It's been a whirlwind since the cover of my book came out. People- book signings- business talks- website-family....it's endless! It's wonderful though. I stuck to the diet except for once when I ate pretzels out of sheer starvation. I did karate and I have a statistics test on Tuesday night which I literally spent from dawn to dusk studying this weekend. I'm exhausted. Forgive me for the length of time between blogs these days but I'm going to get busier before I'm not busy if you know what I mean. ...And may I just add "Whew!" to that thought.
This might have to be every few days instead of every day- but I'll try to get on as often as I'm able.
I learned a lot about loving myself this week. Amid the chaos THAT is the message that stood out. I feel blessed and heard by the Lord and nestled among my angels... I'll keep you posted on the progress of course. See you next blog! ;-)
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
February 16-17, 2010 Diet Blog
Tuesday was spent recuperating from the four day weekend at lightning speed. It was so busy at work that I thought I was going to have to have the phone surgically attached to my ear and the file cabinet surgically attached to my butt. Whew! I scrambled home and then went to school. It had snowed all day so it was wet and slushy then turning to ice. I got through the class with a vague understanding of what he was teaching so I felt pretty good and spoke to a Santa's Elf recipient on the phone for about 30 minutes. It's getting funny. The recipient is trying to use psychology I think. They claim now- not to care if they find out who I am or not. Too funny.
Blairstown BFF had a job interview today. I sure hope that she gets it. It's only a temp for now but possibility of permanent if she works out they said. Say a prayer for her if you think of it.
Today was busy too. I brought the book cover in that my best BFF had framed for me so that everyone could see. The support was overwhelming. I just hope that they all buy copies of the book. It does seem like everyone wants it free. Unfortunately that's not a thing I'll be able to do. They give me a few but that's it! I need to sell them. (sigh)
The girl that I thought hated me at work has many connections and hooked me up with a book signing today. I was astonished. I'm beyond pleased! I hardly know what to say...I said yes obviously...I'm NOT dumb!
I wore the red satin blouse that I got for Valentine's Day and the black slacks that used to be too small. Everyone said how great I looked. I wish it would come off faster. Sadly- we have to start at one pound and go from there. "Love yourself" was the topic of conversation after that. My supervisor overheard me call myself "just a receptionist." She said "we put our best and brightest up here at the front desk." I nearly fell out of my chair. She said it sternly- but I think she meant it nicely...odd right? After she left I couldn't help but take the opportunity to wonder out loud to my co-worker "I wish they paid us as the best and the brightest...." she agreed with a hearty laugh.
We were entertained by an amateur magician today. He borrowed my pen, then he went to hand it back to me and it disappeared. I know the shock value on my face was great. He grinned and showed it to me in his other hand. My coworker missed it and so she made him do it again. I was thankful because I wanted to see it too. I watched like a hawk. I have no idea how he got it from one hand to the other. It was a nice break in the crazy normal day at court.
15 dolphins got stuck in the Hackensack River right by the courthouse today. It was very upsetting. How on earth did those poor things get so detoured. News was there, media...I'm sure that they were so frightened. I hope they are okay.
Home was warm and welcoming. I did some laundry, had some dinner, did a bit of homework, face booked and wrote this blog. Now...a hot shower is finally in order to end my day just right.
I'll sign off here! Have an excellent night! See you next blog! ;-)
Blairstown BFF had a job interview today. I sure hope that she gets it. It's only a temp for now but possibility of permanent if she works out they said. Say a prayer for her if you think of it.
Today was busy too. I brought the book cover in that my best BFF had framed for me so that everyone could see. The support was overwhelming. I just hope that they all buy copies of the book. It does seem like everyone wants it free. Unfortunately that's not a thing I'll be able to do. They give me a few but that's it! I need to sell them. (sigh)
The girl that I thought hated me at work has many connections and hooked me up with a book signing today. I was astonished. I'm beyond pleased! I hardly know what to say...I said yes obviously...I'm NOT dumb!
I wore the red satin blouse that I got for Valentine's Day and the black slacks that used to be too small. Everyone said how great I looked. I wish it would come off faster. Sadly- we have to start at one pound and go from there. "Love yourself" was the topic of conversation after that. My supervisor overheard me call myself "just a receptionist." She said "we put our best and brightest up here at the front desk." I nearly fell out of my chair. She said it sternly- but I think she meant it nicely...odd right? After she left I couldn't help but take the opportunity to wonder out loud to my co-worker "I wish they paid us as the best and the brightest...." she agreed with a hearty laugh.
We were entertained by an amateur magician today. He borrowed my pen, then he went to hand it back to me and it disappeared. I know the shock value on my face was great. He grinned and showed it to me in his other hand. My coworker missed it and so she made him do it again. I was thankful because I wanted to see it too. I watched like a hawk. I have no idea how he got it from one hand to the other. It was a nice break in the crazy normal day at court.
15 dolphins got stuck in the Hackensack River right by the courthouse today. It was very upsetting. How on earth did those poor things get so detoured. News was there, media...I'm sure that they were so frightened. I hope they are okay.
Home was warm and welcoming. I did some laundry, had some dinner, did a bit of homework, face booked and wrote this blog. Now...a hot shower is finally in order to end my day just right.
I'll sign off here! Have an excellent night! See you next blog! ;-)
Monday, February 15, 2010
February 15, 2010 Diet Blog
Had bad stomach pains all day. I'm pretty sure that it is from the cheat day. I guess that's as good a deterrent as any. I am back on the diet- fighting to go strict. It really is a fight not to be bad...funny right. It shouldn't be considering how awful being bad actually made me feel.
My best BFF printed a color picture of the cover to my book, framed it and brought it over late last night as a Valentine's gift to me. I cried. I've cried a lot since the cover came out. It's overwhelming. I'm so happy. It's like the dream is finally within reach.
Blairstown BFF popped by. She had forgotten her camera the other night when I had the dinner. No one took any pictures but we all had cameras. I think that's kind of funny in a way.
The four day weekend is over sadly. Tomorrow I resume my crazy schedule. It's supposed to snow again, which I'm not happy about. I hate driving in it. I have both work and school tomorrow. My knee hurts though so it's definitely going to do something.
My son called me and we spoke for about an hour. For the first time, I think that he misses me. I haven't felt that before. I loved talking to him and sharing with him... I miss him so much. That "empty nest syndrome" thing is NOT a joke. I suffered terribly.
There's not much more to add than that. I'm going to go curl up in bed and rest. The cheat day was fun but I still feel like I'm suffering the after effects of it. The next one will be in April. Easter is on the 2nd, my son's birthday will be celebrated the week before or after the 9th because his wife and he are going on vacation.
I will- as always- keep you posted. Have a great night (or day depending upon when you read this). See you next blog. ;-)
My best BFF printed a color picture of the cover to my book, framed it and brought it over late last night as a Valentine's gift to me. I cried. I've cried a lot since the cover came out. It's overwhelming. I'm so happy. It's like the dream is finally within reach.
Blairstown BFF popped by. She had forgotten her camera the other night when I had the dinner. No one took any pictures but we all had cameras. I think that's kind of funny in a way.
The four day weekend is over sadly. Tomorrow I resume my crazy schedule. It's supposed to snow again, which I'm not happy about. I hate driving in it. I have both work and school tomorrow. My knee hurts though so it's definitely going to do something.
My son called me and we spoke for about an hour. For the first time, I think that he misses me. I haven't felt that before. I loved talking to him and sharing with him... I miss him so much. That "empty nest syndrome" thing is NOT a joke. I suffered terribly.
There's not much more to add than that. I'm going to go curl up in bed and rest. The cheat day was fun but I still feel like I'm suffering the after effects of it. The next one will be in April. Easter is on the 2nd, my son's birthday will be celebrated the week before or after the 9th because his wife and he are going on vacation.
I will- as always- keep you posted. Have a great night (or day depending upon when you read this). See you next blog. ;-)
Sunday, February 14, 2010
February 9-14 Diet Blog
I'm sorry it's been so long since I've blogged. My calendar got very full between blizzards, housework, needs of friends and dates to social events.
The most exciting thing that happened was seeing the cover of my book! There were three choices. I chose- with the help of my family and BFF- the one that was best. It was unanimous as funny as that sounds. It was meant to be I guess.
My son, his wife, my husband and his family, and Blairstown BFF came to my house for a little dinner party on the 13th for Valentine's Day. It was my cheat day. I did cheat badly...I'm suffering for it today. I feel just awful. I got up at 5:30 am to be sick, then went back to bed and woke up at 11am. I feel better but not great. Haven't eaten anything.
My little niece and nephew want us to come over today. My sister-in-law has a date. It's the first official date since her husband passed. She's scared but okay. It's not that she hasn't been with guy friends since but she wants a relationship she thinks and she has to get her feet wet in that area again. She spent a lot of time not feeling....it's got to be so hard. I am praying for her.
One thing that happened left me feeling pretty amazing in these past few days. My best BFF invited me to a make up party and although I don't really wear it I went. I was honest with the representative about that fact. I was the oldest one there by ten years sadly. I know because it was part of the questions.
The woman loved me though and used my face to demonstrate the creams and make up. Non-allergenic thankfully...it was the first thing I asked because I'm super sensitive to that stuff. Anyway, she and the women- that I do not know- kept saying that I had such beautiful skin, such pretty eyes- that I so do not look 50...it was so cool to be me.... I purchased hand cream. My best BFF booked a party at her house. I think that I will order the make up then. I did look pretty when she was done. Not caked up- which is a look I hate on women.
That's about it for the highlights of these last few days. My next cheat date will be on or around Easter, which is right around my son's and my daughter in law's birthdays. They mentioned going away for those dates, which I think is wonderful. He will get together with me before or after their trip. So more than likely- my cheat day will fall at that time.
My son told me that he was proud of me yesterday. I'm still reeling from that sentence. Those words mean so much to me....
I'll sign off on that note. Have a great day. Happy Valentine's Day. See you next blog. ;-)
The most exciting thing that happened was seeing the cover of my book! There were three choices. I chose- with the help of my family and BFF- the one that was best. It was unanimous as funny as that sounds. It was meant to be I guess.
My son, his wife, my husband and his family, and Blairstown BFF came to my house for a little dinner party on the 13th for Valentine's Day. It was my cheat day. I did cheat badly...I'm suffering for it today. I feel just awful. I got up at 5:30 am to be sick, then went back to bed and woke up at 11am. I feel better but not great. Haven't eaten anything.
My little niece and nephew want us to come over today. My sister-in-law has a date. It's the first official date since her husband passed. She's scared but okay. It's not that she hasn't been with guy friends since but she wants a relationship she thinks and she has to get her feet wet in that area again. She spent a lot of time not feeling....it's got to be so hard. I am praying for her.
One thing that happened left me feeling pretty amazing in these past few days. My best BFF invited me to a make up party and although I don't really wear it I went. I was honest with the representative about that fact. I was the oldest one there by ten years sadly. I know because it was part of the questions.
The woman loved me though and used my face to demonstrate the creams and make up. Non-allergenic thankfully...it was the first thing I asked because I'm super sensitive to that stuff. Anyway, she and the women- that I do not know- kept saying that I had such beautiful skin, such pretty eyes- that I so do not look 50...it was so cool to be me.... I purchased hand cream. My best BFF booked a party at her house. I think that I will order the make up then. I did look pretty when she was done. Not caked up- which is a look I hate on women.
That's about it for the highlights of these last few days. My next cheat date will be on or around Easter, which is right around my son's and my daughter in law's birthdays. They mentioned going away for those dates, which I think is wonderful. He will get together with me before or after their trip. So more than likely- my cheat day will fall at that time.
My son told me that he was proud of me yesterday. I'm still reeling from that sentence. Those words mean so much to me....
I'll sign off on that note. Have a great day. Happy Valentine's Day. See you next blog. ;-)
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
February 8-9, 2010 Diet Blog
I crawled through work on Monday. I was exhausted from the football party I guess but I got totally back on track with my diet. My stomach burned all day and when I got home I literally fell into bed. I was never so happy to see my pillow.
Tuesday was fine too. The morning was very rough but the afternoon got better. Everyone is completely on edge it seems. I wonder if its the pending snowstorm. We are supposed to get one heck of a blizzard. To be honest- that kind of fits with my life lately. My best BFF text me to tell me that she cannot get over how beautiful I looked at the football party. That made me feel good. The lawyer on staff was busy but had to handle a man that came in because as a receptionist my knowledge is limited about the court cases. I helped him to a point but I had to go get her. She get very nasty about it- as if I have ANY say what so ever about who comes into the court. She ended up sitting him in a private booth- not once but twice before he left. What's THAT tell you? Obviously I couldn't have helped him. Her paralegal tells me at lunch that the lawyer apologised to HER for being nasty. I very clearly let her know that I was the one who the lawyer should've apologised to. She was out of line. I hope that she went right back to her with the story.
Then I got a call where the client on the other end was extremely upset. She was complaining about a girl that had retired three years ago though. (Clearly the person that she was upset with gave the retirees name because they knew that they'd be in trouble.) That was the extent of my knowledge about the incident. I gave the call to my supervisor to handle. After the call she came out and reprimanded ME about the call. In what I felt was an accusatory manner she said to me that she'd "better not hear of anyone using another person's name." Hello jerk- I didn't even handle the call. The receptionist next to me got the original call and we are well aware of who she passed it to. That person- the guilty one is the supervisors good friend. She's also a drunk and short tempered and nasty a lot. I didn't tell but we both knew who the culprit was. I was infuriated though. How DARE she think that I would do that?! It's crap.
The morning went on with those as the highlights. By lunch time I was ready to jump ship- tell them ALL off and just forget about it...sadly in this bad economy I cannot afford to do that...I was forced to swallow it but it ate my insides up. My stomach burned with the fury of a brush fire in dry timberland. Then an angel rescued me.
One of the younger employees that did not know the situation sat down next to me at lunch. He was excited to tell me that he had overheard the boss saying some pretty wonderful things about me. Afterwards I just felt so much better. I needed that. I think the angels were watching, saw and led him to me. I get that everyone is stressed but why is it okay-or for them to think it's okay- to take it out on the front desk? AARGH!!!
Anyway- the rest of the day went better with that knowledge tucked away in my brain. School went better. I'm still a bit lost but better off than I was. I'm going to reread and go over everything this weekend. It's a four day weekend that I know of...maybe more if the storm really hits.
I'll sign off here. See you next blog! ;-)
Tuesday was fine too. The morning was very rough but the afternoon got better. Everyone is completely on edge it seems. I wonder if its the pending snowstorm. We are supposed to get one heck of a blizzard. To be honest- that kind of fits with my life lately. My best BFF text me to tell me that she cannot get over how beautiful I looked at the football party. That made me feel good. The lawyer on staff was busy but had to handle a man that came in because as a receptionist my knowledge is limited about the court cases. I helped him to a point but I had to go get her. She get very nasty about it- as if I have ANY say what so ever about who comes into the court. She ended up sitting him in a private booth- not once but twice before he left. What's THAT tell you? Obviously I couldn't have helped him. Her paralegal tells me at lunch that the lawyer apologised to HER for being nasty. I very clearly let her know that I was the one who the lawyer should've apologised to. She was out of line. I hope that she went right back to her with the story.
Then I got a call where the client on the other end was extremely upset. She was complaining about a girl that had retired three years ago though. (Clearly the person that she was upset with gave the retirees name because they knew that they'd be in trouble.) That was the extent of my knowledge about the incident. I gave the call to my supervisor to handle. After the call she came out and reprimanded ME about the call. In what I felt was an accusatory manner she said to me that she'd "better not hear of anyone using another person's name." Hello jerk- I didn't even handle the call. The receptionist next to me got the original call and we are well aware of who she passed it to. That person- the guilty one is the supervisors good friend. She's also a drunk and short tempered and nasty a lot. I didn't tell but we both knew who the culprit was. I was infuriated though. How DARE she think that I would do that?! It's crap.
The morning went on with those as the highlights. By lunch time I was ready to jump ship- tell them ALL off and just forget about it...sadly in this bad economy I cannot afford to do that...I was forced to swallow it but it ate my insides up. My stomach burned with the fury of a brush fire in dry timberland. Then an angel rescued me.
One of the younger employees that did not know the situation sat down next to me at lunch. He was excited to tell me that he had overheard the boss saying some pretty wonderful things about me. Afterwards I just felt so much better. I needed that. I think the angels were watching, saw and led him to me. I get that everyone is stressed but why is it okay-or for them to think it's okay- to take it out on the front desk? AARGH!!!
Anyway- the rest of the day went better with that knowledge tucked away in my brain. School went better. I'm still a bit lost but better off than I was. I'm going to reread and go over everything this weekend. It's a four day weekend that I know of...maybe more if the storm really hits.
I'll sign off here. See you next blog! ;-)
Sunday, February 7, 2010
February 7, 2010 Diet Blog
Superbowl Sunday. Party tonight at my best BFF's house. She hasn't seen me in two weeks. I was shocked by her response. She couldn't get over how thin my face looked. Back to my old self- she said among other things. It was so great.
I started the day out with statistics. I read the last two chapters and hopefully taught myself the math properly. I did that until noon. I started long about 8am. It was so hard though. I'll let you know but as of right now, the homework is completely done to the absolute best of my limited ability.
I shopped for the party. I promised my BFF that I would pick up hors devours for the event. I picked up a tray of different fruits, one of cheese and crackers and one of hot wings, plus two bottles of wine. She was thrilled when I arrived with it. I was glad.I miss her through the week. We aren't able to get together as much as we used to.
She introduced me to the crowd as her best friend tonight. I felt very good about that. I knew we were that, and I think of her that way...but I was so glad to know that she thought of me that way too.
The night was spent with the men in the living room watching the game and us women in the kitchen and dining room cooking, drinking wine and tossing the bull. It was awesome. I literally talked to everyone including the men as they ventured into female territory to touch base with their significant others or to check on the children who were all in the garage turned rec room just off of the kitchen, supposedly watching the game...(yeah right...)
It was a fun evening. It's 10:10pm and I'm home- heading for the cozy warmth of my flannel pj's and my pillow and blanket. Hope your weekend was as great as mine. I love being busy. It makes me not miss being a mom so very much.... Next weekend- my baby comes home. He and his wife are coming for dinner. I cannot wait. See you next blog. ;-)
I started the day out with statistics. I read the last two chapters and hopefully taught myself the math properly. I did that until noon. I started long about 8am. It was so hard though. I'll let you know but as of right now, the homework is completely done to the absolute best of my limited ability.
I shopped for the party. I promised my BFF that I would pick up hors devours for the event. I picked up a tray of different fruits, one of cheese and crackers and one of hot wings, plus two bottles of wine. She was thrilled when I arrived with it. I was glad.I miss her through the week. We aren't able to get together as much as we used to.
She introduced me to the crowd as her best friend tonight. I felt very good about that. I knew we were that, and I think of her that way...but I was so glad to know that she thought of me that way too.
The night was spent with the men in the living room watching the game and us women in the kitchen and dining room cooking, drinking wine and tossing the bull. It was awesome. I literally talked to everyone including the men as they ventured into female territory to touch base with their significant others or to check on the children who were all in the garage turned rec room just off of the kitchen, supposedly watching the game...(yeah right...)
It was a fun evening. It's 10:10pm and I'm home- heading for the cozy warmth of my flannel pj's and my pillow and blanket. Hope your weekend was as great as mine. I love being busy. It makes me not miss being a mom so very much.... Next weekend- my baby comes home. He and his wife are coming for dinner. I cannot wait. See you next blog. ;-)
February 5-6, 2010 Diet Blog
Stood strong both days on my diet. The grand total of the weigh in this month is 6 pounds bringing the total to 25. Not a bad number if you like numbers. I prefer other methods of measuring my weight loss. Do you remember the pants that I purchased too small for me? I'm wearing them now and I'm in a seated position. They are tight-ish but no problem. I'm feeling very good about that!
I thought Friday would never end. I raced home because I promised my husband that I would. He taped "Lost" because of our busy schedules and Friday we were going to watch it at long last. It was 3 hours worth of television. That's a lot for me. I fall asleep when its on usually. I forced myself to stay awake but when it was over I was done for the night and made a hasty retreat into my bed.
Saturday I was up at the crack of dawn and had done numerous tasks before 7am when I allowed myself to enjoy my first cup of coffee. I printed up several hard copies of the book as promised to friends and got them ready to give or mail depending, I got notified by the publisher that they received the back cover teaser-blurb and are very happy with it, I got ALL of my Valentine's Day Gifts and cards ready for mailing- this may sound simple unless you have been the recipient of one...I put footprints/serenity prayers in some, confetti in some, lottery tickets in some, combinations and gifts in others...you get the idea. I had two cups of coffee. Karate was at 9:30. I tried to hide in the back but there was no way they were letting me off so easily. He put me right up front and in the middle.... I nearly died of embarrassment. I'm very shy. He knows that...he enjoyed himself emensely... Afterwards, I went out on the mat with a new student which was very cool for me. Joshu Barbara worked with both of us. It allowed me to see that I still know a thing or two. I got teased about talking on the mat and felt my face burn red- which he loved... sooo I guess I'm REALLY back. (Sheesh...)
The rest of the day was spent doing statistics homework. I literally had to teach it to myself because the professor doesn't speak English. It was so hard. Math is NOT my forte. I'm of a creative mind set- math of any kind boggles my brain. I started at the beginning-read every chapter and did every assignment in the book until I thought I was going to barf numbers if I didn't stop. Dinner, a hot shower and the television on and I was a goner by 8;30pm.
Sunday is just as busy but I will tell you then. I'll sign off here! Enjoy the football bowl tomorrow! ;-)
I thought Friday would never end. I raced home because I promised my husband that I would. He taped "Lost" because of our busy schedules and Friday we were going to watch it at long last. It was 3 hours worth of television. That's a lot for me. I fall asleep when its on usually. I forced myself to stay awake but when it was over I was done for the night and made a hasty retreat into my bed.
Saturday I was up at the crack of dawn and had done numerous tasks before 7am when I allowed myself to enjoy my first cup of coffee. I printed up several hard copies of the book as promised to friends and got them ready to give or mail depending, I got notified by the publisher that they received the back cover teaser-blurb and are very happy with it, I got ALL of my Valentine's Day Gifts and cards ready for mailing- this may sound simple unless you have been the recipient of one...I put footprints/serenity prayers in some, confetti in some, lottery tickets in some, combinations and gifts in others...you get the idea. I had two cups of coffee. Karate was at 9:30. I tried to hide in the back but there was no way they were letting me off so easily. He put me right up front and in the middle.... I nearly died of embarrassment. I'm very shy. He knows that...he enjoyed himself emensely... Afterwards, I went out on the mat with a new student which was very cool for me. Joshu Barbara worked with both of us. It allowed me to see that I still know a thing or two. I got teased about talking on the mat and felt my face burn red- which he loved... sooo I guess I'm REALLY back. (Sheesh...)
The rest of the day was spent doing statistics homework. I literally had to teach it to myself because the professor doesn't speak English. It was so hard. Math is NOT my forte. I'm of a creative mind set- math of any kind boggles my brain. I started at the beginning-read every chapter and did every assignment in the book until I thought I was going to barf numbers if I didn't stop. Dinner, a hot shower and the television on and I was a goner by 8;30pm.
Sunday is just as busy but I will tell you then. I'll sign off here! Enjoy the football bowl tomorrow! ;-)
Thursday, February 4, 2010
February 3 and 4, 2010 Diet Blog
Forgive me for not blogging yesterday but I have an awesome excuse. I got contacted by the publisher and they needed the blurb- teaser written for the back cover of my book. I'm next on the editing list too. I'm so excited I could die of happiness! It's been such a dream of mine...this is it! Here we go! It's really happening at long, long last!
It was fairly slow client wise but the phones kept us going yesterday. Today was horrendous! We were severely busy. It got overwhelming. In the midst of that one of my judges friends and a boss himself decided to tease me. My coworker said that my face was bright red. I believe her because I felt it.
My searcher BFF came in today. She has some personal issues going on and really needed a friend. I was the best one I could be in between phone calls but no where near the friend that I wanted to be to her. I need to visit with her outside of the office. We'll just have to figure something out.
One of my old high school pals has taken to teasing me mercilessly too. I think I am a little deserving because I played back but sheesh! He's got me beat. I have to send up a white flag pretty soon or just get used to my face being red all of the time. I have to admit- it is pretty fun and funny, but I just want to be careful. Losing a friend over playfulness is not something I care to have happen. Plus, he was one of the Santa's Elf gift recipients. I had no idea it would drive him this insane. He wants to thank the person. I understand. I've been there too but you just have to let it go sometimes and let the chips fall where they may.
I stuck to the diet like glue. Tomorrow is the monthly weigh in. I'm trying not to think about it because it'll get me crazy. I have school tonight so that will keep my mind occupied! Statistics- UG!
So that's the whole thing in short hand for the last two days. I'll sign off here reminding you that you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. See you next blog! ;-)
It was fairly slow client wise but the phones kept us going yesterday. Today was horrendous! We were severely busy. It got overwhelming. In the midst of that one of my judges friends and a boss himself decided to tease me. My coworker said that my face was bright red. I believe her because I felt it.
My searcher BFF came in today. She has some personal issues going on and really needed a friend. I was the best one I could be in between phone calls but no where near the friend that I wanted to be to her. I need to visit with her outside of the office. We'll just have to figure something out.
One of my old high school pals has taken to teasing me mercilessly too. I think I am a little deserving because I played back but sheesh! He's got me beat. I have to send up a white flag pretty soon or just get used to my face being red all of the time. I have to admit- it is pretty fun and funny, but I just want to be careful. Losing a friend over playfulness is not something I care to have happen. Plus, he was one of the Santa's Elf gift recipients. I had no idea it would drive him this insane. He wants to thank the person. I understand. I've been there too but you just have to let it go sometimes and let the chips fall where they may.
I stuck to the diet like glue. Tomorrow is the monthly weigh in. I'm trying not to think about it because it'll get me crazy. I have school tonight so that will keep my mind occupied! Statistics- UG!
So that's the whole thing in short hand for the last two days. I'll sign off here reminding you that you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive. See you next blog! ;-)
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
February 2, 2010 Diet Blog
"It's not what you're eating...it's what's eating you..." a face book friend quoted on her page today. You know- there is some truth to that. As I've so often mentioned stress and depression send me running to the fridge. Sometimes there is something else though. Something I cannot put my finger on. That "something" happened today. It's not the first time.
Today at lunch the girls noticed that I look better for the first time. After I reconnected my jaw I thanked them but for some reason I couldn't bring myself to believe them. Does that make sense? I think not. I heard the words they were saying alright but it was as if they bounced off me or something. For whatever reason, that made me want to run for the food comfort zone. I'm astonished at myself. And I do not understand the reaction.
Is there such a thing as a mid life crisis for women? I'm so weird lately. I truly don't understand myself...maybe it's the synthetic hormone replacements since the hysterectomy... I don't know. I changed into jeans and a sweatshirt for school because it is snowy and cold outside, but I felt ugly. Uglier. I can't explain it. Is it fear of a sort? It's definitely stupidity of a sort.
I didn't cheat on the diet but it was a serious struggle after that point. I can't help wonder if I'm abnormal or something or if other's experience that kind of feeling. I thought that I'd be thrilled. I am...or am I? Gees I could get totally twisted over it!
I worked all day. My voice is holding but shaky. School tonight wasn't bad. I actually understand a lot of what is being taught. Maybe I'm going to be okay here.
I'm going to sign off here because I'm freezing and it's getting late. I want to crawl under the nice warm quilt and forget about my idiosyncrasies. It's going to be okay. I just have to get hold of my emotions and corral the negativity so that the positive ions have a change to spread out and manifest good feelings about myself. See you next blog. ;-)
Today at lunch the girls noticed that I look better for the first time. After I reconnected my jaw I thanked them but for some reason I couldn't bring myself to believe them. Does that make sense? I think not. I heard the words they were saying alright but it was as if they bounced off me or something. For whatever reason, that made me want to run for the food comfort zone. I'm astonished at myself. And I do not understand the reaction.
Is there such a thing as a mid life crisis for women? I'm so weird lately. I truly don't understand myself...maybe it's the synthetic hormone replacements since the hysterectomy... I don't know. I changed into jeans and a sweatshirt for school because it is snowy and cold outside, but I felt ugly. Uglier. I can't explain it. Is it fear of a sort? It's definitely stupidity of a sort.
I didn't cheat on the diet but it was a serious struggle after that point. I can't help wonder if I'm abnormal or something or if other's experience that kind of feeling. I thought that I'd be thrilled. I am...or am I? Gees I could get totally twisted over it!
I worked all day. My voice is holding but shaky. School tonight wasn't bad. I actually understand a lot of what is being taught. Maybe I'm going to be okay here.
I'm going to sign off here because I'm freezing and it's getting late. I want to crawl under the nice warm quilt and forget about my idiosyncrasies. It's going to be okay. I just have to get hold of my emotions and corral the negativity so that the positive ions have a change to spread out and manifest good feelings about myself. See you next blog. ;-)
Monday, February 1, 2010
February 1, 2010 Diet Blog
It's been such a long day. I just feel exhausted. My voice was a hoarse version of raspy by the day's end of work. I just stopped talking after that. I read the past two homework's plus next weeks just to be familiar with the new stuff as it is introduced. I'm feeling okay about it. In a way- some of it seems vaguely familiar anyway...go figure.
My BFF from the searcher vault stopped by today. Unfortunately we had like one minute to talk before the phones exploded and I got totally overwhelmed. She was there long enough to say that she could see that my clothes are getting big. That was the high light of my day...clearly she's a keeper.
I pretty much spent the rest of the night talking through typing on face book. One of the girls I'm friends with is one I knew from high school. I knew of her but not her. She seems so genuine and so nice. She requested to read one of the drafts to my books. I had offered awhile back but she didn't respond and so I didn't mention it again. I'm not one to push myself down the throats of others. It's just not my way. I felt so good when she asked me to read it though. She had mentioned that she was a fan of reading, which was why I had originally offered in the first place. I didn't take insult when she didn't respond, I just figured she'd catch it when the actual book comes out this summer...but I'd be lying if I didn't say that I wish she'd asked to see it. Funny how things work out sometimes, isn't it? I told her to private inbox message me her address and I'd get it right out! I feel really good about that.
I hired Blairstown buddy to type the four books I lost when the computer crashed. I have the hard copies but I've needed them typed in. She needs money. It's a win-win situation. She accepted the offer. If she didn't I have another friend in NJ and one in Hawaii that are in between jobs too. I'm sure someone would do it. I'm glad it was her though. Life is good.
I'll sign off here because I need to crawl under the quilt and get warm and rested. School tomorrow night after work- and it's just so damn cold. It's chilling me right to the bone these days. I stuck to the diet though...haven't broken it! Have an excellent rest of the day or night, depending upon what time it is by you. See you in the next blog! ;-)
My BFF from the searcher vault stopped by today. Unfortunately we had like one minute to talk before the phones exploded and I got totally overwhelmed. She was there long enough to say that she could see that my clothes are getting big. That was the high light of my day...clearly she's a keeper.
I pretty much spent the rest of the night talking through typing on face book. One of the girls I'm friends with is one I knew from high school. I knew of her but not her. She seems so genuine and so nice. She requested to read one of the drafts to my books. I had offered awhile back but she didn't respond and so I didn't mention it again. I'm not one to push myself down the throats of others. It's just not my way. I felt so good when she asked me to read it though. She had mentioned that she was a fan of reading, which was why I had originally offered in the first place. I didn't take insult when she didn't respond, I just figured she'd catch it when the actual book comes out this summer...but I'd be lying if I didn't say that I wish she'd asked to see it. Funny how things work out sometimes, isn't it? I told her to private inbox message me her address and I'd get it right out! I feel really good about that.
I hired Blairstown buddy to type the four books I lost when the computer crashed. I have the hard copies but I've needed them typed in. She needs money. It's a win-win situation. She accepted the offer. If she didn't I have another friend in NJ and one in Hawaii that are in between jobs too. I'm sure someone would do it. I'm glad it was her though. Life is good.
I'll sign off here because I need to crawl under the quilt and get warm and rested. School tomorrow night after work- and it's just so damn cold. It's chilling me right to the bone these days. I stuck to the diet though...haven't broken it! Have an excellent rest of the day or night, depending upon what time it is by you. See you in the next blog! ;-)
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