January 4, 2012 Diet Blog

Whew! Long day. Busy but not overwhelming. The front desk at work had both girls so that relieved me of the pressure but the staff is still light. I had some time to think about things. I stayed above the negativity but with everyone absent and a lot that were in work but feeling bad, it was a difficult task. Negativity grabs you and grips tight, pulling you into it's realm. I started down the pathway accidentally a few times but pulled myself out of it thankfully.
On my way home I talked to a friend that I've helped repeatedly over the last two years- drastically last year...I was upset to learn from him that I've not "done anything" for him for over a year. Meanwhile he hit e up for money to the point of being abusive. Hundreds of dollars...I took a deep breath and then gently corrected him. He instantly "remembered." I wondered if he was going to hit me up for more money and then said something stupid by mistake, there by negating any chance he had of getting any.
The negativity crept back toward me, but I held it at bay. I think that I may just be from another planet or something. I work so hard at being a good person; doing the right thing and making sure that my motives are pure and altruistic.... On my planet everyone is that way. Here on earth there are some like that, but a lot of them take advantage of niceness. Sigh... I'm not changing for them, but moving away from that is the way I'm heading. I think I'm my own worst enemy. I sacrifice myself for others sometimes...and sometimes it's worth it, but sometimes it's just plain not worth it, you know?
I didn't sleep well. I've been dreaming the craziest dreams lately. Not bad or violent, just crazy. Last night I brought the Queen a new mop. The mop was SO important.... lol. I think that's why the negativity thought it could "get" me today. I'm a bit weary.
Again, I had nothing for breakfast but coffee. Lunch was 4 oz. chicken breast and cucumber slices. Snack was a tangerine. Dinner was 4 oz shrimp and one cup green beans. At 8pm I had an apple. My eating habits literally took a back seat. I like that.
I mailed out the funny poem I wrote for the sick friend I mentioned. I laughed to myself as to what his reaction may be. He doesn't know that side of me, lol. The birthday gift arrived at it's destination for another friend. There will be a cake and candles. I recruited two of his friends that I've never met to help me with that. He thinks we forgot. I NEVER forget. At Christmas I recorded my voice into one of those books that kids get from grand parents where the grand parent can read the story. The story, or rather the original one was "The night before Christmas." I say original because I re-wrote the story as a comedy with specific details about the recipient and myself woven into it. I have the reindeer farting, and all kinds of silly things. Anyway- it arrived at it's destination as well and went over VERY well. I think I might do one (a different original) for Ellen Degeneres. She LOVES comedy. I think she would appreciate it! "Twas the month after Christmas, when out on the lot...Ellen drove into her parking spot LOL...(to be continued.)
Anyway- the negativity lost. Better things prevailed- like a smile. That's the real secret to life, isn't it? A happy life, I mean. To smile. To let go of the negativity even as it comes through. To give it to God and then say thank you to him for taking it. Life really is good if we let it be good. See you next blog.