For me, I choose not to do anything that I'm not going to be able to do for a lifetime. 2- Talk to yourself to melt away worries. Since I've been doing that for years I guess I'd have to agree with that assessment. However, if I start hearing a voice in my head answering- I'm running to the doctor! 3-Make a list to melt away insecurities. Jot down your accomplishments or things that brought you joy or made you feel happy. Again- I'm a big fan of that. A journal comes in very handy for seeing why I veer off path because I often eat food for comfort. 4- Nod your head to erase all doubts. Supposedly it keeps you positive about your own opinions. 5- (and I love this one.) Wear shades to feel empowered. Also, high heels do that same thing for confidence and of course a trip to the salon! Yes! It's totally true! 6- (and my favorite.) Visit Face book to calm your nerves. (Don't you LOVE THAT?!) It reminds you that you matter to other people, and that you are not alone. I adore face book and my face book friends! They say that carrying a cell phone does the same thing. I'm also a big fan of that!
I'm going to sign off now by quoting another one of the articles called 'A Moment for you.' It's a beautiful sentiment that made me think of you today:
"You're not stuck. You're on the brink of success!
Sometimes it may feel like your dreams are stalled. But that just means it's time to rev your engine! You're on the right path: It's been mapped by the best GPS system around- your heart! You have the best fuel there is: Hope! So don't give up now! Your life's not on hold. It's about to unfold!"
Since I also feel that way about my pending authorship I really identified with the meaning behind the words. They fit me.... Woman's World is a good read! All of these quotes are from the October Issue.
Remember you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. One last quote from the magazine:
"It's very difficult to go back and make a brand new start, but you can always START FROM NOW AND MAKE A BRAND NEW ENDING."
See you next blog ;-)
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