December 2, 2009 Diet Blog

Oh, I woke up in the most spectacular mood today! I floated on a cloud through my morning routine and rode 'Mr. Toad's Wild Ride' to work, laughed and text with my young friend from PA and my high school prom date and went into work feeling like I could conquer the world. I had it going on!
I really meditated about my body. And then I gave myself a motivational speech, which I shared with my co-worker. I'm very loved by my husband, my son, family and friends. I'm a good person and have helped many people- some that I've never met before and may never see again. I've done random acts of kindness during my travels that gave others a good feeling as well as myself, and also provided a good story for them to tell their families. None of those mentioned look at me and see anything other than that. The pounds will come off, but they aren't everything. The things I mentioned ARE. I was really feeling wonderful!
Lunchtime was still fun. The banter and the conversation was fun and moved swiftly from subject to subject until the hour was up. One of the girls mentioned that she sees my weight loss, especially in my upper torso and face. 'Less bulky' was her way of putting it. That felt very good and I went back to work still happy. Sadly, the happiness ended there.
To make a long story short and sweet, a crazy lady called several times. She upset the girl that complimented me at lunch and myself. The complimenter told her that her behavior was unacceptable and inappropriate and was forced to hang up on her. I told her she was very rude and did the same. She was completely out of control. She phoned me back at half hour intervals demanding to talk to the people that were out sick or on a vacation day. She was so verbally abusive that I wrote it at the bottom of the message to my Boss because I wanted the boss to be prepared. The boss is a very important person and not used to being talked to in any other manner than with the respect that was earned.
As I finally took that message for the boss and she gave me a nasty ultimatum assuring me in no uncertain terms that 'her papers had BETTER be ready when she comes in at 4....' That didn't seem like it was going to happen but I said nothing. When the boss came back I explained to him how verbally abusive she had been. I gave forth her exact sentence. I gave him the note. I know that I was noticably upset.
It didn't end there though. Sadly, the girl that complimented me at lunch ended up getting yelled at for telling her friend- a security guard about the issue. She just asked him to wander up and check on us at 4. He didn't. Instead he told his supervisor and another officer was sent up. She actually got in trouble for doing that. I'm shocked. I'm the front man...me and one co-worker. Are we not allowed to call security in when we feel threatened? I felt threatened. What if she came up at four and her papers were not ready? She is well known in our place of employment for this exact problem and has been escorted out of other offices when they felt threatened. I love my job but I've gotta tell you- we handle a lot of 'crazy' people- mad; upset, irate, livid, hurting people. I don't think the boss really gets that. They aren't like that with the boss.... I'm so upset. It ruined the rest of my night and I can't get it out of my mind. What's that old saying? 'You can't fight city hall.' This situation is so messed up. The Boss should've backed her play. It's ME that's in danger if some crazy snaps. I'm glad that she told her friend. She should've been commended for thinking to protect us that are out front. Instead she got reprimanded for doing what I think was the right thing. I just don't know what to do.... I don't know what to think. There's no way to twist this where she comes out wrong....
My diet went great though. Oatmeal for breakfast, grilled chicken salad for lunch, regular vegetable salad and fruit salad for dinner. No snacks. Body conditioning was fine too. 40 minutes at 2.6 - 2.9 depending. I was so upset that it was easy. I cried in the car on the way home from class. I'm so upset and frustrated. When she comes in brandishing a weapon or hurts someone because she's not getting her way; what then? I'm so disheartened....this is not good.... I can't believe our safety is not a top priority. I always thought that it was.
I'm going to go grab a hot shower and hit the hay. If you work with me or visit me in the office or lunchroom or see me in the hallways or at all- please don't bring this up. I don't want any more problems brought down on my co-worker's head. It totally stunk to be us this afternoon- I don't imagine anyone on the scene felt any different. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. Good night. ;-)