Hope every one's Thanksgiving was as nice as mine was. My little niece lost her two front teeth this week and she looks just as cute as can be. She sang 'All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth' for us too. What a little doll.
We had a nice family gathering at my sister in laws consisting of my husband, myself, sis in law and the two kids and my mother in law. We held hands and individually gave thanks for our lives and things that are meaningful to us. It was nice.
I started out steadfast on my diet- skipping any and all snacks, drinking tap water and putting only Turkey breast and broccoli on my plate. Sadly, my darling hubby knows that my favorite thing on the planet is stuffing and put a nice big heaping spoonful on my plate without realizing that I had skipped it on purpose. My sis in law gave me a glass of wine and it was over. Yes- I had desert too- not watching at all... I'm sorry. I jumped ship. I walked the plank and swam with the sharks. I'll climb back on board tomorrow.
I text all my friends and loved ones with holiday warmth and put my holiday warm wishes up on face book as well. I enjoy doing that. I found myself wishing loved ones that I'm estranged with a Happy Thanksgiving as well, through text of course- they are not on face book. Just the simple sentence wishing Happy Thanksgiving to them was the way I went. I thought it best not to get to elaborate...hurting or upsetting someone was the opposite of what my intentions were. I want to forgive, heal inside and move forward. I did it for me. XBFF actually responded in a positive manner using only one sentence basically sending the same warm thought back. There was a smiley face at the end of the sentence. We parted on a very bad note and so I felt good about that. I didn't push it any farther. Like I said that was not my intention. I just wanted to reach out and cause a moment's pause and perhaps a smile. I was pleasantly surprised at that response coming first.
One of my brothers that I was very close to up until two years ago also sent my warmth back that way later in the day. Maybe he had to think about it for awhile first or maybe he was busy and didn't see it until then. It doesn't matter. What matters is that the response came.
My 'new' sister responded too. There is no estrangement or annimosity caused by 'us.' She was adopted as a baby and we've only just found each other about a year and a half ago. It's wonderful, and special and hard and amazing.... It was nice to get her text response.
Granted- I initiated the warmth but if I hadn't this nice feeling that I have wouldn't be in me right now. No one responded negatively- some did not respond, which is fine. There was NO negativity! None! I wonder if anything will come of it...I hope so. Life is too short for this type of thing. Those that didn't respond...well...at least the hope that they thought of me in a positive light for that one second exists within me now. I reached out...that's all I can do. I feel better for having done that. I feel good that the responses were positive and warmly charged. I chose not to banter. I didn't want it to turn negative for any reason. One step at a time...one baby step.... Maybe now there will be a 'next' positive time.
So- all in all it was a lovely day. I'm Thankful and grateful for you too; in case you had no idea. I appreciate your support and really hope I can do the same for you. Happy Thanksgiving. See you next Blog.
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