July 19, 2011 Diet Blog

Just a quick note because I'm furiously working to get everything ready for the Royal Caribbean Book tour. Another half a pound down. I'm in the home stretch. It's a scorcher outside- 90's, HUMID!!! Got to run. See you next blog!

July 18, 2011 Diet Blog

I'm happy to report a loss of one pound! I was so happy. I despise that the number can dictate my day- THAT'S why I choose the once a month weigh in. That way I go by feelings and can spot real emotional distress, which is when I'm at my weakest point. For those of you that tried the HCG, today you should be off of it. It is 30 days ONLY- detrimental to your health otherwise. For those that just did the diet itself- forge ahead! You are in the home stretch. The full protein breakfast is on Thursday morning. Then you are supposed to maintain for 5 weeks, otherwise the diet can be unhealthy as well. So there you have it. The last few days of the 30 day stint! How do you feel? I'd like to hear from the people that took the meds. I know who you are. Tell me how it is to come off and I'll write it for our friends on the blog!
In the meantime- I'm finally that the scale finally moved downward again. ...Leave it to me to come through in the last seconds of the game lol! See you next blog. ;-)

July 17, 2011 Diet Blog

No loss. Having constipation trouble though so that could be it. Three more days after today and then I'm supposed to maintain for 5 weeks. I've been thinking about it. I think I will still diet, but I will do it my own way. The eating every two hours thing is good- it maintains a steady burn of calories. I remember that from karate. The fruit for breakfast ONLY- By ITSELF, is good to because it burns fat. The setting a goal- in this case August 25, which is the 5 weeks mark, and the healthy eating with no flour or sugar is good too. I'm not sure why I am not losing. This diet is seriously restricted in foods, I wonder if that's it. Maybe as I branch out into other fruits and other vegetables the weight will begin to move again. Maybe my body got used to these foods quickly? I would have to do this diet again to see. It's the only way to know. I will do my 'thing' for the 5 weeks and then see where I land. I may try this again just as an experiment. Theoretically, it should have worked better than it did. Still, I did lose a decent amount. Had I only got on the scale once this month I would've been jumping for joy. I think the way around that is to get on the scale each day as ordered but to fluff it off until the once a month date rolls around. In this case, the 25 of each month. It might be the way to go. After the last three days of this diet I am going back to the once a month weigh in. These daily weigh- In's are depressing. Even if I lost a half a pound or whatever, I'm constantly reminded of how large the number is, hence that I'm a tub, you know? I don't need to feel that every day. Once a month is quite enough. Three more days- then the all protein breakfast.
My sister in law had bacon and eggs as her all protein breakfast. I'm not a bacon fan. I like the smell, as long as its not overwhelming, but I gag at the thought of the taste. Ugh! No thanks! I think I'll go with steak and eggs. My husband would like that meal too- although he IS a bacon fan. I don't cook it for him though. He needs to take better care of himself too- I refuse to help him to NOT do that. So, forging ahead..."Whale-Ho..." sigh... See you next blog...;-)

July, 15, 2011 Diet Blog

No loss. It's depressing to say the least. It really feels like I should be dropping weight like crazy. It doesn't make sense. Sunday is the 26th day. If you are taking the medicine, you stop it on the 26th day. You continue on the diet without the medicine for 3 more days. On the 30th day, you come off the diet and have a full protein breakfast.
If you are not using the medicine, just take it to the 30th day and begin that day with an all protein breakfast. Then resume a careful diet and maintain the weight you are at right now for five weeks. At that time, it begins again. It's strict, regimented and VERY hard but I did it. I'm in the home stretch. The only part that I disagree with is the weighing in every day. Once a month would've shown a great drop on the scale- not to mention that this blog would've been MUCH more interesting... but we won't go there....
I had some pretty odd dreams last night. I was someone that I would not normally be in them. I'm glad I woke up. See you next blog. ;-)

July 14, 2011 Diet Blog

Another half a pound down- thank heaven! I was beginning to wonder. This diet is SO strict, that I think it may be TOO strict, so its not working for me at the fast rate that it works for others.
Waves of Nausea, headache, muscle ache and fatigue have plagued me for the last two days. I don't think its the diet. I think its the emotional roller coaster I've been on at home. Things are peaceful and tranquil today and the nausea subsided. It's turmoil each day trying to get the jump on whatever mood my husband comes home in and work my way around it. Yesterday he seemed better and we headed off to the town pool.
For the 6th consecutive day in a row- the pool was closing as we arrived due to a child pooping in the big pool. Now, I could understand the kiddie pool, but this really is getting ridiculous. As disappointing as that was I did not see it as the end of the world. My husband flipped out at the closing, then at the owner, and then, just for good measure, he tortured me over it. So much for the good mood. When we got home he wanted to watch a movie. I was all for it as I knew he would stop being so mean and get involved with it. He chose X-Men. NOT my movie of choice- but whatever it took, you know?
And so I continue to forge ahead. I hope I feel physically better tomorrow. See you next blog! ;-0

July 13, 2011 Diet Blog

No weight Loss as of today- in true fact it's teetering towards a quarter pound gain which sux. I'm trying to remember to only count the once a month number. It used to make me happy to see such a large drop all at once, yet not have to fury through the struggles ounce by ounce. I highly recommend NOT weighing in each day. Go by your feelings. I highly recommend this diet if you can handle this kind of strict regimen, but I prefer to have a bite here and there and still lose weight. Like before I am goal Oriented. The diet ends the day before the book signing tour aboard Royal Caribbean as it is a 30 day long process. Last year I was able to watch, I will this year too. I weighed less last year though, so I'm kind of 'bummed' about the whole thing. I know...I know...do not let my body or the perception of my body stand in the way of me having a good time...I won't, but I just wish I was able to be thin naturally you know? Ahhh...such is life.... See you next blog. ;-)

July, 12, 2011 Diet Blog

So- down another half a pound. Its chugging along but at least its in the right direction. I've stuck consistently to the two fruits a day- cutting one in half for breakfast and 3pm snack, 100 g of lean beef, chicken, turkey or whitefish plus two cups of vegetables or green salad. Mostly I stick to lettuce, cucumbers and cooked onions with the meat as dressing. Its not bad. The list has very few to choose from. I will list them for anyone who wants to try this diet, but be forewarned- its hard, strict and exhausting. Portion control is better for me. It doesn't seem like the weight is falling off here let me tell you- although with this amount of calories and this much discipline, it should be. I don't claim to understand. My sister in law seems to think that I'm just going to wake up one morning ten pounds lighter out of the blue. Sadly, I',m a little more reality stricken than that as you know. I'm just grateful that the scale is going the right way at last...though, I do fantasy dream of waking up lighter- never worrying about what food I eat and having a great body...lol. But...that's me, the dreamer...the reality stricken dreamer...which is why I write.
The Royal Caribbean book tour is a go. I cannot wait! Its so exciting! I hope that everything goes as smoothly as the last time and that I sell out my books! If you are inclined towards prayer, please pray for me. See you next blog!

July 11, 2011 Diet Blog

Well, I fought that same two pounds for over a week. It was upsetting to say the least. Still, I remained steadfast even though party after party, BBQ after BBQ, snack after snack and my husbands jumping ship occurred all around me. I'm happy to report that the scale went down one half pound below the 2 pound issue yesterday and another half pound today. Whew!
I will mention that weighing in every day has this consequence for me...the number seems to set my mood no matter how hard I try not to let it.
The funny part is- at the 30 day mark, which is one day before the book signing cruise it would say 13 pounds down, and I would be enraptured with happiness. Meanwhile, instead of the number on the scale dictating how I feel, I would actually be feeling the effects of dieting; feeling better about myself and that type of thing. Still, a promise is a promise. I said I'd give it 30 days and so I will. The goal is set, the plan in rotation. At least the scale is moving in the right direction again. I'm very thankful for that.
I will add a factoid from my sister in law- again, not something I will do but it may work for you. (Check out First Magazine July and August) She says that cayan pepper taken as directed in the magazine acts as a fat burner. She actually drinks it in water but there are supplements according to her magazine. Read about it first, like I said its not for me. I believe that I need something I can stick to for a lifetime. For me- its a lifetime battle.... see you next blog! ;-)

July 7 2011 Diet Blog

I was so upset and angry yesterday. I had to work very hard to let that go and live in the moment. Dieting can be so stress fully, painful- at least for me. Then I got word that Angel Preston- the pony I helped get a prosthetic leg and operation for with my book sales fell out of the back of the SEMI in route to the operation because they forgot to close the doors. How wrong is that? I sobbed. Devastation fills the heart of her owner Denette. The loss is truly great for her- like mine with my daughter. Angel was her child. It's awful.
The Royal Caribbean Book Tour is confirmed and set in motion. They contacted me for what the Compass (Daily paper of activities) would contain. It's a go. I leave on the 20th of July and am gone for nearly two weeks. I pray that I sell every book and take orders for more!
I lost the same two pounds my body is fighting with this week. Its very frustrating. I don't trust it but am trying not to let the number dictate my day. THIS is exactly why I do not weigh in every day. You do realize that if I weighed in at the beginning of the month it would say 13 pounds solid so far right? Isn't that nicer than yo yo up two...yo yo down two... and so on?
Anyway, I'm trying to focus on the tour because its the one thing in my life that's going terrific. See you next blog. ;-)

July 6 2011 Diet Blog

Okay- so this diet sux...yesterday I was down today I am up 2 pounds. It doesn't make sense. You can't eat this little and NOT lose weight. I feel like I'm dieting my life away...and getting no where. I get it off, I didn't keep it off, I go back up, I go higher. I go down- yo yo status... ARG!
I took my niece out to get her nails done with me in the salon and then shopping for school supplies, which made her very happy. Then I made her pick out one small item for everyone in her family so that the experience could be shared. It seems to me that she's a bit selfish and self centered. At ten that's got to be curbed-gently, but curbed none the less. When we got home, before showing her things I had her hand out the gifts first. I wanted her to get the "giving" feeling. It's such a nice feeling. She shocked the hell out of her mother who nearly cried that she'd thought of everyone like that. Afterwards, she showed off her things to a non-jealous brother and attentive mother and father-figure. I secretly gave myself a mental pat on the back. (Job well done, I told myself.)
While shopping I found a few little princess goodies for my Tennessee baby girl. I send her one princess card a week since the Memphis book Tour. Her grandmother says it makes her day and she loves to check the mail everyday for her special card. Once in awhile I do a package. She'll definitely like this one. Ribbons and glitter paper...very sheik.
So, my good deeds done I came home thinking who I was. My reward? Without cheating- UP 2 pounds on the scale...not right.
I'm very upset about the verdict regarding Caylee Marie Anthony. That child's mother didn't report her missing for 30 days- instead went out partying etc. She may not be guilty of murder- although THAT is optional, but she is sure as hell guilty of neglect. Now she alleges that her father sexually abused her and he did it. Meanwhile, he's sitting in the court room...if that's true, why was she still living there with the little girl, and WHY are there pictures of her father holding the little girl, and WHY was he allowed alone time with her? Great defense- got her off on murder...hmmm the perfect crime?
Anyway- so this day is filled with self loathing, frustration and cosmic confusion. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. That number completely throws me. That's why I do the weigh in once a month...or when the moment strikes me- not everyday. See you next blog. ;-)

July 5, 2011 Diet Blog

So, the outcome to the nail biting drama that is my life is that my husband's friend called and asked him to go camping and diving in PA for the weekend. I didn't even blink before completely encouraging him to go...and may I just add, "whew!" He went. He returned Sunday Night and spent Monday, the 4th of July with us. It was ridiculous. He did come back in a better frame of mind and we haven't spoken of the incident since it happened. I was lonely, but grateful for the loneliness over the frustration. The lesser of the two evils where my emotions are concerned. And so another hurdle...tripped over...
On a happier note, I did lose 2 pounds this weekend. Considering that there have been parties going on all around me since early Friday at work, clear through to today I consider that a MAJOR victory! I should receive the medal for valor! (Not to mention the purple heat...wounded in battle...sigh...) Anyway- forging ahead to the thirty day mark. It's a short term goal. I do better with a goal. After that its maintain for 5 weeks, not 6 as I originally thought, then breaking the diet with a full protein breakfast and moving forward from there. As always, I will keep you informed. I hope you are all doing well too. Keep me informed! ;-)

July, 3, 2011 Diet Blog

For 3 solid days I've been stuck in the same spot. There's NO WAY I shouldn't be losing weight eating these very few calories. Its weird and upsetting. This is the exact reason this didn't work for me when I tried it last time. If I'm stuck ALREADY because of water weight or whatever, AND I have to weigh in every day, it's an equation for defeat-giving up- throwing in the towel. I'm SO glad I told you guys already on a successful path not to follow it until we tested it. I'm feeling like NO. It's way too strict and not very rewarding after the first week. Actually, it sux since the first week to be perfectly honest.
I've not cheated other than to switch meal times around due to my hectic schedule. THAT shouldn't effect me in the long run. If it does, this Diet won't work for anyone. My sister-in-law who had great success on it doesn't work. Her kids were in school all day and she could keep herself to a time clock. It's a little harder for those of us that work more than one job, go to school and are on the run most of the time. I'm going to ride out the 30 days, but I'm disappointed, discouraged and kind of upset that I've wasted this much time. Anyway- its a real diet- stricter than most- definitely stricter than what I used successfully. Maybe mine took longer in the beginning, but ... well, its like that race between the tortoise and the hare right? The tortoise won. Steady and strong beat swift and arrogant. (sigh)
Anyway- forging ahead. My husband is away on a dive. I was actually encouraging him to go. For some reason I need peace and quiet today. My head feels too full of stuff. I need to unload.
On Friday we got let out early as a nice surprise. I got into my car and headed home. About half way there the phone rings and its my husband. I pull over the car and take the call as it is an unusual time of day for him to call, not to mention on my cell-because we cannot use them at work obviously.
He doesn't even say hello. He just demands to know why I wasn't at work. I said that the boss let us out early. He challenges me loudly that he called the front desk and the girl said that I hadn't been in all day. He accused me- not with words but with the tone and volume of his voice, although I have NO idea what he was accusing me of exactly.
Honestly, I'm the most boring person on the planet that way. I am always where I'm supposed to be when I'm supposed to be there. If he had me followed the detective would laugh in his face-I'm so good! I'm floored by this and find myself defending myself, promising I was at work, offering to have the girl call him or my boss if it was necessary...you get the idea. I hung up with him-literally stunned and called the office.
My co-worker says that she did NOT say I was out all day, she-in fact- said that I was gone for the day. The girl next to her confirmed having heard her say that. Of course she did- WHY on earth would she say something else? I apologised- explained myself and hung up. I was home ten minutes later. He says that's what she told him, but that he believes me.
Then, the town pool which was next on the agenda, had to be closed because a child had a bowel movement in it. He went off the richter (pardon spelling if its wrong) scale. I just coward until the eruption was over. When his friend invited him to go diving I was never more happy. I've gotta tell you- I love him- but he can really stress me to the max. It made me have to fight off the urge to eat badly. I was beyond the breaking point by this point. I maintained composure until he was gone. Afterwards I just sat for a long time in silence. Did that really happen? OMG...
Anyway- so the NON loss of weight isn't helping the fight with myself. Tears feel like they want to explode from my eye balls, but are blocked...He's gone until Sunday night I think. I hung out with my sister-in-law and the kids after I pulled myself together about two hours after he left. I told her. She understood. There are big 'anger' issues inside of all of them because of her mom, she says. I see where that could be. It doesn't make it hurt any less though.
Keep going. I'm going to also. Thank heaven that I know I'm not alone...because I feel SO alone... ;-) See you next blog.