July 6 2011 Diet Blog

Okay- so this diet sux...yesterday I was down today I am up 2 pounds. It doesn't make sense. You can't eat this little and NOT lose weight. I feel like I'm dieting my life away...and getting no where. I get it off, I didn't keep it off, I go back up, I go higher. I go down- yo yo status... ARG!
I took my niece out to get her nails done with me in the salon and then shopping for school supplies, which made her very happy. Then I made her pick out one small item for everyone in her family so that the experience could be shared. It seems to me that she's a bit selfish and self centered. At ten that's got to be curbed-gently, but curbed none the less. When we got home, before showing her things I had her hand out the gifts first. I wanted her to get the "giving" feeling. It's such a nice feeling. She shocked the hell out of her mother who nearly cried that she'd thought of everyone like that. Afterwards, she showed off her things to a non-jealous brother and attentive mother and father-figure. I secretly gave myself a mental pat on the back. (Job well done, I told myself.)
While shopping I found a few little princess goodies for my Tennessee baby girl. I send her one princess card a week since the Memphis book Tour. Her grandmother says it makes her day and she loves to check the mail everyday for her special card. Once in awhile I do a package. She'll definitely like this one. Ribbons and glitter paper...very sheik.
So, my good deeds done I came home thinking who I was. My reward? Without cheating- UP 2 pounds on the scale...not right.
I'm very upset about the verdict regarding Caylee Marie Anthony. That child's mother didn't report her missing for 30 days- instead went out partying etc. She may not be guilty of murder- although THAT is optional, but she is sure as hell guilty of neglect. Now she alleges that her father sexually abused her and he did it. Meanwhile, he's sitting in the court room...if that's true, why was she still living there with the little girl, and WHY are there pictures of her father holding the little girl, and WHY was he allowed alone time with her? Great defense- got her off on murder...hmmm the perfect crime?
Anyway- so this day is filled with self loathing, frustration and cosmic confusion. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. That number completely throws me. That's why I do the weigh in once a month...or when the moment strikes me- not everyday. See you next blog. ;-)