September 18, 2009

Today was a much better day than yesterday. I woke up and told the girl in the mirror to take a deep breath, smile and things would be better. Then I promised her I'd make sure they were. You may remember that I mentioned sending a joke to a friend but that I was pretty sure they'd know who sent it. They did! It was the first text this morning as I arrived at work and it began my day on a note of laughter. I'm glad texts aren't videos. I laughed so hard I turned red. The girls cracked up. So much so that I was forced to explain....
We were inundated with clients but the work day went smoothly. My coworkers and I shared a few minutes of banter about dieting. One of the girls went to a nutritionist and has lost 30 pounds. She is doing well but feeling the 'pull' of real food in real portions. It's hard but you can actually see the weight loss on her now. She looks good.
Another had gone on a diet where she was given the prepackaged foods and told what to eat and when. It lasted just under three weeks. She jumped ship. I saw that coming. She works in the cafeteria upstairs from me. Pre-packaged foods did not fit her life style.
One thing that came up made me sit up and take notice. Once again I was astonished at the reality of the fact that I am not alone. This person had lost a lot of weight and has been on her diet for quite awhile now. She said that she'd had 2 slices of pizza, and had been allowed that on her calorie count. She then found herself in a position of being almost paranoid that she'd had the pizza. Had she had too much? Was she sure of the count? She got herself all worked up and worried over it and caused herself Agata.
Another girl mentioned that she kept telling herself to lose 5 pounds by this date or ten pounds by this date; all acceptable losses. Still she failed-failed-failed! I suggested that she use another method. Put out an article of clothing and head towards fitting into it comfortably. Take it one day at a time or three days at a time; try something like that I said. She liked the idea.
Another thing that came up was beating ourselves up after making the wrong choice. Beating ourselves up- and I'm guilty of that too- doesn't accomplish a thing. It doesn't undo the mistake or even burn up the darn calories. It's best to let it go and move forward. I know that's a little sentence with a huge and difficult meaning but I'm also going to give that a try.
My Blairstown BFF is coming up again to sing. She had a rough two days at work and needs a little friend-like TLC with the girls. I'm going to go with her. It'll make both of us feel better. She's on her way now.
I have a wedding to go to tomorrow. I'm anxious about it. I want to stay the course. I'm on a roll. I want it to continue.
For breakfast today I had a light n fit yogurt. For snack I had the rice cakes. For lunch I had Smart Ones dinner and carrot sticks. For 3pm snack I had a plumb. For dinner I had the left over multi grain noodles in sauce. I'm doing great!
On that note let me remind you...and myself because I fussed over outfits tonight and I still feel fat and ugly...you look the best that you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Don't let your perception of your body stand in the way of your having a good time. Stay positive. I'm still working on these things too. See you tomorrow. ;-)