June 24, 2011 Diet Blog

Well- 5 pounds down overnight has gotta be some kind of a world record. How can that be? It's gotta be water weight from the gorge(?) That's all I can think of. Needless to say though- Fat as I REALLY an again- I feel light as a feather. The number matters. Though the actual number itself is horrid- it's not standing alone because of the literal "over night" success. I can only PRAY that the same thing happens to me on a global scale, speaking "author-wise."
The only question I had for today was if my food list was complete. It is, but you can also add blueberries, or raspberries to the fruit list if you so desire. Needless to say, since 1 fruit is 6-9 strawberries- how MUCH of those fruits counts as a fruit- especially because 1 apple also counts as a fruit. You see the dilemma? I cannot guess. Still, I went to work smiling!
My liquid intake exceeded the 2 liter amount, which they deem is fine thankfully. I drink constantly-All day-Everyday!
My food intake was much like yesterdays, because I need to get to the market on Saturday. I had two cups of coffee before I left for work. Just so you know- I used no sugar and a little milk. They say 1 tablespoon- I probably used two in each cup. Its the only rule I have to break.For breakfast I had one half of an apple sliced, with 3 cups of green tea. I had lemon in the tea and 1 sweet and low sweetener. You can use the juice of a whole lemon- I used half. Lunch was 100g of tenderloin sauteed in onions and water poured over a nice big green salad. It was lovely again. My sister in law squeezes the lemon over hers as a dressing. I may try that tomorrow. My mid day snack was the other half of the sliced apple. Dinner was 100g chicken, 2 cups cucumber slices. I love cucumber in this hot sticky weather. It's cool and refreshing and it tastes good. Then my final snack of the night was a full apple. I have an entire fruit last so that I don't wake up with my stomach growling or hungry in the night and I'm not so hungry that I'll grab ANYTHING in sight that's quick for breakfast.
Make no mistake- this diet is strict and it requires discipline. It has to come from inside of you. The normal diet is 1200 calories and the weight loss is good. It's just slower. This diet is only 500 calories. That's why they pull you OFF of it after 30 days and you have to maintain that weight for 6 weeks before being allowed to begin again. It's hard, but I feel like I've got a grip on myself again.
For me that's more than half the battle. I was spiraling out of control. For me the answer to the question of how to maintain a decent weight and stay healthy for the rest of my life lies within the title of this blog. "Keep fighting Fatty!" Even though we feel complete defeat we HAVE to keep going back to the beginning- square one if TH ATS what it takes. Of course I'll keep you posted about it all.
PS: I'm asked to go to the pool tomorrow- though I will go because I try NOT to let the weight stop me as you know, I am having GREAT anxiety over it. Bathing suits are a nightmare... On the inside- in my core, I KNOW that people there are looking at me and saying thank heaven I don't look like HER. People say that about other people all of the time while I listen there. For me, there's a certain embarrassment to being a fat person. But let me correct something I said on the blog the other day. I was having a very bad day. I'm sure you can empathise. Though I hate my looks and am totally frustrated, embarrassed and all of the other emotions that go with loathing my body, I do not hate myself. My core is beautiful. I know that. I'M locked in here. It's like an intricate cage. There is a way out but its through a labyrinth. I'll find my way.
The good part is that I am not alone. There are many of us and though we are locked in separate cages- we feel each other. We hear each other. Together we are strong and can pull each other through. I'm giving it another go. Join me... don't give up and I won't either...