December 3, 2009 Diet Blog

I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night. The day carried over into my rest time and I couldn't shut my mind off. It was a rainy, windy, nasty night, full of lightning bursts. I got up and played on the computer for awhile but a surge of energy shut off everything in the house so I shut it down and went to bed. It was such a restless night.
I dragged myself into work promising myself that it was going to be a better day. It wasn't. In an unrelated to yesterday- incident, two of my co-workers had an altercation. Co-worker A opened the window by her cubicle because she was hot. It was windy and the brisk December air blew across to Co-Worker B's cubicle. B has a history of medical issues and cannot take the cold. When she was shivering she finally asked A to close the window. A- refused in an not very-nice, agitated manner siting a hippa law of some sort about disclosing medical issues and told B that she was a 'princess." She said that she wasn't 'bowing down' to B. B got very upset. Once again all of the people in a supervisory position were out or gone to lunch including the boss. B told the acting supervisor as far as rank went what had happened, that she wasn't feeling well and that she was going home. She put it in writing and gave the note to the bosses assistant. The supervisor took her back into the office to try and resolve the situation with A at around 10 minutes to 1pm. A's lunch hour was at 1pm. A still refused to close the window. B went home. The rest is nuts.
A got to the boss before the acting supervisor. He got upset because B left without consulting him first. He suspended her without pay. Now I ask you, does that make any sense? A only had 10 minutes until she was leaving for lunch. Why couldn't she just close the stupid window? It was ridiculous! There was a full moon just the other day...it really makes you wonder.
I struggled with the decision made about this too just as I struggled with yesterdays. On the way out the door my boss and the assistant said goodnight and I said goodnight back. My boss turned and acted as if they were going to say something to me. Bosses mind Changed or not, but the boss nodded instead and went out the door. I pray that none of the higher ups ask me my opinion. I'm not a good liar and I'm not interested in losing my job.
I came home and just vegged for the night. I had a lite n fit yogurt for dinner. I just can't eat... I always saw my boss in the most amazing of light....fair, just...the one with the view of the bigger picture... I'm so disappointed. B has just purchased a home. Her husbands 9 year old daughter moved here from out of the country and she took that on. She can't afford to lose the money. My heart is bleeding profusely for her. I have to say that A wasn't well liked by anyone but the few higher ups before this...now? Forget it. What WAS that anyway? She got off on hurting another person? And what about the fair -just thing, like listening to both sides of the story? What about that? I'm sorry to put all of this out on the blog...I'm stressed and upset to the point of shaking though.... Usually I head for the chocolate. I'm reacting weird. I'm actually ill. I cannot eat. I'm not sick. Just...ill....
Let me try to go towards a more positive place before I make myself worse.
My sister sent me an article I thought was pretty good. She got it out of 'Shape' magazine's October issue. I have the magazine. I highly recommend reading it. It was called 'Lose Weight without dieting!' It spoke about tricking yourself into eating less, thus dropping pounds effortlessly. 1- Fool Your Appetite. This was the use of smaller dishes so the food portions will look larger- idea. We've all heard it before, haven't we? It's a good idea though. 2- Say no to crime. Obviously committing a crime is a bad idea but they mean the television shows about crime. They supposedly upset you and make you eat more than you normally would as a reaction to being upset. I found that interesting. I love those types of shows; not gory ones; and I do eat more when I'm stressed-usually. It made me wonder. I'll check and let you know. 3- Give your fork a rest. Eat slower. Enjoy your food. Put the fork down once in awhile to share pleasant conversation. We've heard that too. Also a good idea. 4- Jog your memory. Write down in detail what you've eaten, when and how much. It will remind you not to over indulge. 5- Watch your mouth. Well, swear words got soap in the mouths of children using them back when I was a child but that's not what this means. It means to eat in front of a mirror. This is a new one for me. I've never heard it. Simply put, staring at the reflection of yourself while you eat makes you more aware of your body and by association, your weight loss goals. That one seems odd to me but I'll give it a try and post the results. If you want to do the same I would love that!
So that's about everything I can say for today. If you happen to have a moment and want to say a little prayer for peace on earth, I am doing the same. That prayer is important on so many levels in today's world isn't it? Everything from Iraq and Afghanistan to office issues and family sagas are covered under it. I'm going to say one as soon as I log out. In the meantime- I hope you are doing well. Have a great rest of today and I'll see you again on the next blog! ;-)