January 2, 2012 Diet Blog

So, the second day went off without a hitch. I felt lighter in spirit and in mind than I have for a long time. It felt easy. I talked with God and the Angels a lot. I walked with them actually. For me the weight is not about food. The food is the self- medication I take and the fat hides the REAL issues. There are many, mostly having to do with my self esteem; left over from childhood I guess. My dreams and my hopes along the author path lately too. I want it "all." Silly of me to think I have control of that, isn't it? It's in HIS time, not mine. I know that. Still, it doesn't stop the yearning in me to be someone (I want to say special but the truth is someone...) else. I want to be proud of me; believe in me and KNOW that I deserve the things I dream of. My intentions really are good, no matter what my reasons are. I think HE knows that. The problem of weight in my case, stems to the core of me; my issues with myself. I'm not going to fight that anymore- I'm going to give learning about these issues, defining them and then finding the ability to overcome them while using a different method to cope with them. It's a tall order. I'm strong. I will accomplish this goal. I'm still in the learning process.
I'm going to start by not beating myself up about my looks. I'm not at my best and that's okay because I'm NOT throwing in the towel either. I'm a loved and gifted person and I have God on my side. I have Angels in my corner. I have divine guidance. I need to remind myself of that. HE hears me in desperation. HE also hears my thanks. HE knows my dreams. HE knows my heart. HE will guide me to where I need to be as I need to be there. Prayer. The answer is in prayer. Only through prayer can I contact HIM. Only through prayer can I find the strength; the belief; the reality of my dreams and the correct reasons for my pursuit of all of the above.
So, needless to say, I'm feeling better about things in the last two days. I needed to renew my spirit I think. I was so "dog-tired." I needed to rest my mind and my body. I think I did that.
I got on the scale yesterday, I forgot to mention. I still dislike the scale and so for that reason I will weigh in once a month. I'm going back to using my feelings..."the Force" as Luke Skywalker would say...my Higher Power.
I had a tangerine and coffee for breakfast. Lunch was a beautiful green salad, 4 oz of tenderloin and sauteed onions mixed together. No dressing. The onions sufficed nicely. For dinner I had a skinless turkey leg and cucumbers. For 3 am snack I had an apple. For evening snack I had another tangerine.
I'm going into this with a good outlook. I feel the presence of something/someone GREATER than me. I'm giving HIM the helm. Join me my friends; take care of YOU. Happy New Year.