It's been an elevator ride at work this week. It was either really bad and really busy or really nice and really busy. Either way we were really busy. I feel overwhelmed- as do all of my co-workers. The stress level is high and so things are tense. I won't go into more vivid details than that other than to say that there is one co-worker who was so stressed that she tends to 'bully' and push her way through whatever situation presents itself...and this time it was my turn to be on the receiving end of her BS. It's happened before but this time she crossed a line. I just don't feel the same about her. AND THAT saddens me...
On the other end of the spectrum, the book signings are starting to come to fruition. Nothing solid yet but I'm definitely excited these days about that! As one of my other co-workers said 'your life is either black or white- there's NO gray matter....' I laughed because that statement is so true. I did a reading of an excerpt last weekend. It went great!
Sometimes I feel like a weakling up against huge hairy monsters with the strength of superman and sub human powers though, if that makes any sense. I feel lost sometimes. I try to be as good of a person as I can possibly be but I still seem to step off the path...or fall off is more like it- even get pushed off... it's so crazy.
On the 'I can't believe it' portion of this weeks calender one of the Santa's Elf's recipients actually found me! I was amazed at the fortitude it took for him to do that. Plus we really don't know each other. We ended up talking on the phone for hours and hours. He's a lovely, spiritual, gifted person and very easy to talk to. I ended up revealing the secrets behind 'me' as we spoke and I think that he did the same. He is very sick right now. Without going into detail and divulging things that are just between us- my heart and prayers go out to him even though he's just dealing with whatever the Lord's plan might be. He had such a rough life. I'm so glad to count him among the people I label as BFF now. Male's are not usually honored with that title in my world...the one that I did honor with it turned out to be the biggest liar and phony baloney on the planet- not to mention the other bad things... so Male's scare me...still... there's something different about this one...I feel warmth and white light....He knows things that are happening in my life that I haven't told my family and friends, or even wrote to you or spoke of OUT LOUD! Can you believe that?! That is weird for me too.
He knew me by the wrong name as a child too so finding me was strange, especially because the name I signed on the note containing the gifts I sent was 'Santa's Elf.' I'm amazed that he caught me lol. I really didn't think he- or anyone else for that matter- could do that. In my defense this particular person has a 142 IQ though. I didn't stand a chance...and believe it or not I think that explains about his life to a degree too. Genius' have issues. He had them and they weren't cared for or even noticed by the adult authority figures in his life...it's just so sad...still, he's so positive and sweet and warm... that's amazing too. I was called a 'gift from God' by a woman yesterday...but he really is one I think.
The diet? Oh yeah- is THAT why were on here lol? It's going beautifully. In fact I'm leaving for karate in just a few minutes and I'll begin my day. I hope that you are all doing as well. If not- begin today! Start now! You saw me start and stop a million times until it 'took.' Don't give up. You can do it.
In the meantime remember: You look as good as you can for today (which is pretty beautiful to me) tomorrow you will look that much better. Do not let your perception of your body stand in the way of you having a good time. Stay positive! And something my Spiritual Male BFF told me: See yourself through HIS eyes...to HIM we are all his children...and truly beautiful...I forgot that for awhile! See you next blog! ;-)
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