The weigh in as promised. 29 pounds down. Not a big loss but remember I had a huge cheat day and the month was short...at least that's what I'm telling myself as the disappointment filters into my brain. I feel, see and have been hearing that the difference in me is showing big time. I'm wearing smaller clothes and was actually forced to put some of the original ones away because they are so big...so why the small number? I ask myself that. The number is why I choose NOT to weigh in every day or even every week. It's depressing. I like "feeling." It's just better for me.
The next "cheat day is on or around Easter, which is on or around my son's and his wife's birthdays. They will not be here for Easter nor will they be around for their birthdays because they are going away, so I'll work it in around the times that they are available. I'm doing okay with the super strict stretch of time to the cheat day. It's working for me so far so I'm going to continue it.
The funniest thing happened at work the other day. One of my coworkers- the pregnant one came out to the front. She actually had me stand up so that she could examine me ;-). It was weird because I really do have a shy streak and I would've rather hid under the desk but I complied instead. She and the coworker that works the front desk lavished me with praise. That felt nice. I wish that I could see what they see. I feel it sometimes- but REALLY I want to see, you know what I mean? Do you think that it's just the mentality of a "fat" person to think "forever fat thoughts" if you get what I mean? (sigh)
My friend from the searcher vault said something that stuck with me too. She said that she has decided to just "be happy." And she is. Her times have been rough, but she wears that smile and she's got a spring in her step...it's a beautiful thing. I like that philosophy!
Tonight I'm reading the excerpt of my book at an old friend's house on Staten Island. I'm a little nervous, but I'm thrilled to do it. I'm also going to bring a nice bottle of wine I think. I haven't seen her in a very long time. I hope that it goes well.
I'm going to sign off here because I need to get ready for work. As I said I will blog whenever I'm able for now. Everyday is hard because I'm overwhelmed right now with "book stuff." Please post or email or Face book if you need me. I'm still with you....
AND remember, you look as good as you can for today. Tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive! See you next blog! ;-)
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