Things are calming back down at long last. The insurance company is fixing the car. My friend from Florida seems in much better spirits- me? I'm leery but moving forward. I may have put myself too far out 'there' for him. It's a lesson that I've not yet retained in my life. Maybe I got it this time. I pulled the reins in a bit to protect myself. Two wrongs don't make a right and compounding an existing problem by creating another one to blanket it is not a good idea either. I will be a good friend- same as always, but the closeness that I felt- the kindred spirit kind of thing, is gone. I don't need this lesson taught the hard way... I've had about all of the hard lessons I care to in this life time if you get my drift...I'm moving forward now, this spot isn't good for me, and for once, I'm doing what's good for me.
I continue to see and feel angels around me. In discussing this matter with a friend the other day I realize that many 'signs' like this come to me because I ask so much for them to come. It was a revelation of sorts. I need to know and feel that they are around me, so I'm granted that knowledge. Maybe others less 'believing?' for lack of a better word, don't need it so they are granted whatever it is that they do need. I've had a hard life from birth til about 35 or so. I've ALWAYS seen them as I needed to. I've decided to try and accept that and again, move past anyone Else's opinion. Mine is the one that counts for me...theirs only counts for them. By George! I think I've got it! Finally!
I'm dealing with everything. My husband and I have had our problems as has every other couple, but I'm not ready to throw the towel in. We've been together for a very long time. That may or may not be part of the problem. Either way, moving forward from this spot too is the plan. I have to talk to him. Communication is the key. He is less than sensitive to my needs- so maybe things will be better if I just spell my needs out. That way there won't be room for error in this area.
The key to all of it seems to be not getting bogged down into the muck of the situations life throws at me. One friend said that they felt that so much mud was slung at me all at the same time as 'the devil doing his thing to undermine a good person.' I liked the sentence of course because I was depicted in it as the good person, but in giving it thought- I cannot help but wonder if there is some truth to it. That is the way evil would work to undermine good, isn't it? ...And I do try so hard to be good....
I'm consciously trying to accept myself 'as is.' Physically, I am trying to improve...and I want to improve myself in every aspect that I'm able, but I mean that I'm trying to let myself just be me while doing that and not let the opinions of others weigh so heavily on my assessment of myself. I have to remember that MY opinion counts too.
On that note- I am at day 6 and going strong diet wise. I look better than I did and I'm so happy about that. I want to look even better. I'm reaching for the Valentine's Day goal, one day at a time. That's how I did it according to my previous blogs. The advice was good. It's working again. I'm up to the task.
One thing I want to mention is DIET JELLO! It is excellent for deterring a sweet tooth, you can have as much of it as your tummy can hold and it's wonderful for your hair and nails. And MMMMM...tasty too! LOL!
Tell me about you. How are you doing? How is your progress? I'm glad to have company on this long and bumpy road. Let's do this thing! See you next blog! ;-)
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