December 31 2009 - January 1, 2010

Happy New Year everyone! The turn of the year and the turn of the decade have got my mind reeling. I find that even as time passes, there are still facets of 'me' that are only emerging for the first time... things I did not know existed. I embark on this year realizing the weight of that statement and knowing that there is so much more that I want to give to the world. I also know that I need to "live long and prosper" to accomplish that goal.
Needless to say I have climbed back onto the 'strict diet' train with that statement burned into my brain on too many levels to count. Upon my exit from that train and into the bliss of uncaring holiday binging I figured out that setting smaller time goals using an unwavering strict pathway to get there had a positive effect. I am re-entering that same formula as of this morning.
My goal for time is February 14. Valentine's Day I will allow myself to cheat. Unlike the holidays it will just be for the one day and then the plan is to jump onto the strict diet train again. The holidays were too long and too hard to maintain any kind of strict regimen. That was a pipe dream...but setting the time goal before them worked beautifully. Give this experiment a try with me! We'll do it together! I'd bet money that you too have so much more to give to the world than you've felt able to do in the past...and no matter WHAT age you are- there are still learning experiences to be had!
The end of 2009 went out with a bang for me...literally. I celebrated with my best BFF, her hubby and kids, her brother that was here from England, her brother's 'significant other' and friends, and of course- my hubby. We went to a Hibachi restaurant- probably THE most fattening food in the world!
Then we went back to the house of one of the friends where we watched the ball drop and they blew off fireworks. My best BFF's brother lost three fingers to that as a child. He steered clear. I followed his lead. One of the things that I've learned about myself this year is that I'm a smart person. Smart people do not blow off fire crackers in their back yard while drinking...or even while not drinking! We left as it seemed to be getting out of hand.
I got 'love' texts on my phone and 'love' messages on my face book page. So many of them were heartfelt. A person that I knew but was not close to as a young person mentioned that they were doing well but were short on cash to pay for gas to get to their AA meetings. My heart was really touched by that. I'm one to pause when something touches me like that. I feel that the Angels are nudging me when I feel that for a certain thing.
Though I could not help with that exact situation, because it was New Years Eve already, I really wanted to help. The address of said acquaintance was posted in their Face book information so I sent a $50 bill anonymously. I had sent a $20 bill just before Christmas for the same reason in the same way. On both, I drew a picture of a 'cross' shining on and a smiley face Angel watching over a car on a sunny day headed to a building with the letters AA on it. I wrote 'fill your belly, fill your car, then get to your meeting...' No signature. No return address.
I mailed it out. I have no idea if either of them arrived or will arrive in the case of the 2nd one. Still, I leave that part in God's hands. I think he would approve. If that acquaintance is deserving the money will arrive. I feel good about helping someone that is trying to help themselves. That's the way I want to enter this special turn of the decade New Year. I want to help others. It does not matter if they know who helped them (although the idea of teasing them by making them wonder is fun...and clearly exists for me!) Alcoholism runs rampant in my family. If I can help fix just one...you know what I mean?
I got one phone text that was just a number. It said 'hpy new yr I love u.'
Knowing how the anonymous cards will drive the recipient crazy but with a smile is a feeling I've been experiencing for a couple of months now. When I tried to call the number it was blocked. I text back 'whoz this pls?' I got no response. I loved it and I actually laughed out loud but it is indeed driving me crazy, not knowing who is playing with me, and has been doing so for awhile now.
...I will admit that the playful actions of whoever that is has sparked GREAT inspiration into my writing...I think that's God's plan...that 'do unto others' thing haunts me! So I deserve it returned in the same way I give it, I guess... ;-)
Oprah once called it 'random acts of kindness.
' A 'rose by any other name is still a rose.'
I am enjoying and want this year to begin like this...giving and receiving... and get bigger and better! I want that for you too.
So let's go friends! Let's do this thing! Let's make this year OUR YEAR! Let's be the people that we want to be and if we can assist others along the way, LET'S DO THAT! Again, Happy New Year! May this year bring you health, wealth, happiness, laughter, joy and love...as well as make your inner desires all come true...even the secret ones never expressed out loud... Thanks for blogging with me!
And remember: You look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stop you from having a good time. Stay positive. Remember that I'm right here...really. You are not alone! Have a great day and an even better year! See you next blog! ;-) xo