February 4, 2011 Diet Blog

It was wear red day today at work. It was to promote awareness about heart health. It's a good thing to be aware of in my opinion and so I wore red. Someone actually said 'hi skinny' to me. I had to laugh at that one. Funny that it's day 2 of that diet that my sister in law is referring me to. I do have to make a point though, about this diet.
She contacted me today and said that she was wondering if I would mind taking HCG that her doctor has her on along with the diet. I'm not sure what it is, but it comes in drops to be put into her water. I have an adversity to putting anything into my system like that because I believe that dieting is a forever thing for people that have my metabolism or my predisposed condition towards being overweight. I mentioned my reservations to her. She said that she only had to take this HCG stuff for the forty days. I considered it for a split second. When she told me that it was ONLY $600 I nearly fainted. The word ONLY in the same sentence as $600 is a quicker deterrent for me than the original reasons that I stated here. Needless to say- I will not be taking HCG. I will be taking my vitamins and the prescription ordered by my doctor that has nothing to do with my weight.
That being said- I'm here to tell you that I toughed it out with this diet today. For breakfast I had coffee. (I accidentally left the pot on and came home to a charcoal pot- but that's another story titled the pot really is black whether the kettle is or not...) At 10am I had an apple. At noon I had left over beef tenderloin from last nights dinner- 4 oz and vegetable medley- 2 cups. At 3pm I had another apple. Dinner was 4oz salmon cucumbers 1 cup, carrots-1 cup. I drank all of the water and suffered through the diet headache that usually hits on day 3 of a diet for me.
The added bonus of the day was the 'Superbowl' party at work, which just means people bring in tons of fattening foods and we eat 'til we pop. I didn't have so much as one chip. My co-workers all think I'm such a disciplined person. It's funny. They should see me when the 'addict' shows up during tremendously stressful situations. They'd have to figure out a different word because 'disciplined' would surely be less than a perfect fit.
I have a sad heart today for someone I love very much who has just discovered that her husband of nearly two decades is cheating on her. She phoned me hysterically crying. This person is one of the strongest people I've ever met. Hearing her today- reduced to tears and sobs was almost more than I could bare. My friend from Florida that I recently visited called me too. The bad day seemed to have been contagious at that point. I let him vent- finding myself weary of having an opinion. But then he gave me a turn and I told him about the other person and how helpless that I feel. Surprisingly, he gave some interesting advice. Clearly I can't step in the way of the pain, but I should be there to 'hold' her through it....like I did for him even though we were a half of a world apart. I have to tell you- that was probably the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me without actually paying me a direct compliment. I'm still reeling from it and the ice I've built up around my heart where he was concerned turned to slush. Messy, cold and still chock full of icy lumps, but melting just the same- Do you understand what I mean?
Those two phone calls were right after work. Then I cooked the dinner- NOT to my husbands satisfaction. I broiled the Salmon. It was too crispy on the top. I added sliced orange pieces to his meal to be sure that he got fruit into himself- the oranges were 'weird.' We had cucumbers instead of the originally planned green beans because I couldn't find them. Either I forgot to buy them or I left them in the store...perhaps they are in the 'land of the one socks' that disappear through the dryer vent from time to time.... either way, no green beans. Finally, I told him to cook his own dinner from now on. He shut up. It was a good thing....my mood was kind of crashing.
BUT I didn't cheat. I was well tested, and well resilient, thankfully. Sigh though... you know what I mean?
I'll sign off here. Enjoy your morning/afternoon/evening. See you next blog. ;-)