Did you ever hear the expression 'over worked and under paid?' Well it fit today along with under valued, under appreciated and under dog. The day started out at 8:31am with a person nasty to me because they dialed the wrong number. (yes really. THEY dialed me by mistake.) At first I politely tried to give them the correct number but they really felt the need to yell at me first. I gave the number and reminded them that I had no control over who phones me. I was stern but polite. I was upset though. They were very rude and crude. That call ended and the very next call was someone calling the court when they were in serious need of a lawyer.... He cursed me out using the 'F' word among other lovely things and my day continued in that fashion.
My coworker was out and the girl covering me is pregnant-about 6 weeks along I think. She's had multiple troubles in this area including several miscarriages. I didn't want her upset. I told her that. She promised that she would hold it together. Thankfully, my lunch break proved to be an easy hour thank heaven. She said it was very slow. As if by radar it got 'nutziod' again when I returned. So much so that she left for her lunch late because she couldn't pass along the information that I needed. Finally, she gave up and wrote it down. I'm just so glad that she was okay.
The afternoon literally had no breathing space between phone calls- most everyone was agitated. Just when I was ready to launch the phone out the window- a woman that I had helped emerged from a booth and told me specifically, using my name how wonderful I was with her and how comforted she felt after dealing with me. She thanked me. I damn near cried.
I was very glad to see 4:30 come. When I got home hubby was fixing the shower. He sat me down to discuss a home equity loan so that we can fix up the entire house- beginning with the bathroom. It's been at least 20 years since we did anything. We have no mortgage anymore- just taxes so I agreed and think its time. No children- no mortgage- it will bring up the value of our home...okay. I'm in.
I had a weight watchers chocolate 1 point cake for breakfast- the last one. I had smart ones, carrot sticks, grapes and yogurt for lunch no snacks, multi grain noodles in sauce for dinner. I feel so 'off' though.
I'm not depressed- but I am. I can't put my finger on it. My mind is racing. My hubby fell asleep early and so I felt all alone. Tears rolled down my cheeks- although there's really nothing wrong. I feel so lonely... almost like 'is this it?' I wonder if females have mid-life crisis...and if it lasts longer than a day?
I'll sign off here. Remember, you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive...and remember too- I'm right here. Were in this together. ;-)
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